May be it's is what i want
As a teen
Let me take you with me ,the world that i fantasize myself in travelling around living a life like in my imaginary one
Yeah where i don't care about what people are talking about ,where i am more relaxed ,where i am the main role , where i am the priority , where there is just me .
But being a teen I'm also worried about my present being a teen I'm worried about my future , I'm working on it as I've to rise myself , As a teen and middle class girl i have to reach for myself ,for everything i have ever imagine or i have ever dream of "The big white house ,the luxurious house , world tours with my family and lot more , I know I'm not god gifted chid with a genius senses and all but what i just want is to live in my imaginary life just little more ."
From the childhood the early phase of my life , i have never to able express my thoughts , my emotions and my feeling ,i sometimes cry very easily sometimes its very hard to cry i don't know where life is taking me but all i want is to live my imaginary life for sometime , i want to see the proud faces of my parents , the delightful smile on their face .
There's a lot on my list because I'm a young teen girl , i just want myself to be a person that i want , i just want myself to be more free , to make myself a indepent me yeah I'm working on myself .
But know everything has been changed as i am no longer imagining anything yeah i want everything but i has stopped imaging may be maturity hit me .
No longer playful innocence is there , there is a terror of being uunsuccessful instead of passion of being succesful, the fear is real ,i think maturity has hit me somewhere .
There no time to imagine what i just do think about is meaning less thoughts, i don't like to be compared but I'm the one who is comparing . May be im no more special as God wants to test me more ,i don't like party song anymore ,Hindi lofi are my friends these day maybe maturity has hit me somewhere.Gradually i just stopped everything may be childhood left me completely , now I'm 18 and is in the age of reality check , the realisation that the real world is this in which i just started walking , the massive competition , friends that back bites and alot more , my own friends are my competitor, i think the world is not with me and even the God ,
But the instant realisation that i just have, is ignore the bad there's alot that is unexplored and is waiting for me , God is there for me too, when ever i get tripped or fall he is at the back who never wants me to fall apart ,i think we are thinking about what's gonna happen, that's why you are stressed just hold you pen wrote down all , satisfy your emotion by writing it down . Just like I'm doing it girl.