Cancer-1
"So what about the results?" Juhi exclaimed with an expression of concern on her face.
It has been almost 5 years since I've known her and she hasn't changed her over-protective nature a bit!
We were traveling back home in a subway, and her house was just 2 buildings apart from mine.
So the results she was asking for was the report of the 'CT Scans' which were done on me, and apparently i had cancer...
"Its serious.. the doctors said i have cancer stage 3, in my lungs, and the operation will cost a lot with only 70% success rate, without it i only have about 1 year at the most to live." I somehow managed to say it while keeping a straight face but juhi, she had known me far too long to know that i was torn up inside, i mean who wants to die at the 21?
I was expecting her to console me and be like " Its alright spectra, we'll look into it but for now lets not talk about it", so that my mind would be off this stuff. But her face showed looked awestruck, as if it was to break down after seeing something terrifying. This news was horrifying enough and i knew it was too hard for her to take it in so tried changing the topic.
"Lets talk about something else, I already have a lot of stuff on my mind and i don't want to keep on being sad over the same stuff" i said while trying to put up a smile, but her face reminded me of all the memories i had made with her, which in turn lead on to all the memories i had made with everyone. Now, i was just thinking about my past and what all wrong things i had done before, and what all i missed out in my life. I finally burst out crying.
"i don't want to die yet"..
..."its too early"..
"Theres so much left to do, i can't die yet"...
I hugged juhi as if it was the last time i was meeting her, it was warm, she comforted me and cuddled me in a protective manner. It would have been embarrassing if we did this earlier in a public place, but it wasn't something of concern to me anymore. A shocker like this made me realize how i had been doing stuff incorrectly and what all was my instantaneous priority.
Maybe this news wasn't so bad after all...