1 Introduction

I've been living this life for 20 years now, and time after time I have those thoughts that I want to convey but there is no one to really vent on to.

You can call me Abs, thats what people always call me these days. If you are interested in reading my unconveyed thoughts then you are welcome to try to.

For now let me give you a some details about my life. We are a family of 6 (One of my sister is adopted) we are a happy family, or so what I wish it to be.

My family is an uther mess, my father is addicted to vices such as smoking and alcohol, and from time to time will become emotional in a bad way. Some example of it are getting in a fight with others or us, his family. But he is quite and always working when sober, usually never bother to talk to us unless important or we are the ones to initiate conversion with him.

My mother, 18 years old, or so she says is kind off have a teenager mindset. Always going on a trend and even learning lingos of the newer generation that even I don't understand unless I search it in the internet. Unlike my father, my mother was the one we beat the sh*t out of us since we are young, she said its a form of discipline.

That's why most of us siblings are always locked out of the room, if we escape to play then we are either beaten up with anything she touches that we basically immune to it when we reach a certain age.

Sometimes, my mother chases us or humiliate us in front of our peers or just other people. Like when she tied me in a pole in front of our house naked, and called some of my classmates or batchmates to see the show. She said that I shoud be grateful that I didn't experience being tied in a sack just like she experienced when shes a kid (There's some kind of lore in her province that I don't know.)

I'm kinda getting side-tracked so like I said, my mother 'discipline' us by making us eat chilli's, or making us kneel on a floor full of salt, mung beans or sometimes corn kernels with a touch of psychological attack that degrade our existence.

Leaving that aside, let me introduce you to my 2 biological sisters and my adoptive sister. The eldest have some serious anger management issues and thinks shes always right, always degrading my existence and calling me trash.

My 2nd eldest is kind of the middle man in the family, when there is trouble, she always fixes. She knows how to converse and get along with people.

My adpoted sister is the princess in the family, although super young has a sense of maturity that kids her age doesn't even have. Imagine a kid helding back her urge to get something she really wants, and tell us that we don't have money so it's okay not to buy it. She even reprimand us sometimes when we drink softdrinks, or buy junk foods saying its unhealthy. The reason behind this is our circumstances that exist in our family.

Oh, I also have a younger brother that unfortunately died prematurely, which is why my family became more enstrange.

As for the circumstances lets talk in another chapter