1 My 17th birthday note
4th April, 2010.
Time: 00.01
This is my 12th note that I'm writing. I don't know if I will be able to write my 13th note on my 18th birthday.
I'm Christina. I'm officially 17 today. I'm a high school graduate. I'm studying on Oneirology. It's under the department of Faculty of Psychology via distance learning. I recently moved to Madrid from District of Columbia. My goal was to study oneirology and I got a scholarship to Bircham International University.
Oneirology is the scientific study of dreams. Current research seeks correlations between dreaming and current knowledge about the functions of the brain, as well as understanding of how the brain works during dreaming as pertains to memory formation and mental disorders.
I'm trying to learn more and more, I'm researching and I'm gathering knowledge too. However I have not yet reached my destination 1%. I need to work harder. I need a solution.
Yes, I always watch the same dream. Every day. That same dream wake me up everytime. I'm afraid to sleep. I wish I was an insomnia patient. But it is not, and every time I sleep I have the same dream which makes my body tremble like every time. I've talked to my professor about this but he couldn't give me a proper answer. But he promised to help me.
And he, he has not left me yet! Who is he? I do not know. But he's been following me since the beginning! I still feel like an eye is watching me. Why did I even call it "he"? I don't know it's he or she, even a human or not! But I can feel it. In this room I, along with my nightmares, there is also the third eye that is still watching me.
It hasn't hurt me yet, but it's horrible. I'm scared. It always sees me from a distance that I can feel. But when it tries to get close to me, I can feel the terrible cold even in summer.
Third Eye. You are also a very big question for me.
And the as usual last line.
I write in this diary on each of my birthdays. I wrote today. I don't know if I'll write next time. If I don't write, maybe I'm no more.
-Cristina-
