1 Simula

SIMULA

Curse

"People stay not because they forget. People stay because they forgive."

Kera's words slowly breaks my heart. She really want me to be in good terms with my father. Even in her condition right now, ang relasyon ko sa aking ama parin ang iniisip niya.

Here I am now, again, standing in front of the tall cherry blossom tree, showered by it's beautiful flower, embraced by the cold wind, and touching softly the tall tree, with the most beautiful name engraved on it.

'I love you so, so much, baby.'

The seasonal wind blew my coat and disheveled my hair, but I never mind it. I open the bottle of wine I brought and pour a little amount on my wine glass.

"Like what I had promised, I only drink twice in a year," as the tears slowly flows from my eyes, I laid under the tree, closes my eyes and felt and embrace the pain and longings that attacked me right now.

"B-baby. . ." I try to talk to her with a shaking voice, I can't stop myself from sobbing, it hurts me so much every milli second I remember her.

"Your absence is like a curse, don't you know that?" I try to wipe another tears that flows from my eyes. "When you go away, its like I'm dying too. It hurts so, so much," my sobs getting louder and louder.

"I m-miss you so much. I-I really.... really do," sa napapaos na boses kong saad. I can't just stop my tears from falling. It's killing me. Her absence is killing me.

'𝐼'𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑞𝑢𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑖𝑛𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦.'

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