Chapter 12

Roseanne

I just crossed the corridor. I heard someone run behind me, without my knowledge I was pulled inside a room. I gasped when I felt sparks all around my body. He wrapped his hands around my body. His hands ruffling my hair. Harold hugged me tightly. He was squeezing me, he was scared- to let me go. I spoke unable to breathe.

"Harold?" He just hmphhhed.

"I am not running away. I-I can't breathe." He immediately left me. His hands still wrapped around my body.

"I am sorry." Harold spoke for the first time in a while. He was facing the ground. "I have no words to explain how sorry I am. I can't even ask for your forgiveness because I don't deserve it. I don't deserve it."

Harold had his hands on mine. I felt a pinch of coldness on my hands. Tears. Harold was crying. He was.... he is guilty.

"I made you cry. I hurted you. I-I don't know how to speak for myself. Nothing can make you escape my words and actions. It's just- it's just that....I-I

I knew he was struggling with words. I spoke for him,"It's okay.

I-." I was cut off in the middle.

"Rosie? Rosie? Where are you?" I heard Marcus calling for me.

"I'll call you." I left without letting him speak.

"What were you doing in the room?" Marcus asked me.

"Nothing. Let's go." I started walking without waiting for Marcus.

The whole ride home was silent. Marcus didn't ask me anything nor did I. I wanted some silence to my ears, to my soul and to my mind. I kept thinking about Harold. What he did was not acceptable. He didn't make excuses for him. I'll give him that but just because he shredded tears can I let everything go? Should I let it go? I somehow felt good that Marcus started to look for me. If he wasn't there, I sure would have forgiven him. I mean, I still want to forgive him but then my heart aches. It's not his fault for behaving like that. We all were in a situation where our mine would go completely blank. It proves that how much he cares for his sister, his family. I am stuck-

"Hey?" Marcus called out my name, shaking me."

"Hmmm?"

"You're lost." Marcus said looking at me all worried.

"I am just tired. Have we arrived?" I asked unblocking my seat belt.

"Let's go."

Here I am. At my home. Is it my home? I questioned myself. Its the first time I am coming over here, that too like a guest. All of a sudden I got frustrated. I don't have any energy to talk with them. I straight up want to go ahead and sleep in my room if I have any.

"Hey.... umm do I have my room?" I asked Marcus.

"Go straight up the stairs and it's the third room on your right." He said faintly smiling at me.

As we entered, I heard some noise, probably coming from the kitchen. I decided not to doodle here and there and go straight up to my room and sleep.

As I opened my eyes, I looked at my phone and saw that it was already 10 at night. I don't recall falling asleep. I remember locking my door and lying down. I still have my shoes on. And that my boy freaked me out. I am a typical girl who grew up watching Asian dramas and even have a Asian bestfriend. Yes, Charlotte is an Asian kid but she was born here. Even if I was influenced by Asian dramas, I feel like leaving your shoes at the entrance and wearing inside slippers are a must portrait human traits. It's a must for your hygiene and health. I immediately took off my shoes but left my socks on. My stomach started gurgling so I opened my door and headed downstairs.

"Hey guys." I casually said, walking downstairs.

"Roseanneeeee." Someone shouted.

I glanced back and boom I was met with big boogie hug. This girl, which I assume to be Marcus's mate twirls me around. My eyes popped out. Marcus and my parents were laughing.

"Oh my god." I shouted keeping hands on my chest.

She put me down and said,"Sorry, werewolf power." She bite her tongue. Cute. Ahemm.

She was expecting me to say something but she spoke again, "I am Lilith." She expanded her hand for a shake.

"Roseanne." I replied, shaking hands with her.

"I knowwwwww." She chirped. "I was so excited to meet you but you straight went up to your room." Her face fell and now it reflected sadness.

"Umm... I was tired." And

literally I was tired. I hadn't slept and my eyes were craving for sleep. I continued, "I hadn't slept. My eyes were hurting. I-"

"I can totally understand. Don't you worry. You can make up for it tomorrow." She winked at me.

Felt like evil wink.

"Welcome home Roseanne." My mother said hugging me. I hugged her back and whispered thank-you.

"Your stomach is gurgling. I'll heat up the food." Lilith said going right. I assume it might be kitchen.

"Why don't I show you around?" Mom asked me with hope which I declined.

"Can we do that tomorrow? I don't want to move much right now." I said, smiling faintly. She nodded. I feel bad but I am concerned about my health. I hadn't eaten since that day and it had been two days already. I don't have an idea how I survived this long without eating or drinking anything. However, every time my walked, it felt like I'd pass out any moment.

"These roasted potatoes are really good." I said licking my fingers.

"I am glad you liked it." Lilith said with beautiful smile.

Marcus is lucky.

"We didn't know about your preference so Lilith only made minimal food." Dad spoke eating his steak.

"We were busy and couldn't talk with Margot. Next time I am going to make everything you like. I'll take notes from Margot." Mom added. I felt my heart-ache.

I just smiled at her words. I actually thought Mom made everything. I haven't eaten anything made by her. I had hope she's gonna cook for me.

Hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me. Lana Del Rey didn't lie when she said that.

"I am going to rest. Thank you for the food Lilith. It was delicious." I said. I was choking inside. I was keeping my tears from flowing out. Marcus and Lilith looked at me all worried.

"But Lilith made brownies and ice-cream for you. You should-"

Lilith interrupted my mom.

"Umm I think we should let her sleep Mom. Brownies can wait. Have a good sleep Roseanne." Lilith assuringly said. I mumbled thanks.

I immediately ran upstairs and locked my room. I went straight up to the bathroom, opened my shower and cried my heart out. I cried till I felt my eyes were dry and had started to burn. All I could think was how my parents still abandon me. Like I don't matter at all. They knew I was coming home today but once again their works were more important than my feelings. They knew about my rift with Harold. They knew about my situation. I looked in the mirror and I looked like shit. My lips were dry and I had big dark circles around my eyes. My eyes were pretty puffed as well yet they didn't bother to ask me. They didn't show any kind of care or worry at all. They had guts to talk about being busy. Right now I feel like I don't deserve any of this. I don't deserve these awful parents. I cried once again and choked pretty bad. My throat was dry and it had started to hurt.

My clothes were soaked. I looked around the bathroom and saw some bathrobes. I changed into bathrobe and lied on my bed.

As I lied on my bed, everything that happened on from the past two days came into my vision. My mind for once, didn't leave what happened at the dinner table as well and I soon drifted into sleep.

I heard some noise downstairs which woke me up. I looked at my mobile and it was seven in the morning. I decided to go downstairs.

"Lilith?" I asked.

"Oh my god." She jumped.

"Hi. Good morning." She wished me.

"Morning." I replied and coughed.

"Hey are you fine?" Lilith came forward and touched my face.

"You're so hot."

"I was exercising." I lied.

"Me too." She exclaimed. "Want some juice?" She asked me.

"I think I'd go for ginger tea." I told her.

"You are fine right?" Lilith asked again.

"Yeah. Just a habit." I told her looking all over the kitchen but her.

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"This tea is so good. Thank you." I said licking my lips.

"Thanks." Liiith said, smiling broadly. "Umm, why don't we go to your room?" Lilith asked me. I nodded.

"So, all these were brought by Mom and Dad when they travelled places for pack business. All these are ancient and they decorated your room themself. All the curtains, lamps, duvets everything." Lilith said sitting on the small sofa like bed attached to my window.

"Now that I looked at my room carefully everything was perfectly placed. Those curtains and duvets-covers-bed matched perfectly. The bed was not big enough but it was perfect for two people to cuddle and sleep. The cushions were in different colours and looked aesthetic. The small corner had this little tent with some fairy lights and toys and again beautiful cushions and some books. The whole room was decorated aesthetically and some photo frames were empty. I love this room. It is exactly how I wanted my room to be. I never let them inside my room at Margot's place so how come they decorated it like this? It was a mystery.

"And these clothes," Lilith said opening my wardrobe. It was an open wardrobe closed with beautiful curtains. "Mom and Dad brought clothes too but they were quite small for you so we decided to donate some to the orphanage. I hope you don't mind but we still have a suitcase in case yo want to try them out." Lilith said.

"Not at all. Thank you instead." I told her.

"These clothes were brought by me. I brought for you everytime I bought something for myself. I always wanted to go shopping with you. I wanted us to be like sisters but- hey, why are you crying?" She asked worriedly coming towards me.

I hugged her tightly. I sobbed. "If it's about being sisters then don't worry, you don't have to be sisters. We can be friends. You shouldn't cry. Please don't cry." I felt Lilith shed tears.

"Thank you for everything. Thank you so much." I said sobbing. I broke our hug. "And don't your dare think about being friends." Lilith looked worried. "Sisters aren't supposed to be friends. They are supposed to be sisters." I said sobbing and smiling. Her eyes twinkled and face glew with happiness. She hugged me tightly.

"Thank you Rosie." Lilith said wiping her tears. "Let me show you some amazing clothes."

And just like that we spent couple of hours trying out clothes and laughing.

"I feel awfully abandoned and left out." Marcus said peeking through the door.

I rolled my eyes and invited him in.

"Mom called you guys for-" Marcus stood there opening his mouth and blinking like a fool. I looked back and saw Lilith. I had the same expression. My mouth opened.

She looked like a princess in the ombre cindrella dress. She wore baby pink gloves that came to her shoulders and her choker matched perfectly with her dress. Her hair was left freely with some curls. She had no make-up on and yet she looked breath-takingly beautiful. She was glowing like a diamond.

"Babe...." Marcus whispered and took a long breath. I could tell he was getting hard.

"Do I look that good?" Lilith asked twirling around. Both Marcus and I nodded.

"Rose, you should wear it too." Marcus said pushing me forward.

"I think so too." I replied still looking at Lilith.

Our parents shouted again and we had to rush down for breakfast.

Please consider my break. *Joins hands and acts like this.

Also who doesn't like Lana right?