433 Focus on the present

Alanis 

"How is that possible? They are inside you.'' he points out the obvious. I know he is just going back to overthinking with my confession but he is really the only one that I can talk to about this. 

"I don't know, I have tried to feel them. It hasn't worked so far,'' I say in frustration. I want the bond, I crave it desperately. That is the only way this pain will feel worth it. Right now, I just don't know how I feel. 

"Are you sure it is normal? Maybe I should speak to Alby about this,'' he suggests. 

I shake my head because I know that this is something I have to deal with on my own "Nothing about this pregnancy is normal. I don't think it would be a good idea to involve Alby in this. He can't help me. I have to deal with this on my own,'' I tell him.

"What if something is wrong?'' he asks me. The door opens suddenly, interrupting our conversation. I look at the door and I see Gyles with worry-filled eyes.