11 Dreaming with my eyes wide open

Beau.

The walk to my house feels like an eternity because thoughts of what my father will do to me keeps running through my head. I don't even want to side track and think about Alanis. He shouldn't even be on my mind but the look on his face when I left is kind of etched to my memory.

I stop of front of my house and take a deep breath "You got this dude. He is probably over it by now. No worries," I console myself out loud. The door opens and Uncle Fallon walks out.

He opens his eyes wide from the shock of seeing me, standing and so strong. I know this was his idea, he put all those thoughts into fathers head and now he is probably pissed "What are you doing here?" he asks as he walks closer to me.

"I don't know, I got out I guess," I can't tell them that Lanis brought me out of that cave. No one would even understand and it'll just make me look weak as fuck. I have to lie, make it seem like I just waltzed out of the torture chambers.

''What does that mean, how is it possible?" we walk back into the house and Rex is the next to see me, everyone is seated on the table for breakfast. Father stands up immediately. He is angry and as he walks closer to me not saying a word I pray for my life.

"How did you get out?" he asks firmly.

"I don't know, I just got out," I try to explain but he is not having it. He grabs me by the collar of Alanis's T shirt and pulls me until we are out of the house and in front of Alby Crix's house. Alby is the oldest wolf in out pack and he is the wisest. He has all the answers. Werewolves get old, we can live for 1000 years or more but at a point we start ageing. Which almost makes us like humans.

"I swear i just got out," I try to explain but he is already angry and he wants answers because no one has ever just gotten our of the cave of wrath. The door creaks slowly to an open and Alby walks out. The grey of his hair shine under the morning sun and he smiles immediately he sees me.

Almost like he knows something.

"Good morning wise one." Father greets him.

He opens the door widely, telling us to enter his house. He is still watching me; I can read his expression but there is a smile on his face. I know for a fact he knows something about how I got out but he doesn't say anything. Still dragging me we enter the house and into the living room. "Have a sit," we obey his instructions.

Alby is still watching me.

"He got out of the cave Alby. No one has ever gotten out before," father goes straight to the point. He is as confused as me but for different reasons. He can't understand how I got out and I can't understand why Alanis got me out.

"You have found your mate" Alby ignores fathers' question.

I open my eyes in shock at his words. I haven't met anyone. What is he talking about? "What?"

Still smiling "Congratulations Beau, you will soon be strong enough to be the next Alpha. Once the mating ritual is complete"

What the fuck is he talking about? I have been in a cave for God knows how long. I haven't met anyone but Lanis. This doesn't make any sense. Is this some sort of sick joke.

"Who is she?" Father asks immediately.

I shake my head immediately. The fact that he assumes it is a girl automatically tells me that it is impossible. Alby must be wrong; he is mistaken somehow. There is no way in Hell. "I don't know, I haven't met anyone," I deny because I won't accept this.

"You know you have," Alby says with that stupid smile on his face. Does he know the implications of what he is saying? He shouldn't be putting any thoughts into fathers' head. I haven't found her yet.

I haven't.

"I haven't, I haven't met any girl," I emphasize on the word. His smile is still on his face. Almost like he is telling me that he knows.

"Is she in our pack, don't tell me she is human?" I can't think right now and all the questions father is asking is a lot. Shit, I am not ready. This wasn't how it was supposed to happen.

"Your son is ready" Alby faces father.

I run my hands through my hair. I am not ready.

"I am not ready," I exclaim.

Father raises a brow "What are you talking about?"

I shrug "I haven't met anyone. I don't know what he is talking about."

"You are lying right now" father can tell.

"I am not ready" I repeat.

Alby sighs "Leave us" he tells father. Reluctantly the Alpha walks out of the house and earshot. I take a deep breath "Can you be wrong?" I am desperate for him to be mistaken.

He shakes his head.

"But it's not possible, I haven't met a girl, I haven't even met a human." the fact that Alanis is both male and a vampire is just too much too handle. Suddenly his words spring up.

He felt something.

An uncontrollable pull.

Fuck fuck fuck.

"The forces are never wrong. This might seem wrong right now but it is what it is. You can't run away from it"

"Father won't accept it."

He smiles "Your father has no choice. This has been chosen for you long before you were born. You are special, this is more than you and me. This is the beginning of a unity that has been building up for a long time" he tells me like he has known all his life.

My heart jolts in my chest because this is not how I am supposed to feel. I always imagined meeting my mate. For years I thought about the moment. The first time I saw her.

I didn't feel anything for him. How can he be the one chosen for me?

"I don't feel anything for him"

He nods "Touch him. Really touch him and you will feel everything,'' Him. He said him. He knows everything and he has already accepted it.

Why can't I?

...............

I drag Rex into my room and he trips on air as usual. His glasses fall off his nose and he put it in place "Are you okay?" he questions with a worried expression.

I shake my head and start pacing because this is all too much to handle "Something happened," I tell him.

He nods. I stop pacing and look at him. I have to tell someone. Rex is really smart. With his help I can figure out what to do. Father kept trying to get it out of me. He wants to know who she is. How do I break his heart and tell him that she is a he?

"I didn't get out of the cave on my own,"

He nods with furrowed brows. He is confused and I am beating round the bush "Someone got me out,"

"Who?"

"You have to promise you will not freak out. And this is between the two of us. I just need to say it out loud"

He nods.

"Alanis,"

His eyes open wide "Vampire Alanis?" he shouts so loud that I have to cover his mouth with my palm "Fucking shout it to the world won't ya." He switches to a mind link and I read his mind.

I am sorry. Are you serious?

Yes.

How did he get in?

I shrug.

I don't know. Alby didn't explain that part. Just that he is my mate.

His eyes open and he switches to his voice shouting again "Your mate?" I cover his mouth again because he keeps on overreacting. Okay maybe he is not overreacting but he needs to be quiet.

"What does this mean? How is it possible?"

I shrug again "I thought you'd have all the answers. Look I don't know anything. I didn't even know you could mate with someone of the same sex. It has never happened in our history."

Rex scowls "This isn't even about same sex. He is a vampire. We don't mix" he reminds me.

I roll my eyes "What am I going to do?"

Rex doesn't have an answer for me, I know this much but I need answers. I don't even feel anything for him. How is Alby sure that he is the one. I don't even care about the guy and suddenly he is my mate. It just doesn't make sense.

"He wants to see me tomorrow," I tell Rex.

He nods "Do you want to see him?" he questions. I am unreadable at this moment. If I think back to this morning, I didn't necessarily hate hanging out with him but do I want to continue being in the same vicinity as him?

"Should I give this a shot?"

He shrugs "I don't know, honestly I feel like you don't have a choice. This thing is out of your control. See him, and figure out what this is and then you can go from there"

I already told Lanis I couldn't meet up; how do I even contact him now to arrange a meeting? I don't know anyone that knows him. "How do I reach him?"

He shrugs "Facebook?" it's a suggestion but it is the only one I have right now. "I need to go and hunt first. I need food, you are accompanying me. Grab Jabi for me would you. He's coming with"

Rex frowns "Is that allowed?"

"Like fuck if I care?"

.....................

With all the strength in me, I open my laptop in search of him. It is pretty easy finding him but the hard part is waiting for him to accept my request. I can only see his picture beside the request button. It is small and almost hard to see.

I wait a couple of minutes, staring at the laptop but I know there is no way he is going to accept it so fast. He doesn't even look like he uses Facebook. Hearing voices outside, I close the laptop and wait for Isabelle to come in. She doesn't usually knock, that's our friendship thing. I am fine with her barging into my room.

"Hey babe," she jumps on the bed and straight into my arms. I haven't seen Isabelle in almost two weeks, from the expression on her face I know she has been worried. I hold her in my arms and her tiny physique gets buried in my big frame.

"You had me worried sick," she cries.

I pet her hair softly "I know, I am sorry I have been a major douche. I should have controlled myself better," the truth is, if I hadn't had my ass so far up my ass, I wouldn't have been in the predicament I was in. All this wouldn't be happening. I hear a beep sound from my computer and my heart skips in the cages of my chest.

Its Facebook.

I want to grab the computer and talk to him but not right now. I just have to be patient. "People are saying you've found her?" She gets to the point. No wasting time. Rumors spread in the community and rumor has it that the new alpha is ready to take over. I am not ready to take over from father. I don't even know what I am right now.

"I haven't," I lie. Okay it's not such a lie because I am not actually sure that he is the one and I am not ready to tell Bells until I am a 100% sure. This is not the best time. The only reason I told Rex is because he would only try to help me, he wouldn't have too many feelings on it. He doesn't hate the vamps the way Bells does and if I tell her that my future could be one; she would freak out.

She pulls back from my grasp and I watch her unable to read her expression "Something happened though. What are you not telling me?"

I shake my head in dismissal "Nothing happened, I am just figuring a lot of stuff out. Getting out of the cave has been a whirlpool of emotions. I just want to understand some stuff that happened."

She doesn't believe me, but she knows not to over question. I will tell her when I am ready. I am just not ready right now. After she leaves, I rush over to my laptop and there is a message from him. It is short and Hella confusing.

Lanis: Dreaming with my eyes wide open.

I stare at the screen for a whole thirty minutes; in my mind I try to decipher the message. This is Alanis but what does he mean? "Shit, what do I say to this? What do you mean?" I shout to the screen.

Another message pops up. This one I understand.

Lanis: Hey.

I smile because I can reply this.

Hi.

I see the dots appear, that means he is replying. I cross my legs as I wait for his reply. The dots disappear but he doesn't reply. Shit, the green dot on his name disappears. He is not online anymore.

"Fuck." I run my hands through my hair. I am nervous right now. Why am I nervous? Where did he go?

I stand up from the bed and pace around the room. Shit, what do I do? I walk out of my room and to the end of the hallway. I open Rex's door and he looks up from the book he is reading. He raises a brow but doesn't say anything "He went offline?"

"Huh?" he furrows his brows.

"Lanis. He went off. What do I do?" I am sure I look crazy right now. Rex laughs. This is probably amusing to him "Why do you call him Lanis?" he questions still smiling.

"What?"

"You called him Lanis. Why?"

Is he serious right now?

"Dude, get up and follow me." I walk out of the room and back to my room. Kneeling down, I grab the laptop and open the Facebook app. There are three messages from him. My heart dances erratically at his words.

Lanis: I have been thinking about you all day.

I know you said I shouldn't bother, that we can't be anything but you are in my thoughts.

All day B.

I am so engrossed in the messages. My heart is racing uncontrollably, I don't know how I feel about them but I my heart is in another world of its own. I don't notice when Rex walks in and is behind me until I hear the squeal in his voice "Oh shit, he has it bad dude."

I jump up and land on my ass. "Fuck dude, why do you have to sneak up on me?"

He laughs "I didn't sneak up on you, I called your name two times. You were lost for a while. He replied" he mentions.

I roll my eyes "What do I say to this?" I am not good at this. Usually when I see a girl I want; I walk up to her and the charms slip on easily but this is no girl and this is like flirting. I have never done this with a guy.

"Reply him. Tell him you want to meet up tomorrow. Find out how you feel and then you go from there" he says it like it is so easy.

"What about these messages. What do I say to them?"

Rex shrugs "Just say anything. You can choose to ignore them. Ask him out" I raise a brow ��Like on a date?"

He nods.

Another message pops up on the screen.

Lanis: I am sorry. Forget I sent all that. Why did you add me on Facebook? That Is what I should've said first.

I reach for the keyboard and begin a reply.

Can I get your number? We need to talk.

I do what Rex suggested and brush off all his messages but they are still in my mind. All the while I think about the fact that he can't stop thinking about me. i haven't been able to stop thinking about him either.

He sends his number and I take deep breaths as I grab my phone and dial it. It rings and then his masculine voice breathes into my ear.

"Hello"