13 All that we could be.

Beau.

Touch him. Really touch him and you will feel everything.

That was all I took for my whole world to change. That was all it took for my heart to explode. I close my eyes with my hand still holding unto him and I see it. I see the truth. It is like a vision. He is in my head, his face. His smile, all of him.

I see everything I didn't want to accept. All that he is and could be, the love I will eventually have for this man. The things that we would overcome together. It all happens so fast that I have to release a loud breath. I let go of his hand suddenly and fall to my knees in the middle of the road.

A tear drops from my eye to my cheek. My heart is racing, this is all too much. I didn't think about it when I touched him. I forget what Alby said until it was too late. Now all these emotions have hit me and I can't handle it. Alanis goes on his knees and suddenly wipes the tear from my face. There is a warm expression on his face—almost like he is telling me that I am not alone. That he feels the same way too.

I can't feel this alone. I need him to be on the same page with me. He needs to have all these suffocating feelings; he needs to want me as much as I want him right now.

"Should we go back in?" he speaks up suddenly and all I can do is nod because I am speechless.

He leads me back to the bistro and Bayley walks back to us. I can't take my eyes off him. Because I am scared that he will disappear. I want him by my side forever. "Thought you guys left?"

I take my eyes away from him for a second and answer "Just give us a minute" we walk back to the table I picked for us. "I am sorry for running away" he speaks up still holding unto me. I don't want to let go of him. I wish I could hold him forever.

"It's fine" I manage.

"How is this possible?" he asks out of the blue and I furrow my brow. I know what he is talking about "I don't know" I answer. He is asking me the same question I have been thinking about all day. I know for a fact that he is my mate. I can feel it deep within. I just don't know why this had to happen to me. Why him of all people? I can't accept it so easily but I can't run away from him.

I don't want to let go.

"What does this mean for us?" he asks. He seems to have a lot of question that I have no answers to.

''I don't know"

"Should we eat as planned. Maybe we should just send the day together with no talks about links and stuff"

I furrow my brows "Links?" I question confused.

"He smiles "It's a vamp thing. I am linked to you" he explains. So that means he the same thing as a mate. Somehow the forces that joined us together know what they are doing. Intentionally I have been pulled into his heart. Shit.

"Okay, so normal day. Two normal people hanging out," that's the best thing right now. I know that I am tethered to him but I also need to get to know him. I have no idea what kind of person he is. He is basically a stranger and somehow my heart suddenly belongs to him.

"What do you want to eat? They make a mean chicken casserole" I tell as I grab the menu that Bayley dropped earlier. He moves closer to get a clearer look and my heart skips a beat. The close proximity is consuming me. Too much that I can barely catch my breath. I look at him and he is watching me with the same intense look. This is mutual and it makes me feel good. I am so glad that he feels the same way. This cannot just be me. I won't be able to handle it alone.

"I just kinda feel like eating meat today" he is teasing me. He knows that's what I like.

"You don't eat meat. You're being cute, aren't you?"

Laughing he nods his head. After a few seconds, he decides on wings and fries. A very simple meal. I order our food and while we wait, I can't help but look at him. He is looking at everywhere but me, so while he tries to hide his eyes, I look at his lips, his nose. The little crook and how it just fits him perfectly. The feelings encompass me. "What's your favourite colour?" I ask out of the blue.

His eyes finally meet mine "Green" he answers.

I smile "Mines the colour of your eyes," I tell him even though he didn't ask. The blue in his eyes sparkles under the dim-lit restaurant. He blushes and I blurt out "How come I can tell when you're blushing. You are the only bloodsucker that has colour on his skin. Why?''

"I don't blush," he denies.

"You're still blushing right now. Go look in the mirror" his cheeks are red. Maybe it is because I am watching him but he doesn't seem to believe my words. Bayley brings our food "Your meat is served just the way you like it. Extra rare," she winks as he leaves and I notice Lanis as he rolls his eyes. He seems to not like her.

"Eat up."

After our meal we decide to walk around and just talk and being with him is the best. I have never felt at ease as I do today. Just the fact that he is near me is overwhelming. I don't want this day to end but as the sun sets, we know we have to say our goodbyes. He is as reluctant as I am. No one wants to be the first to let go. "I had a nice time with you" I manage to mutter because I don't want that nice time to end.

He nods in agreement "We should talk about this. Is this really happening?"

I was dreading this conversation and that's why I wanted to spend the day without talking about it. Once we talk about it, it becomes real and once it is real, I have to let everyone in my family know. I don't know how my father is going to take it. Alby seems to think that he will come to terms with it but I think he might be upset.

Father has been the most eager one. He has waited patiently for me to find my Mate and he is one of the people that hates vampires the most. Mother was killed during the contention. He doesn't like to talk about her death—in fact, he doesn't like to talk about her at all. The reminder kills him, so we all don't talk about it. He had no choice but to settle with them. The treaty was the only way we can be at peace but the mere thought of being around a vampire will kill him.

He hates them more than me. I was too young to understand, I didn't know the whole story. I know she lost her life because of one of them. But I don't anything but that.

He won't accept this.

"You're my mate," I tell him bluntly.

"How is this possible?"

I shrug. We get to my car just a couple of feet apart. I take a step closer to him and he does the same. We do this until we are so close that if I lean forward, I will meet his lips. I have been thinking about kissing him all day. His luscious pink lips have been calling me. The man in front of me looks more human than all the humans combined. I look at the rise and fall of his chest. He is nervous "I want to kiss you" I am desperate. Hungry for him, all the consequences are already out of the window.

I am not thinking of anything but this moment. All thoughts are bundled up in my head. I just want this man, and I want him now "Kiss me" he reaches for me and I lose all control. Smashing my lips to his, I pull him closer as I grip unto his waist desperate to be even closer to him. I knew it was going to feel like this, I already felt it before his lips met mine. I finally feel complete, kissing this immortal being makes me feel like I am home. He moans into my mouth and I feel his tongue as it dances rhythmically in my mouth. I want more, I push him roughly until his back hits my car door. He doesn't budge, he just presses into me even more "Fuck," I mutter in between kisses, already out of breath.

There is this intense feeling. The butterflies dance around my nether region. I shouldn't be this eager. I want him so bad right now. He grabs my neck and I feel tingles as his fingers brush against me. I am losing my mind. In the middle of the road, kissing him and I want more. This is a man. I am kissing a man and I don't give a fuck.

He slides his hands to my chest and he shivers beneath me. We are still kissing, not giving a fuck "I want more," he breathes into me. I want the same, he fucking feels the same way. The intensity of his voice is surreal, he is making me lose my mind.

"Are we sure about this?" I slightly pull back from him. Our lips are still so close that I can feel his breath on me; it is a hot burning sensation on me. He nods answering me. I want to throw all caution to the wind. I don't want to think about anything. I want to fuck him.

"I can get a room; we can go to that motel with the great eggs" he suggests. A devilish smile springs on his face and I like it. I like this side of him so much. I want to see more.

"Yes. Let's do that." I take a step away from him and suddenly there is this empty feeling in my chest. It's almost as if my body doesn't want to be apart from him. I can't deny these feelings anymore.

He smiles even wider as we get into my car and drive off.