1 Second chance

As I walk in the muddy road I recall the happy memories of my childhood, tears start to fall down from my eyes.

'I am strong woman, I am brave, i can do this , i will show them that i will not bowl down to any challenges that came to me' that's was the words i always say to my self.

it was that words that was keeping me alive until now, a words that i hold dear in my hearth, a word that is keep pushing me to go on.

Yeah I am strong but sometimes no matter how strong I am, I'm still a human I just can't have a strong personality I also have that weakness inside of me begging to be sit free.

I stop in the edge of the mountain I look at the breathe taking view in front of me but i don't care of what I'm seeing, i took a deep breath "Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!" I shout my problem, I shout how I feel, I shout of how I think the world is so unfair to me, and lastly I shout of my lost.

I bawl my eyes out, I think the Heaven was grieving with me, The rain start to fall in me but i don't care, I'm so sick of my life, my mommy, my hero, my motivation the last person that is left to me "Why?" I ask

I look Up "WHY!!!??.. why? Why are you so unfair to me" my knees finally give in 'why do you have to test how strong am I? Why do you have to broke me when I start to learn to pick my self up, why did you have to take her? I cried and cried till dawn.

I head down to the mountain drench and soulless

I look at my house, once upon a time my house is full of color, full of life and happiness but now all I fell in this house is sadness, grief, emptiness and dullness.

I hate it, I hate it I know it's wrong but I can't take it anymore, I set my house on fire and I am inside of the burning house.

I look one last time at my home I took the pictures of my family and hug it near me and sat in the corner as I watch my house turn to ashes.

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At the one of a renowned hospital inside of the Delivery room a cry of pain is what can be heard inside.

And not long after that a cry of a new born baby can be heard.

An exhausted Woman laying with a new born child in her side a Good looking Man was sitting beside his wife and was looking at the child.

At that day You can tell how happy the couple is, a smile and a tears was visible in both of their face.

" Look honey she's so beautiful, she look like you"