Waking up

It was all normal. Everything, but I had to ruin it. Let me introduce you to me. I'm a girl, 13 or so. I lived in a big city. The city of Nirae. I went to a normal high school... but a bit more strict than usual and with a ton of rumours.

I promise.. I thought I was Normal. I didn't know...

I was that typical weird lonley kid. you know? the one who keeps trying to talk to you, but you ignore them? And the ones who are strict and mature for their own age? Yup that's me. but I wasn't so mature that I could predict what was going to happen. This all took place in Fivni high. it all started with some popular kids drama and jealousy. I normally ignored drama because I thought it was childish. But when the drama was about me, "Ms. clingy weirdo" as they called me. I couldn't stay out of it. I mean, they talked about me, "miss Clingy weirdo" so I should be allowed to know what it all was about. My curiosity took the control. I started trying to find out what it was about. i tried talking to my classmates. But instead they laughed at me and started running away. I... didn't get it. I asked the others at my age about it. but they did the same thing. Even the ones who got bullied or who were loners like me! I started to want to cry. why was everyone doing the same thing. I held my tears inside. Why cry over being ignored, laughed at and seeing others run away from you? When you know your unique and that's how it was gonna be for a long time. I cheered at myself words. You might think I'm weirder because I was talking to myself. but the only one who I could let out all the pain and sadness I had was myself. no one else would listen. that's why it felt always so comforting. if it wasn't for me, I'd never be able to put my head high. I hated seeing others negative or depressed as it reminded me of my past. where I never met myself, where I was bullied, Where i almost became psychotic and mental because I told my pain to the "nurse and psychologist" of the school. she asked me inappropriate questions for children. such as: "Are you afraid of yourself"

"does your adoptive mom really love you"

"did you know your maybe not real"

"did you know your depressed even though your happy"

"do you know there are some people breaking into your house".

"do you know your house could be marked by blood"

"do you know that your lonely for a reason, probably your dumb personality?"

"do you know that your abusing animals when you pick flowers? oh no! dont tell me you abuse animals. what a horrid thing! what is wrong with you?!"

and so on. it first of all made me feel bad for picking flowers. making me think I was a horrible person. it hurt, it really did. and because I was 6-9 being asked such things... I started having anxiety, hallucinations, sometimes not feeling anything, as if I'm floating. Calling myself disgusting and horrible. a part of the hallucinations was Imagining blood on the wall as if it was marked. seeing People with knives under the bed... sometimes even shadows running around. I started to feel.. unsafe. and- nevermind. and then moved to the city of Nirae. I swear i felt real air. that's when I met myself. and I promised to never let myself get manipulated and depressed ever again. Oh I'm sorry. I'm babbling away. anyway, back to the rumour. I tried to even ask my upperclassmates but they did the same, just that they walked fast instead of running. I thought I'd never be able to know what they talked about. Then 4 days after that, Bri. a popular kid came over to my desk. a group of 5 followed. I looked up at her. "Hah, hey Ms. Clingy weirdo! haha!" she said evily. "What do you want?" I blicked her. "Oh I and the others heard you we're curious. About a rumour? Isn't this new? little miss clingy weirdo." She laughed such a disgusting laughter. A laughter that wants to make you punch her or something. But I was not a child and I did not do such things. I would've kept quiet if it was in the past. but I promised myself to never get to the point I got before. so I dared come back with a comeback. "The only reason I'm interested is because every single person I asked laughed and ran away. and second because it was about ME." I sighed. "Well, Shut your weird clingy mouth up! ehem.. You could've asked me, I am in your grade after all." She laughed. I sighed, "just tell me what this dumb rumour is about?"