Qin Feng's Past

Su Li

I am getting ready because Qin Bai has invited me for lunch. Even though she is very sweet and nice, I don't think her motive today is just to eat.

Everything has been planned and I had been talking with her for the past week. So, I can understand her intentions.

I just hope that her engagement gets completed quickly so she won't have any excuse to set me up.

Seriously what made her think that we could work out?

I reach the mall, and I think it's under the Qin family.

I saw Qin Bai at the entrance waving at me excitedly like she is meeting me after years when we just met the day before yesterday.

"Hi," I said after which she hugged me.

"You know how long I am waiting for you. You have to compensate me now."

I look at the time and I am five minutes earlier than we decided to meet.

"Yeah , sure."

What compensation? I am broke ,ok. Don't even think about anything.

We shopped for about an hour where obviously she just picked the dresses and paid for them.

She did not even tried them.

I think we have purchased the whole store by looking at the shopping bags in her hands.

She bought every other dress she liked.

"So, What did you think about it?" She asked after we sat in one of the restaurants. I doubt it is also owned by the Qin family.

"Think about what?" I ask in confusion.

"Being in a relationship with my brother." She says as a matter of fact. Like that's the most obvious thing.

"What's there to think about?"

What do you mean by that? It's all your assumptions that he likes me or whatever because in reality we don't even know each other.

"You know what I am saying." She says.

Like hell I do.

"No I don't." I just want this topic to end right now.

"It's not like you think ok." I try to clarify.

"I don't like him and he seems to hate me too." The sooner she understands it the better.

"That's not true." She's saying as if she knows better than me.

"What?" I ask.

"He doesn't hate you. He is just like that." Like what. Throwing daggers through his eyes every time he sees me.

No I don't want to know anything about him. Just let me remain with the impression of him which I have, because I know it might be hard for me to not like him.

As curious human I am, I still end up asking something I should not. "Like what?"

"He just don't know how to talk, or how to express himself." She said.

I had an urge to retort with 'And he did took the company to next level by being a mute, never heard of that case.' But I held back.

"Actually apart from work he doesn't talk very much, he doesn't have many friends either."

Oh. Why does it feel like she is going to spill all his secrets in the next moment.I don't need to know this.

"I heard from Grandpa he wasn't like this before." She said,

I was right. She is going to spill something she should not.

"I was not even a year old when our parents died, so I don't have any memory of them. But he was just 13 at that time. I don't know how he felt about it." She suddenly said,

"It must have been hard on him. To be responsible for me at such a young age."

I can't even imagine going through all that at such a young age. I was not aware of this.

"Initially he tried his best to look cheerful in front of me, but I could tell that it was all fake."

I can understand that by initially she meant when she was young maybe 4 or 5.

"Brother has been very quiet all these years from what I have seen. So I just want him to be happier.

He fulfills all my requests, even listens to my blabbering, but I have never seen him getting angry or showing any emotion. I just hope that he could open up to someone, you know."

I know that he might not be a bad person at heart, but there was no need to tell me all this.

I am feeling bad for him now, and she should not go around and tell someone about her brother's past.

"He might not share his burden with me since he thinks I am very young and he has brought me up like his daughter.

So when we saw that he had dinner with you we thought that he finally got someone he likes.

We just thought too far ahead. I hope you won't misunderstand him."

I understand from where she is coming.

I had no idea that Qin Feng has suffered so much. Although Bai did not said much but I know the more rich you become the more cruel this battle of power gets.

I can't imagine how he faced everything at such a young age.

Now that I know about him I can't be angry on him. What kind of situation is this.

Even though I know about his tragic past, I don't have any plans to get to know him.

"Let's not talk about this ok. What's going to happen will happen. You should focus more on yourself right now." I tell her.

"You are going to take the college entrance examination this year." I say changing the topic.

"You just have to remind me of that. I don't know what I am going to do in the exam. Even though Grandpa doesn't expect me to excel, I still feel burdened. " She said.

"You don't have to feel pressured, just do what you want and give it your best. I am sure Grandpa will be proud of you. They just want you to be happy." I remind her.

After all, they fixed her engagement this early, only to confirm her happiness before something happens. I don't know why he thinks that. Maybe he is hiding something because everytime I have seen him he has been energetic and lively, not like he is sick at all.

I think I have understood Qin Bai very well.

She starts talking about anything you ask, and she won't stop until you change the topic.

To my relief she hasn't mentioned Feng since I changed the topic, because she is talking about college entrance examinations and her studies.

She is kind and sweet, and just likes to talk.

We ate our lunch in silence.

She was silent because she was enjoying her food and my mind was occupied with someone it shouldn't be, Feng.

I don't want to think about him, but I can't help it. And to make the matter worse my dear BaiBai has called him to be our chauffeur.

Like they don't have a driver.

Seriously?

All I want in this moment is to not think about him, and the whole universe is against that idea.

He frowns when he sees me. Normal people won't be able to tell the change in his expression, but I can. What they say it, face reading or expression reading, I don't know. I might be an expert in that.

He did not expect me here. Me neither.

Qin Bai insisted that he drive me home, after she got off at her house.

I doubt if he understood that was her plan all along. He might not be that dumb right.

Here we go. He is back with his stifling silence. I don't know if Bai sensed it but he was more relaxed with her. I can feel it.

Here I am feeling sorry for him, and he looks like he is in torture, sitting next to me.

I am being tortured, okay. I want to hate you but I can't. What kind of situation is this? I want to know. He occupied my mind the whole afternoon and he is sitting there like nothing happened.

I am getting angry now. Why doesn't he speak? He doesn't have a mouth?

Ughh!

I guess my frustration is quite obvious because he finally speaks.

"What?"

And I thought he spoke. Would he ever speak a whole sentence to me ever? I doubt it.

I raise my eyebrow telling him to say his problem.

"You have been looking at me like you want to kill me for the past five minutes."

Woah. Do I have some kind of power in my words? Just now I said it would take him forever to speak a whole sentence and he said it.

And did he just describe his thoughts as mine? Wow.

I think I should explain myself at this moment, but I do the complete opposite.

"Oh Yes, I don't want to sit beside a person who is more of a block of ice than a human."

I regretted it the moment I said that. He must have been hurt by that comment.

What's gotten into me? I don't do that.

His expression is still the same, like he never heard me. Instead he was focusing on the road ahead.