Chapter 4

Later that evening, after visisting my mom, I visited kelvin to break the bad news to him. I knew he wouldnt like it, hell I knew he might hate me but I needed too, I had no choice.

Seeing him after what I had done, pricked my heart badly. We ate, watched a movie and cuddled but in all that, I wasn't settled. I had been imagining his outburst. After the movie was over, I couldn't bear it anymore.

"Kelvin"

"Yes babe"

"Pls forgive me" he shifted and repositioned himself beside me.

"For what?" His whole demeanor had changed and it only made my heart race.

"I.." I took a deep breath "I officially accepted the job, I went to meet up and I signed the contract" his eyes closed shut and he took a deep breath. His silence broke my heart into a million pieces.

"Am sorry" tears welled up in my eyes, "I didn't know what else to do, my mom is.. "

"Its over" he stood up leaving me on the couch. My heart did a skip, a painful sharp skip.

Bewildered, I stared wide eye at him, "what?"

"Its over between us" he said and started walking away

"No" my voice broke "babe you can't.. " I was suddenly out of words to say, "it can't be over"

"I can't do it Eva! Date a girl who is gonna carry another mans child for nine months" he sucked in a deep breath "I just can't, its me or him"

"Babe are you really gonna make me choose" I couldn't believe him "my mom is in the hospital, there is no money, we can't even eat well now" my heart was beating frantically "please understand me"

"No" he fired "I asked you to wait, just a little patience"

"For how long" I fired back

"If you insist on doing it, then we can't be together" his words pierced deep into my heart"

"Please babe, listen to me"

"No, I cant bear the thought of you with someone else"

"But I'm not with him, I just will carry his child"

"And then what? Have feelings for him along the line? Nine whole months, and you think, you won't have feelings for him" he laughed humorlessly.

"I won't, I love only you"

"Am sorry Eva" he turned away "you can leave when you done" my heart shattered into million pieces.

I didn't realise I was crying till I was left alone.

***

When I said I was gonna loose alot, I didn't think I would loose the one thing that gave my life a meaning.

We had been dating for two years and in those two years I had never imagined what it would feel Like without him. That is because I never planned to be without him.

I was heart broken.

I was angry. Mad even.

Why couldn't he understand me?

Why couldn't he wait for me for just nine months?

I had cried my eyes out for 3 days, non stop.

Then stayed the next two days mourning his absence.

Then the next three days, trying to put myself together.

And the next five days, plotting and planing how to begin this job and how to lie to my mom.

And just like that, two weeks had been exhausted.

Twenty thousand dollars had been sent to my account as promised by Mr Leonard.

My mom had been discharged and she was feeling better.

I had told the big lie about getting a nursing job away that paid so well, thankfully she believed because i was studying nursing before my dad passed away and plus she trusted that I wouldn't do anything stupid.

But there I was doing something so stupid.

I was ready to leave to the house Mr Leonard had prepared for me. A part of me wanted to change my mind even though I knew it was too late.

At first, I thought it was all crazy, damn it was crazy. On a normal day, I would shame anyone who would become a surrogate for money but there I was. It was only then, did I realise that it was bad to judge someone for what they did for money because you had no idea what they were going through. I definitely understood that now.

"I'll miss you" Daniel and Sofia cried, hugging me tightly. I would definitely miss them. Truth was, I'd only ever been away in school and that was five months top but I had to be away for a whole year. Nine months for pregnancy and three months to get my body back to normal.

"I would buy so many things for you guys when I come back" I said through teary eyes. They nodded and smiled at me.

"Take care my dear" my mom hugged me "don't forget to call me often, I know you would be busy but find time to call" she said. I almost wanted to laugh, I would be busy carrying a baby.

"I will mom"

After the emotional farewell. I left. Thoughts of kelvin flashed my mind but I pushed it away. He hadn't called or texted or even replied my texts.

So by pushing the thought again, I sucked in a deep breath and remained calm throughout my journey.