1 Chapter 1: The First Light

"AAAaaahhh-----", "Daddy help me! I'm stuck!" I hear screams of people and children, "farewell, my ---" voices that I cannot conclude whether it's a man's or a woman's.

"*How long has it been? Months? Years? Decades?*" I asked myself, for I can only remember fading into the darkness, drifting until I can no longer hear anything except my thoughts.

"*Am I really dead? But why am I still here, just to suffer? I still have my consciousness though I feel nothing.*" I cried inside along with my suffering, I can still hear my thoughts even after spending in this darkness for god knows how long, I already lost track of time.

I closed my eyes, even though it is pointless for only nothingness exists in my sight.

**a few days? months? years? decades? centuries? later**

I finally decided to open my eyes, I felt anxious as I noticed something was up ahead in the distance it was the first time I had seen something in ages. I saw a shimmering light growing every second, only to realize the light is drifting toward my position, and then again it is for the first time in ages, I heard a voice, and it was coming from it.

"Dreh Hi Hon Zu'u?" The voice in the light speaks in a language I do not understand, it seems to be asking me something, it's hard for it to make sense since it's been a long time since I heard something. I tried opening my mouth which feels impossible but I tried it anyway.

"Wh-... What are you? I asked the light, I tried my best to pronounce those words and I succeeded.

"Dreh... you hear, Zu'u?" the light seemed to repeat the question, their voice sounded toneless. It didn't answer me but he seemed to be asking If I can hear them.

"Yes First Light, I can hear you" I answered.

"First Light? Is that what you named me? Ahahaha!" the light laughed so hard as if they never had it in ages, their emotion came to life in an instant from toneless to fruity.

"I called you First Light because you are the first light I've ever seen after floating here for a few years, no, decades; no wait, countless years? I lost track of time." I replied, I was confused about the time but still I felt happiness for the first time, the happiness of talking to someone other than my self-thoughts. Hoping this is not an illusion cast by my consciousness.

"I see, but I do not understand how a mortal soul is wandering in this realm. It is impossible, not even gods can exist here, but that also must be why you are lost track of time." They explained, with a hint of curiosity in their voice.

"Not even gods? I thought you were a god. Also, how I lost track of time is just about I can't see or feel anything until you showed up." I asked them.

"A gein could say I am a god or I am not, therefore I am more than that, an everything. But what you said about time is also true for a mortal, there is more to it than you could understand with your mortal mind," they explained, and I felt chills on my spine, for me to meet someone that exists greater than a god. And to think that something like that exists, I thought a god is the greatest being in existence.

"There is more to it? Then could you explain so this mere mortal could understand?"

"Hmm... This plane does not exist, therefore it exists." They explained, and they didn't seem to notice me being sarcastic hehe.

"Sorry, it doesn't exist but it also exists?" I asked, I was confused about their explanation it is either there is another meaning behind it or it is what he said about mortal minds is true.

"There is no motion of time in this plane, not frozen but it simply does not exist. It never existed, even after the birth of everything." They explained, and now I understand it better, though it still doesn't make sense. Time never existed here in the first place that is why I never got track of my time here. But what does he mean about the plane?

"I see, now I understand it better, But what about this plane's existence?" I asked

"I am here, but I no longer exist, it is because I am on a plane that does not exist. But the plane also exists because I am here, existing on this plane. So are you, and my brother." They explained, I understand yet I still cannot make sense of what they just said. But wait, they mentioned their brother?

"You mentioned your brother? Are they with you?" I asked

"Yes my brother Padomay, the reason he and I are here. We fought against each other for my beloved, we both bled until we perished and were cast out of existence and time forever. He is on this plane but it is impossible to meet him. You and I only met because you are a broken one, an existence that does not exist within 'everything'." He explained, judging from his story he and his brother fought for their beloved, then First Light might be a masculine existence. But what questions me the most is about me being a broken one.

"What do you mean broken one? Also, did you mean I do not exist within you? What does it mean? I asked

"Your soul is broken, the only thing that exists within you is your core, not even your core is complete. Find the other pieces, and you will find remnants of yourself. You are not from here but from another 'everything', you are an outsider. Which must be why you stumbled upon this plane, but that does not also explain how you are here." That's what he said, after hearing him explain those things, now I realize why I don't remember anything about myself, my past, or anything. And about being an outsider, I wonder what kind of gods or 'everything' existed in my past.

"That must be the reason I don't remember anything. But how do I --?"

Before I could finish, he interrupted, "You are decaying, you must not linger here any longer. After I tell you, I must cast you out of this plane to Mundus."

"What? What's Mundus? And what do you mean decaying? Am I dying?" I asked desperately for answers as I started feeling chills again.

"It is a plane where there is a world where mortals can live, you can find my beloved granddaughter at the center of Mundus, there your soul will be able to stop your decay because of her existence. An existence that lets mortals exist. You are running out of time, in this plane, time only exists within your soul that is why you are decaying." He explained clearly in a hasty manner, I was confused again, he just said time never existed here, could it be because I'm a mortal from another 'everything'? But why is he helping me this much?

"Okay but before you send me, how will I survive? I don't even know how that world works, its languages, and customs. Come to think of it, you only understand me because you can read me. How about the other mortals will I ever understand them or the other way around?" I asked every important question I could so I would at least have some chance of surviving in that new world.

"You do not have to worry, since you are but a soul without a body, you will be reborn into a new body but with the same soul. You will have the luxury of having to think after birth." After explaining his light became brighter than ever, he became a blinding light.

"Wait! At least tell me your name First Light!" I shouted as my vision started to be filled with white light.

"Be mindful, I know everything that happens within the 'everything', therefore I will be watching you. I cannot intervene as I am stuck in this plane of none existence forever, but I can still give you a droplet of my power, it will guide you to survive your journey. Now go! I will be watching you, you will become my entertainment amidst this loneliness in this none existing plane. " A huge bang and a blinding light occurred after he said his last words to me before transporting me to Mundus, it was loud, loud that deafened me to the extent that I couldn't hear anything again.

"And ahh... My name is..." before I got deafened, he mentioned his name but then everything turns dark...

-To Be Continued