Chapter 2

I was just 11 growing up as a child I got use to the way of life.

Then one day there was a celebration in the house, I think it was Chrismas eve and everyone was celebrating they all told me to stay in my and not come out and infect everyone with my bad luck so I stayed back inside my room.

So while all the celebration was over everyone went home, I was just asking usual lying on my bed feeling all alone when suddenly I heard a knock on my door I went and opened the door and saw my cousin Dave, he was holding a glass of wine and gave me a smirk and said " wanna have a drink " I ask him what he wanted because they always come to my room either to insult me or give me chores to do he then said he didn't come here to insult me or give me chores to do and while speaking with lust in his eyes he attempted to touch me but I was quick to throw his hands away and he started walking towards me, the way he was looking at me made me guess what his intentions were and I yelled at him to get out of my room he didn't move and continue coming towards me, seeing him coming towards me I tried to run but he caught me and pushed me to the bed and pinned me under his body I tried to push him away but I couldn't for he was too strong for me he was 18 and I was just a little 11 year old child, I screamed out but no one came it was so horrible and so painful I felt I was going to die right there he raped me I couldn't scream and just then my Grandma walked right in and stared at me I felt relieved thinking she was going to help me but just then what she did next shocked the hell out of me, she looked at me and walked out.

God she saw me in pain and agony but she didn't even move a muscle, I felt so weak and couldn't even think in that moment and blacked out I had no idea how long he continued I thought I would die since this was the type of life a child born by mistake lived.

I woke up in the pool of my own blood with pains all over my body I couldn't move at all. Then I thought about what just happened and of my grandma actions I was like was that how much she hated to the extent that she didn't care I I died well anyway I knew she always hated me.

So with all the bloodstains in my body I used all strength in me and walked up to my Grandmother's room and entered upon seeing me she looked at me with disgust in her face, I went and kneeled down in front of her and said "Ma" since she said I shouldn't call her Grandma " I know you hate me but why couldn't you at least help me, saved me is that how much hate you have for me, At least for once in your life you should have just helped me I expected you to save me. what did I do to deserve all this hatred form you, my mom and everyone, Tell me was it my fault that I was brought to this world to such hatred from my own family members why " I screamed while crying And then My Grandma just said "I didn't intervene because that boy is an illegitimate child like you so I don't have to intervene since you will still sell your body now get out from my room you smells".

I left her room and from that day I became dirty my room was very dirty I made sure I made a mess of my room since I was dirty I deserved to stay in a dirty environment, I felt I deserved all this since I was accidentally born into this wicked world.

I locked myself up and for days I wouldn't eat anything, anyways I didn't feel like it but who cares anyway. Months passed after months and years after years I became an outcast and never made friends because I believed if anyone was nice to me they wanted something in return due to m experience form dave my cousin who raped me before that incident he was always nice to me and give me food buy ice cream for me and wanted to be my friend without knowing his true intentions so I decided in my life I will never make friends especially a boy as my friend.

So one day the children were all saying what they were to become in the future, hearing them all say what they wanted to be in the future I then said I wanted to be a lawyer, immediately i said that they all started laughing at me and one of my aunties said i can never become a better person in my life that at the end i was going to become a prostitute, in my mind i said " never will be that i will make sure i make it big in life and prove to them that me they called an abominable child will make it big in life and show them my capabilities.

So the next year I decided to start schooling but didn't know how to since non of my family members will ever sponsor me. So one day one of my aunt gave birth and said she needed a house help so their opinion was me i was very happy that i was leaving the house forever, I felt this was an opportunity for me to escape that hell of a house not knowing I was going from Fire to Volcano.