Those blue eyes

I couldn't see anything clearly, everything was blurry, maybe because of the tears which is why I couldn't see. I was crying silently so my parents downstairs wouldn't hear me. With a knife a few inches away from my wrist, sobbing, "I'm sorry mom…. I'm sorry dad...." I whispered to myself softly. I was scared, everything was as silent as a grave, I could hear my heart clearly pounding like a train down the rails, but I had no other choice, this is the decision I took. I shut my eyes tight and gripped the knife tightly in my right hand and in one swift strike, I slit my wrist. Blood was oozing out of my wrist, I fell down with a small thud. My body was going numb. I already lost my feeling in the left arm expect it was burning as if someone poured some hot lava over the slit. 

They say people see their whole life in a flash the moment before they die but all I could see was the world around me getting darker and darker by each passing second. "So it was a fucking lie after all." I said to myself with a chuckle. "Such a pathetic and a boring life it was, maybe it's finally time for the end," I chocked.

I heard a loud crash outside my room, and there were hurried footsteps. My mom came in first unlocking my door. She was dumbfounded when she saw me, she fell to her knees and shrieked at the top of her lungs. My dad came rushing in but he stopped when he saw me. He slowly came towards me and lifted me up. "Wasn't the door locked?" I managed a few words out even though I was chocking. "Shut up!" my dad said crying. "I just have one last thing to tell u both." gathering all of the last energy left in my body I said, "I love you mom…..I love you dad…." And as soon as I finished the sentence everything went black. Everything around me felt light and I could see nothing, Even my body felt light and that was the moment I finally understood that I died. I took some time to let it all sink in. no matter where I look everything was pitch black. 

"…..on!" I heard something

"Is there anyone else here other than me?" I thought to myself and I was looking everywhere and started to move forward.

"…ston!" I heard it again.

The more I kept moving forward the more clear the voice became.

"Winston!" someone called out my name from above. I looked up to see who it was, in the pitch black darkness I saw some grey smoke in the form of a woman it was vague but I was sure that it was a girl. 

"Who're you?" I asked, but there was no reply.

"Who am I is something you needn't know right now. All I want is for you to live, because it's not time yet, there are things you haven't seen, things you haven't felt, things you haven't experienced, so please…. Live longer for that is all I wish"

suddenly there was a small ball of light far away, "Now go!" she said and disappeared.

I started moving forward towards the light faster and faster till I the light surrounded me.

"The blood is deep red and is oozing out which means he didn't cut the artery his life is not in danger"

"But his heart rate is dropping rapidly" in all this confused noises and surgical instruments clanging my sight shifted to a person in at the end of the room. It was girl or rather I assumed it was a girl because my eyes were all blurry and all I could notice were her bright blue eyes which were red maybe she was crying

"blue eyes" I whispered to myself as my conscious left me.