Having Self Control

Kissing Ella's finally after a whole week, felt like drinking cold water for the first time after hours in the sun. She fit perfectly against me as I lifted her onto the kitchen bar, making her more accessible to me. My hands massage her her thighs as my body started to get the best of me. My wolf was begging me to take her right then and there, but I was trying really hard to hold back. There was a large bang from upstairs and foot steps in the hall, coming down the stairs. But that didn't stop me, she was my mate and who ever was coming needed to know she was mine, all mine.

"Damn!! I didn't know you guys were like a thing now." Tanya's voice interrupted us. Ella had practically jumped two feet in the air as she put her hands on my chest and tried to push me away. I groaned in frustration placing my forehead on her chest as I tried to control my urges. Why was it, that every time I was alone with her or almost alone with her, someone had to butt in. I turned my face to meet the eyes of her friend Tanya, she stoop at the base of the stairs her mouth was wide open watching us.

Sighing to myself, I pulled away from Ella lifting her from the bar table top and placing her gently on the ground to stand. A scene played out in my head, of me going up to Tanya ripping her head off, grabbing Ella caveman style and taking her up to my room to claim and mate her. I chuckled to myself wishing it could be that easy. But it wasn't, we still needed to talk, and I knew she had questions for me that needed answering. I looked back to Ella, she was fidgeting with the cuffs of her sleeves, as she looked down at the floor. Her face was red from embarrassment and she glanced at me from under her eyelashes. I gave her my best apologetic look, which morphed into a smirk. I wasn't scared or embarrassed with people seeing us make out, hell I wanted everyone to see she was my mate.

'Hold her close.'

Looking down at Ella, I wanted to hold her, to keep her close and never let her go. Lifting my hand I caressed the side of her cheek but she pulled away, taking a step and putting distance between us. closing my eyes I looked back to Tanya who was still looking at us waiting for us to answer her unspoken question. It felt like I was alone again, it felt like rejection form her, and the chain in my chest from her pulling away hurt me more. I was practically wrestling my wolf to stay in control, He wanted nothing more then to hold her regardless if she didn't want us. But she needed space, but there was a shock that jolted threw my arm up from my wrist. Looking down, Ella hand a hand on my forearm. I guess she might have seen the battle I was having with my wolf. The tension in my body faded with her touch, and her hand on my gave the reassurance that she wasn't going to leave me...yet. God she was my all, and I would do anything for her.

"So when were you going to tell me?" Tanya's voice was almost annoyed as she walked over to us, glaring at Ella. She pushed past me and stood between Ella and I. She smelt like her mate Drake and I rolled my eyes knowing what they had just done. That was actually quick for a quickly, as smirk formed on my lips.

'If it was us, Ella would never-'

I didn't give my wolf a chance to talk, I cut him off and pushed him to the back of my mind and tried to ignore him. Walking back around the counter and back tot he stove, I continued to cook breakfast. Ella had taken a deep breath and looked between Tanya and me, I just gave her an encouraging smile before going back to my cooking.

"Well, umm....I found out when Enzo saved me and when I ugh, woke up." Her voice was small and you could tell that talking about what had happened a week ago was making her uneasy.

I looked at her from the corner of my eye, she was a deep shade of red from blushing, it made her look cute. She turned to look at me and noticed I was watching her, I gave her a wink before turned my head away while frying some eggs.

"Oh so he romanced you, by saving you. So now what, for the past week you've been hiding the fact that you're mates?....Oh my Goddess, have u been secretly-" Tanya was cut off by her mate.

"Okay babe leave them be. Don't ask to many questions, its none of our business." Drake said put his arms around Tanya's pulling her to him.

"I'm sorry, I'm just happy for my lil Ella." Tanya giggles as Drake nestled his face in her neck. Ella flinched when she spoke but didn't move.

He tone of voice seemed fake, I quietly thought on my wolfs words. He was right, her tone did seem fake, but why she had her own mate. I rolled my eyes at both of them, the eggs and bacon were done and I had just finished pulling out toast and the jam. I placed the food on the bar as I grabbed a piece of bacon and a slice of toast, placing them on a plate before handing it to Ella. She smiled up at me and whispered a thank you before she dug in to eat.

She must be starving

'Probably.' My head was down as I focused on my food, but there was a tingling sensation that creeped up my back. I just happened to look up and saw Ella watching me, when she notice I was watching her she quickly went back to eating. She had always been so timid around me, so shy even though I knew better. She could be out going when wanted to be, but she was also passive.

My wolf stirred in me as I thought about her. To think all this time she was mine, I mean yes I knew she was mine for the past 4 years but I didn't want to scare her. I continued to look at her, the awkward silence and tension in the room was starting to get to her as I watched her push her eggs around the plate.

"So.....?" I started, trying to break the tension as everyone looked up at me, for a second I felt like the shy one, but it quickly disappeared.

"Enzo can I talk to you?" Ella's voice was a squeaked whisper. I looked at her and smiled, hearing my name on her lips gave me goose bumps. She got up from the bar counter and started to walk away, motioning me to follow her, at first it felt as if she was giving me the cold shoulder. My wolf whined feeling just as uneasy as I did. Don't get me wrong, the past weeks have been hell for me. Not talking to her and knowing she was avoiding me because she needed her space, I respect that.

I stuffed one last piece of bacon in my mouth and pushed my plate to the side as I got up and followed her into the living room. When she walked I noticed her hips swayed every time she took a step. My palms were sweaty at the thought running through my head.

'Look at that ass,' my wolf purred

As we got to the living room she sat down on the sofa and looked at me biting her bottom lip making my wolf howl in excitement and want. She put her hands under her thighs and look down taking heavy breaths. She was nervous, you could tell, just by the way she was looking at me, she fidgeted in her seat. It made me anxious knowing she was like this, and it made my wolf worse. He wanted to go to her and comfort her, but I knew that was a bad idea, so I kept my distance.

I sat down at the furthest end of the sofa looking at her curiously wonder why she was so scared or why she was so nervous. I reached out for her, placing my finger under her chin lifted her face to mine so she was looking at me, as we locked eyes. I searched her face for anything that might give me a sign, but all I got was sadness. Leaning in, I focusing on her soft pink lips but as I got a few inches from her she abruptly pulled away. A low growl irrupted from my chest, she looked at me and smirked, and she started to giggle. It only made my wolf mad, I frowned at her but I'm sure it came out more of a pout because at that moment she busted into a fit of laughter.

"What?" I grumbled and watching her. She smirked at me then suddenly went serious again, watching me, and I knew, or well felt I was in deep trouble.

She took a deep breath before starting what she had to say. "I have a question for you Lorenzo and I would like to know the truth, not just what you think I should hear, but the whole truth."

I only nodded as she looked at me, while I ran my hand threw my hair. Yes I was a little nervous but I would do anything for Ella.

"So...Why now?" Her question puzzled me, I had no idea what she meant, and I guess the question was written all over my face because she continued. "Why didn't you tell me when you turned 17 that I was your mate?"

Her words hit me like a tone of bricks, it stumped me of a few seconds, because I myself didn't really have the answer to that. "Well...I umm.." I was dumb founded...I needed to answer it correctly, so I spoke the truth. "When I turned 17, you were barely 14 years old, what was I suppose to do? Your father made me the packs Beta...I left for training...What could I have done?" I looked at her as she stared straight into my soul. I think she was searching me for the truth even after I already told her the truth.

"But why now?" she reached out and grabbed my hand, the sparks were there again.

"Because now is the right time, now you are ready, and I waited for you to be ready." I looked at her, brought my left hand to caress her face, and cheek. She leaned her head into my hand, and sighed deeply, inhaling my scent, as my wolf practically purred at our closeness. Lacing my hands in her hair I brought my lips crushing down on hers. I couldn't take it any more. She was mine and her doubting the love I have for her was going to change. From here on out she would know I loved her, and only her.

I moved my lips with hers, and at first she didn't respond, but after a few seconds she wrapped her arms around me and tried to dominate me threw our kisses. She pulled away trying to breath but I wanted more of her, I wanted all of her. I kissed her jaw and down her neck, I couldn't get enough of her, and my wolf was trying to push past me for control. I was fighting him tooth and nail but he kept shoving. Grazing my canines against the base of her neck where it meat her shoulder, made her moan out, and I have to say made me hard. I moved her so she was now straddling my lap, as I grabbed her hips and brought her closer to me.

Mine, my wolf repeating in my head

Ella was mine and I was going to make her see she was mine and no one else. My left hand came up to grab her by the back of her hair and pulled her head to the side. My canines were now extended and they acked to be on her skin, to bite her and claim her as mine.

She squirmed in my arms, but my wolf had started to take over, I couldn't really stop myself. The want we both had for her over powered anything else. Ella Squirmed again and a low growl reverberated in my chest, as I held her harder against me. My canines grazed her neck again, but this time my wolf put more pressure on her, he was trying to mark her. I tried to pull him back, mentally I was pulling on a leash but he wasn't going anywhere.

"Enzo...Don't please." She pleaded, and the tone she used as if she was crying, made my wolf snap back and brought me back into control. I let her go abruptly, and pushed her so she landed next to me on the sofa, but I kept my distance. My breathing was heavy, and I tried to calm myself.

"WTF!"

'I'm sorry Lorenzo...I want her so-'

"NO damn you! You almost claimed her with out her permission!" I yelled back, and mentally locked him in a cage, shut him out.

"Enzo?" Ella's voice snapped me back to attention as I looked down at my hands feeling a shame. Soft hands were placed on either side of my face, light electric shocks tingled my face. She brought her face closer to mine, her lips were soft as she lightly pressed them to mine, and licked my bottom lip. Shivers ran up my body, as I grabbed her hips pulling her closer wanting to continue kissing her but I didn't want to push her again.

"I love you." she whispered against my lips as a smile formed on my face.

"I love you." I kissed her back with so much passion, and pulled her back onto my lap. But she wasn't straddling me, I just cradled her on my lap, and held her close.