3. Last Ticket

"Why is he not saying anything after reading my messages? Has he lost interest now? Or has he found someone else?" Lee Doyun paced to and fro in his small room, thinking out loud.

"But I thought he said his deal was up until I make up my mind? Why? I don't get it. Or could it be that he is with someone and will get back to me once he is done?" 

Since returning from the hospital, Do Yun's plan is to divide the amount of money he needs and ask for a part from each of his sugar mamas. 

But only one is currently available and they've already arranged to meet tomorrow night.

The other two have to attend to their business and family duties, so it will be a while before he can see them. 

He only asks for money from his lovers in person. He doesn't want his lovers to think that it's the only reason he reaches out to them. Though that's basically the nature of their relationships. 

Doyun tries to make each of his lovers, aka ATMs, believe that they are the only lovers that he has. He sometimes uses a part of the money he gets from them to buy them moderately priced gifts on their birthdays.

Now he is restless. He hasn't been able to save up anything because it was only two days ago that he gave all that he had to pay a part of the loan interest to those brute loan sharks.

To make matters worse, his late father had made a risky gamble on his education, but not long after, he passed on.

Their debts wouldn't have been this much if his dad had not taken that huge loan to secure his admission to the Kimland University of Arts and Culture. 

He has used up all his money by giving it to those thugs because they have been harassing his family everywhere. 

They will sometimes go to his mom's stall at the market just to harass her for their money. 

And sometimes too, they would even block his sisters on their way to school, just to threaten them into paying back their loan. As if they have the money and are just refusing to pay.

Now that his mother is also admitted at the hospital and he is the first son, how is he supposed to cater for his family now? 

His ATMs cannot come to his aid now as they are out of coverage areas. Maybe he needs to find a new bank.

So out of desperation, he decided to reach out to a certain middle-aged man that he had met at a bar one time who had given him his card and made a very tempting offer to him. 

Though this had occurred around the same time that he had decided to sleep with wealthy women for money and other benefits, he wasn't interested. 

And that is solely because he doesn't do men nor boys. Despite the tempting and straight-forward offer, he never paid attention to it and threw the card somewhere in his room.

Now that he thinks that this man's offer could be the only option available, he frantically searches his room for it.

Luckily, since he lives alone in his tiny single room, he knows the card would definitely be somewhere in the room, since he doesn't remember ever seeing it again after that evening at the bar.

So he was sure he would find it.

And as fate will have it, he did find it under his nightstand.

Doyun was very glad to have found it. But before he reaches out to the man and accepts his offer, he needs to know more about what he is about to get himself into.

Not having any idea how these boy-to-boy relationships work, he started researching online about it and even ended up searching for how to do those weird poses as a guy to seduce another guy. 

Fuck! He has even gone to the pharmacy to get some lube and three different sizes of condoms, including his own size, since he doesn't know the man's actual size or if the man will ask him to "top" him.

A term he has just learned from his research some minutes ago.

The fear of losing his mom has not given him the time to even feel any sort of embarrassment or shame.

His primary concern now is how he is going to get the money for his mom's treatments. 

After surfing the Internet for information on how sex between a man and a man goes, he decided to reach out to the middle-aged man.

But since it's been a long time since the man made the offer, Doyun believes he needs to send these nudes, so that the man will not be able to tell him that he has changed his mind. 

If he was interested in him when he still had full clothes on, then how can he refuse him when he isn't in any? It was for this reason that he sent those sexy pictures.

"Why is he not saying anything after reading my messages? Has he lost interest now? Or has he found someone else?" Lee Doyun paced to and fro in his small room, thinking out loud. 

He has finished sending all the photos he took to the man, but he still hasn't replied to his messages even after reading them and viewing the pictures too. 

Does this mean the man doesn't want him anymore? Is he and his siblings going to lose his last ticket to saving their terminally ailing mother?

No. He refuses to accept this. He will do everything he can to save her. 

Fuck! They just lost their dad less than three months ago. They can't lose their mother too, when they haven't even recovered from the loss of their dad.

"But I thought he said his deal was up until I made up my mind? Why is he not minding me then? I don't get it."