1 I'm Your Conscience
In the glistening morning sunlight that pours into the bedroom of a villa in the mountain top of Dehradun lies a teenage girl.
Her eyes closed , her soft voilet long hair lay spread on the bed. The tender milky white skin sparkled like diamonds in the sunlight.
The girl is been lying in a unconscious state for past forty eight hours after she was rescued from that terrible accident.
Yes, unconscious and oblivious of the fact that the life of her and her friends from that day onwards has changed forever. She was on longer the same as she used to be neither her friends.
What changed in them and what impact it
will have on them only time will tell.
But something is about to happen destiny has changed it course or perhaps this was their destiny waiting to come forth at them.
...
Her eyebrows twitched, beads of sweat appeared on her forehead. In her mind she was in an abyss of darkness. It was like she was trapped in a world full of darkness.
Darkness that was trying to consume her whole but she resisted not ready to throw the towel yet... Suddenly in that darkness she heard voices
"You are the worst thing that ever happened to me ...
You destroyed my life .....Ruined it...
Hate you. ...
You are nothing but a symbol of my tragedy ...
Why were you even born...
Get out of our lives.... "
The girl tried to calm herself believing all of to be a lie. Seeing the girls steady resistance the darkness questioned her in a deathly frozen and cunningly ruthless voice
"WHY DO YOU RESIST ME???
WHAT GOOD WILL IT GET YOU???
WHY DO YOU WANT TO SUFFER SO MUCH???
DON'T YOU WANT TO GET EVEN WE THOSE WHO HAVE HURT YOU FOR NOTHING???
WHAT WAS YOUR FAULT ???
WHY DO THEY BLAME YOU FOR THEIR MISTAKES ????
WON'T IT BE EASY TO TAKE REVENGE BY JOINING ME ??? "
Hearing the voice of the darkness shiver run down to the core for her spine. Her blood frozen, fear and desperation grasped her. She felt helpless but she knew she should never give in as it was not the right thing to do.
"They are my parents and family. I know they love me.... They are facing some problems amongst themselves that why they are just upset.... I will never do anything to hurt them. And I'll never join you, your are evil you'd destroy everything ..... No one can be happy in your influence. I'll never give up " said the girl in an heart felt determined voice
Hearing the girl's voice a brutal manic laughter echo from the darkness.
As soon as the laughter faded flashes of lighting struck with each other. A vague form emitting a warm glow emerged tearing the darkness from it very core...
The still glow gave vibe of familiarity to the girl like she had known it for a long time. It was like that glow was something that has been watching over her form afar....
To her it felt like that glowing light is giving her the greatest consolidation , telling her that it was not something that intendes to harm her.
She felt she should at least give it a chance, what could happen to her??? In a worst case scenario she would just die...
She was desperate to escape from her current life also afraid to lose what she held dear to her. She would do anything that would give her a chance to change what from the depths her she wished she could change. She tried to get close to the source of the glow ....
"Help me, please , tell me .... what can I do so that everyone will accept me . I can't take it any more ....
Help me, please...
This is not what I want...
I can't see the people I love hate me
like this....
I have a my parents and yet I'm worst than an orphan... "
I want to change and take away all their problems..... and give them a happy life....
"Pleaseeee..... Help me..... I know you have answers to my questions "
There was a deep silence. But it didn't feel uncomfortable as what felt like a pair of eyes hidden by the glow was steady yet productively watching over her observing her every move ,counting her every tear that fell from her mythical deep voilet eyes.
Some time passed .....
A gentle and calm girl's What are you voice reached her
"Help you !! ... How do you want me to help you???? " asked the voice.
" Give me the answers to my questions " said the girl in a broken voice.
" I don't understand you " said the voice curiously.
The girl felt confused and asked
"What is it that you don't understand about me??? "
" I don't understand why you are asking me to answer your questions when you already know the answer to them " said the voice
" The questions you are asking me are the very same questions you ask .....
time and again... but what's the point ???
You know very well that no matter who gives you the answer, you it is the same answer that you already know . You stubbornly don't want to except it. What I do in that????
You ask these questions in the hope that someone will give you a different answer that you can approach.
But you also know that it's a lie ...
If you want to live your life in a bunch of lies you can but don't expect me to support you....
I'm not going to lie to you. " said the voice in and yet determined tone.
The girl understood she was wrong..... she cried but admitted her mistake ..
"Yes, you are right I do know the answers to my questions and yes I wanted to live my life in a pack of lies but the truth is so difficult to except...
There are so many children in this world then why do I have to be the one who has to suffer so much????? Why can't I have what those children have????
I don't want this .
I want to change everything " said the girl in a voice the represented her grief and frustration.
"Change! Why do you want to change anything??? " the voice asked again curiously.
" You are not happy the way things are??? "
"No"said the girl in a quiet voice.
"I see... Then tell what do you want to change??? And why??? "
The girl felt a hint of amusement in the voice so she rebuked back at the voice in an angered tone
" I want to change everything.... I don't want to live like this..... This is not what I want... "
"Hmm, I get what you are saying ....
So tell me.... you say you want to change ....But what have you done to change things that you don't like????
You say you don't want this, but is this not what has made to you to the person you are today....
You compare yourself to others .... So ask yourself.... Is this not made you the person that you are???
Ask yourself how many people have the opportunities that have been knocking your doorway just because of this.....
How many have been able to achieve what you have because of this..... " the questioned her.
The girl was left in a deep thought... The voice was right.... what she has achieved at such an young and with such ease was something that most of the world envy . That was an undeniable truth she can't ignore.
The girl looked up at that glowing form with wonder in her eyes trying to figure out who it was or rather what it was...
Seemingly unable to decide what the entity in front of her was she decided to ask because she was impressed by her logic and words.. She wanted to be as calm,confident and determined as it
"Who are you or what are you???
Please tell me..... I need to know....
I want to be like you... So that I can face my problems head-on from now on....
The voice chuckled at the girls timid yet curious and determined tone and said...
" I'm surprised ..
Don't you know me??? "
No she didn't knew it all so she slowly shook her head indicating that she didn't.
This time voice said in a comforting tone
" I'm you.... I'm created by you .... What I have is what you have nurtured in yourself...
I'M YOUR CONSCIENCE...
WE ARE NOT SEPARATE ....
I RESIDE DEEP IN YOUR HEART...
I'M ALWAYS THERE WHEN YOU NEED ME...
YOU ONLY HAVE TO ASK ME....."
