Chapter 25: Monsters don't deserve such a thing

I never really thought that The Seven Princes of Hell used to be so... weak?

Hah! Statement of the year while hugging The Second Prince of Hell, no other than Leviathan himself, ladies and gentlemen. I really should let him go, but I feel so comfortable in his arms. It kind of reminds me of uncle Raphas hugs.

"You know... I could swear that you would say that it was hard."

"Well, I can't exactly say that it was always easy, but it was most of the time."

"You make it sound like it was nothing in the end. But I can relate, after all, for the sake of those dear to us, we can do anything and everything!"

"Indeed we can. But it doesn't mean that we won't survive even the darkest of battles."

"What-"

"Do not forget Rosemary, that we share to some extent, a similar past. Whether you like to admit it or not, we can understand at some point how one thinks due to this because we have the same ambitions and maybe same dreams."

"But this doesn't mean that..."

"That I can't understand the subtle meaning of what you said? Oh, dear child, don't be naive! Of course, I can. Didn't you understand what I said before? That because we have to some extent similar pasts, I can predict what you think as well as you can if you just relax and think a little."

"Well, let me tell you something, mister. I do not like it when people try to read me because I love being unpredictable as well as I like my privacy!" I told him while I struggled to get myself out of his arms, but he just wouldn't let me go.

"Stop struggling because I won't let you be. I understand why you are mad. Trust me! I know how it feels, but once you learn how to control your emotions, your feelings, then you will have nothing to fear."

"Suuure! I won't lock or hide my feelings, my emotions away! I made that mistake once, and it won't happen again, not after the consequences that comes with such a thing. There is always a price to pay."

"I gather that the price wasn't to your taste?"

I could literally feel the curiosity rolling of off him in waves, plus the arched eyebrow and the curiosity in his eyes didn't help either. I turned with my back to him and watched out the window, which showed some kind of training grounds for kids. But I could still feel the fact that he wanted an answer, and an answer I gave him.

"I had to do it while I trained with five Strategists in the Death Domain. I had to in order to make it out alive due to how harsh it was. Plus, it was the only way I wouldn't think of heading back to Heaven to Emily and Emma because they might be in danger or injured. I did it for my sake as well because I couldn't concentrate due to the fact that all I could think of at that time was to get strong enough to put an end to this war soon enough. Even now, it still keeps bugging me the fact that I'm not strong enough yet. I'm not strong enough to protect those dear to me, not yet, but soon enough things will change. You know what?"

"What?"

"Everyone thinks that they can underestimate me, but what you all don't know that when the time comes for the finishing strike against those blasted things, I won't hold back even at the cost of my life. I lost enough people to those things. Enough broken promises and blood of those dear to me on my hands. I have to take my revenge as well on one of them. Also, don't think that you or anyone else can change my mind. I may seem like I am not strong enough, and I may complain that I'm not, but in truth, all it takes are a few words, some more broken promises to break, a lot of pain and broken seals and no one will ever be a match for me again."

I could tell that from the moment I said the last sentence that he tended up. Not much so that I couldn't feel it, but I did. But why? Why did he tense up? It's not like he should care, right? I mean, why would he care? It's not like I'm important to him, so why? Why do I feel like he cares? Why do I feel like he knows so much more than he lets on?

All these questions are driving me mad, because I need answers, I need reasons and explanations.

"Why? Why do you care? It's not like I'm someone important to you? Last night and the past few days as well. Why are you so caring towards me?"

"Stop trying to see the bad side when it comes to people showing that they care about you! It's not like I'm-"

'It's not like you're going to stab me in the back?" I literally yelled at him. I gave him a good elbow in the stomach since he didn't expect it and freed myself from his arms. Not only that, but I turned my back to him, wrapped myself with my arms and tried so hard to keep the memories at bay, but his next words almost made me break completely. Why? Because I know that I don't deserve such a thing. I am a monster, and monsters are cursed to be without it.

"I love you Rosemary, believe it or not little one, I do!"

To think that he, actually... no it's too real to be true, plus he is a fallen angel and I can't let myself go on even if it's a dream. Beautiful as it is, it has to come to an end before it's too late.

"Listen Leviathan, as much as I hate to do this... I'm sorry, but I just can't-"