Close friend

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I just sat in my room to think. Thinking all the times he gave me. Making me happy, and as well not feeling bored this winter. Meeting him made me gain a new thing to cherish.

I knew that I have got this budding crush on him.

Heck I did not even know what's his preference in the girls that he would loved to go out with (maybe "Lalisa Manoba")

I started having feelings for him... after a years of never loving anyone else I picked him. Never seen his face in person but I knew his personality, I knew him

I always know it's not about the outside of people but with in. Home making me laugh smile I known those feelings all, too well. So, talked with my best friend who knows him since I shared my actual emotions

"Do you think he truly likes me?" I asked her.

"Maybe he does, maybe he doesn't but you have to face the reality that he probably doesn't like you. But try your best I ship it so it better happen" She said

"HAHA YEA SURE"

But we all know he didn't like me like that...

It has been 16 months already. So it has been 16 months ago when I first messaged him on Instagram. I did not even expect him to reply but he did. It was an ecstatic feelings. Who would imagine that a known artist in social media with so many followers, would be replying to my messages.

After months we had a close bond. Even though he told me most things then others, which I was glad that he trusted me with things but it kept me thinking....

"MAYBE CAUSE I'M JUST A CLOSE FRIEND..."

Knowing I'm just a friend makes me sad but happy. I finally realised if I gave up my feelings I still will have him as a friend.

Friendship was built online. I had fun talking with him almost everyday for the past 16 months- everyday happening, rants in life, embarrassing moments and even secrets that both of us only knew. I have been able to know him well.

I barely confessed that I have a crush on him....

To my surprise, he did not disdain but the chat went on. I thought he have forgotten that. And I went on.

I did not know when I realised that I like him not just for being an outstanding artist but also as a person. But I'm sure that I like him for being who he is- what he have shown to me at least.