Nervous

I saw him sitting with his friends. His grey eyes reminded me of a mystic orb that hypnotizes people just by looking into it

My heart was in my throat,I had butterflies in my stomach,I wasn't pretty sure what I was doing and what I wanted to say. Even the long speech I had prepared just disappeared.

Every step I took became heavier. The closer I got to his table,the more nervous I felt. No calming words or motivational speeches worked right now

I could hear my heart beat.

'Go! You can do this! Fighting!' I said in my head,trying to make my legs that went stiff to the ground mobile again.

10 more steps

8 more steps

5 more steps.

Counting these steps I suddenly remembered the reason why I decided to confess my feelings in the first place

It was last night,I was having a conversation with my cousin in my room

....

"Why don't you tell him how you feel?"She asked while painting her long nails that were natural and beautiful.

"What about if he doesn't feel the same way? Besides,I am known to be stone hearted and incapable of love. It'll destroy my reputation"I was just trying to give excuses.

What I was worried about the most is him turning me down.

I won't be able to love again. A crush,for 3 years is not a joke.

"Stop trying to make excuses"My cousin stopped painting her nails and stood up.

Her black obsidian eyes were shining like stars.

"Just man up, and walk up to him and tell him ' I like you and I've liked you for 3 years. So what are you gonna do about it?'"

I just found myself laughing. How in the world am I meant to say that? Easy for her to say. She was the confident type. Talking to boys was a piece of cake to her

I sat back down on my bed,not knowing what to do.

"Look Meera, what's the worse that can happen? Just tell him."She knelt down in front of me. That was when I noticed her hair that was black was now red. Or was I seeing things?

"What happened to your hair?"I touched it and I saw that it was shorter than before. She also cut her hair?

"I dyed it. How does it look"she posed and flipped her hair back

"You look like poison ivy"I giggled.

"How dare you?!"She pointed at my nose.

Then we got into a pillow fight.

"But seriously you should tell him"She said while trying to catch her breath.

Her hair was a mess but she still looked beautiful,with her black eyes,white pale skin,red hair and pink soft lips. She had big eyes and a good nose. To add to her beauty she had flesh in all the right places.

"Well Jemima,I think you're right. What's the worse that can happen?"I said,still straightening my hair. It was a bird's nest now.

'Yeah. What's the worse that can happen?'

....

Now am here, standing 5 steps away from what I would call the biggest moment of my life.

"Mason?"I called out softly.

Hearing my voice,the whole table quieted down.

"Yeah?" He was now facing me. His attention was on me. I froze.

His brown hair,grey eyes,straight nose that was a little pointed. Eyebrows that were sharp and well carved. His eyelashes were long and black,making girls jealous.

He was perfect,too perfect.

"Can I talk to you?"I asked,feeling shy.

I was super nervous.

"Ok. Sure"

"No,like in private"I licked my lips. They were so dry.

No one suspected a thing. I mean who would?

It was just Meera. Meera the cold,ice hearted girl.

"Yeah? What do you wanna say?"His mesmerizing, deep voice sounded in the enclosed classroom

I was so nervous that I became speechless.

"Ira?"I didn't respond,so he called me by my nickname.

"Huh?"I was still in a daze.

"You said you wanted to talk to me?"He looked at me with a 'you wanted to talk to me and now you went silent'

I cleared my throat.

"Ira? Is there anything wrong with you? Are you okay?..."Mason kept asking me questions and I just blabbed.

"I like you!"

"What?"He was dumbfounded.

"I like you,like you. Like in that way. The way Jack likes Rose or Peter likes M.J or.."

"You like me?"He was still shocked. He said as if he was trying to confirm.

"Yes" my voice became lower and I lost my confidence. I couldn't even look me in the eye.

After what felt like forever,he finally smiled.

"Wow!"He exclaimed.

"It's okay if you don't feel the same way. I know you don't feel the same way,so I just want us to remain friends. It dosen't affect anything"I sounded really sure about what I was saying,but there was still something deep in my heart wishing for things to not go as planned.

It was just a small light.

"Why would I want that? I don't want us to be friends. I want more than that"He smirked and it was my turn to be speechless. I didn't plan this.

I was so surprised.

"I also like you Ira"As he was saying this,he moved closer to me, eliminating any reasonable space between us.

"You also like me?"I still asked. I wanted to be sure it wasn't a prank.

"I do and it's not a joke"He sounded serious.

My heart leapt when I heard that. I was rejoicing.

I could feel his breath on mine,his gaze left me burning with desire.