4.4 Don’t, just don’t

Well so much for my enjoying this day, the three of them are quite enjoying the new scenery of our school display, for me, I’m having a hard time controlling “him” inside. He's quite persistent when it comes to gain control of me, I don’t want to cause any more trouble at times like this…I have to be more wary. I don’t know what kind of bribery he would do in my mind.

“Hey…Are you okay?” I was spacing out, Hana noticed me just staring blankly at them while playing balloon darts.

“Oh…Uhm…Yeah, I’m fine, I’m fine…” I replied and gave a kind of awkward smile.

“So…What did the Chief say?” Lea exclaimed while Austin looks in my direction.

“Well…Uhm…Just checking out on me…you know…About what happened last year…and the school rules will be implemented”

“Oh…Yeah! I forgot about that!” Hana suddenly raised her arm. “Next week after all these…A new school rules will be posted…”

“Oh…” Lea blurted.

“Wait didn’t you guys listened earlier?” Hana stared at the three of us. From the looks of it, she knows that we ditched the ceremony.

“Jeez…Guys, Why!?” Lea and Austin laughed.

“Nothing…it’s boring…? I guess? Who wants to listen to an old guy announcing the program?” Lea replied.

“Yeah…I rather be here…exploring…and playing darts man…” Austin added.

“Wah!? Are you really serious guys? You basically skipped an attendance…”

“Don’t worry! Don’t worry!” Lea rested her arm on Hana’s shoulders. “Let’s just have fun and enjoy the three days of this fiesta” Hana sighed…

“How about your duty as a peacekeeper? Hmmm…?”

“It’s okay I can manage! Come on let’s go!” Lea pushed us both almost lost my balance, while Austin followed the three of us from the back.

We went straight towards our building and tried a bunch of stuff in the booth, well it’s easy for me because some students didn’t allow my presence inside their booths because of “I might do something” but, with a little arguing from Lea and Hana we manage to enjoy some booths.

The flashy photo booth, movie, café, The Cosplay area, and many more unique sights were provided by my schoolmates.

I was exhausted but I’m actually having fun…My last foundation day fiesta was a nightmare because a bunch of students threw papers and trash at me back then but, now I tried most of the booths provided.

“Haahhh…! That was fun!” Lea exclaimed while she sat down on a bench next to me and stretched her arms. “The movie booth was great; it was a movie marathon about the Marvel Cinematic Universe…so next time they will be showing the war arc…”

“Yeah…What a nice way to spend the day…the cupcake from class 1: C is really tasty!” Hana replied.

“Yeah the ambiance of class 1: C of their café is pretty good too…” Austin leaned on a tree while dirking his juice box.

“How bout you Alex what did you enjoy for the last couple of hours?” Lea asked.

Well…I actually enjoyed it but some people beside me when I visited the booths became weary because of what I did back then. I was about to answer but Austin tugged my uniform and told me we are being called by no other than Philip.

Well, I guess my half-fun fiesta will end sooner…

We went up in our classroom and saw Philip and the other booth moderators of our class are waiting for me…well, at least for Philip of course…

“Where have you been?” Asked Philip who was holding a piece of paper in his hand.

“Oh...I didn’t notice the time…” Austin replied calmly.

Philip sighed; I know that he wants to curse Austin so badly because our booth opening is fifteen minutes late. But Philip kept his posture and just smiled back.

“It’s okay, it’s okay, please just take this and we're ready to open our booth…and please hurry…” Philip smiled and as Austin walked into our class.

“Your stupid friend delayed our booth progress…Watch yourself you piece of crap” He murmured before entering. His friends laughed and followed him.

I entered our classroom and stand beside the two green trash bins. And just listened to Austin and Philip instructing my classmates except for me because I’m already in garbage duty, as always putting that innocent smile of his and helping others is all he can show.

I wonder what will it take to break his spirit…

The class was distorted and filled with rose petal-colored blood everywhere, my classmates are just lying around lifeless.

I shook my head sideways; everything was back to normal all the laughs and the politeness of my classmates while accompanying our customers. The live music started, but I couldn’t hear anything. Just the sound of a stuttering television. Just stared blankly at my classroom.

“Hey! Trash boy!” A piece of paper lightly tapped on my head. “Could you please take out the trash It’s becoming full already…?” one of my classmates exclaimed, it was a girl from Samantha’s group.

“You can throw yourself too you know? Your trash too…just reminding” Everyone laughed, some of the visitors almost spat the coffee, even the live band playing in the background tried to hold their composure while playing the instruments.

I took the bins and carried them out.

“Stupid, b*tch” The trash scattered across the floor as my hand covered my mouth. No…No…That can’t be… I heard it but my mouth was so numb I couldn’t tell. I quickly took the trash lying on the floor.

“You okay…?” I look up and saw Benjamin smiling at me. Then helped me took the trash back.

“Thanks…Benjamin…You’re a lifesaver…” I smiled and was about to go downstairs.

“Need help…?” He took the other garbage bin and stood up.

“Thanks…” We both went downstairs. Benjamin and I chatted while going to the disposal area.

“So…It’s fun huh? Seeing all these activities and people?” He smiled.

“Well yeah…Kinda…Aren’t you worried about the amount of work you’ll be doing?” I replied.

“Nah…Not at all…besides in fun to see humans having all sorts of fun…It’s really amusing” I dumping my trash in the huge bin.

“Hey, Benjamin…let me…”

No…No…Not again… All was black and grey, I rushed in our school gate…Once lush and colorful designs are replaced by nothing but grey. It was so lifeless…

“Benjamin! Are you okay!?” No answer, all I can hear is my echoey voice. Walking around I noticed the huge clock on the top of our front school building is not moving.

“Isn’t this great!?” He exclaimed while sitting on the top of the clock that looks like big ben. “Isn’t this what you always wanted?! No people! Just you!?” I leaped and landed in front of me and suddenly grabbed my neck and squeezed it.

“Wha…” I couldn’t breathe… “Wha…What do…Yuh-You want this…time…?” He pinned me down on the ground.

“I’m so pissed that you can’t even protect yourself by SIMPLY Saying to ‘stop’ right in front of their faces…” his cold green dead eyes stared at me.

“It…” he stood up “It…pisses me off…!” I gathered all my strength and stood up then faced him.

“Y-You think that’s easy…!?” I screamed at him.

“It’s EASY! If you let me…” The crooked smile of his gave me the shivers. I am afraid of myself so, I will fight him until he gives up…I can’t let anyone see this part of me.

I don’t know what he might do to everyone…I don’t want revenge; I just want to live peacefully.

“You…know? I can hear you right?” he continued to smile and snapped his fingers.

“You don’t want revenge…? What a lie…” He sat on a bench that suddenly appeared in front of my eyes.

“I don’t want any of it! You! You! Just want it for the sake of entertainment…!” He laughed and whipped his eyes.

“True…But, as I said…I am you and YOU are me…I can’t let my only body and character be a loser and just taking all the heat…I don’t want to be a punching bag…”

“The way you are showing yourself to me right now…Do you think I’ll let a single piece of you!? Don’t even hope…!” I pointed at his face and exclaimed.

“Do you know where are we?” He stood up.

“No…” I replied.

“This is the world you’ve always wanted ever since you were a little dumpling…All alone nothing but you, and you only…” Then he became me when I was in preschool.

“Can you see yourself before? Your dead eyes…your frowning face, you can’t even smile if it wasn’t for that girlfriend yours…!” He suddenly smirked, I rushed him with all my might and kicked the little me hard in the face.

“IF! You lay a single hand on her…! Or do anything to my body when I’m with her I will kill myself…!”

“Yes! Let anger and revenge! Take over you…!” His psychotic laugh surrounded everything.

“I’ll never let you in! NEVER! In my entire life…!” He tilted his head and stopped laughing.

“I’ll be back…I’ll be in here…” He then pointed to the side of his head.