1 Ah, I fell

The ceiling, which glowed with the reflection of the evening light on my bedroom dressing mirror, made the empty space look so beautiful.

For several times I blinked my eyes, hoping that this was not a mere dream, until finally I heard the voice softly calling my name, the only person who called me like that after my mother died.

turn my gaze from the ceiling towards this child, and see that smile .. looks so peaceful and calm my heart for the umpteenth time.

The only reason I remained, even lived under orders and pressure every day, he came up to me and told me another interesting story ...

to be honest, I didn't hear this child chatter right now, I was just focused on this kid was full of enthusiasm when telling me that story, though I didn't listen to what that mouth said a single one.

But I'm happy, at least this little fella made me sure that right now I can feel alive.

Until a moment after he touched me to get my attention, that's when I realized that I was not with this child from the start.

What I saw before, was not a smile. but rather her sullen mouth trembling and her cheeks filled with tears ... Ah, don't cry. you shouldn't cry.

you have to be strong, you can't show that face to anyone, not even me.

because you should be flawless

My vision is getting brighter, the child's voice is getting smaller and smaller until it finally disappears .. My head feels light and hurts

But, isn't this what I wanted?

I've longed wait for this moment, a death from the worst to the fastest, I've thought a lot about it ... but I didn't expect it, to ended up here after protecting you, my previously empty heart now feels grateful ... at least after I die, I become a person who is useful for you ..

Is death really this calm? I am a sinful child of God, because I've wasted so much of my time in the world, isn't this place of calm and light too good for this sinful of me?

At least being blinded by this light would be better, Than my sight lost to the darkness in the basement of my house. Am I really free right now?

The body that was previously floating around as light as a feather, suddenly fell as if a large rock had just pressed against my body.

The light that swirled around me like millions of fireflies circling the night, slowly began to disappear as if swallowed by a deep abyss.

I fall. Tens, ah, no, hundreds of feet below me. I just died, am I going to die twice?

Even though my body fell into a bottomless pit, I didn't feel afraid, even when the gale winds shook my hair so roughly, instead of feeling scared, I didn't feel anything.

In the darkness that I saw, even after my death. suddenly all the memories from my previous life appeared, and spun like a poor quality short film around me.

Then a few moments later, my body stopped and floated and then fell again. This time I fell right at the bottom. "Agh!!" and I can feel the pain.

"Hm .. this is strange .." then I stood up and cleaned the sand and dust that stuck to my face and arms, then looked around. but all I got was a dark place that echoed.

I vaguely heard footsteps approaching me, with the light following them. That's when I found out that the person I saw in front of me was bright and shining like the angel they talked about.

Instead of wearing all white, this man wore a neat suit like a private worker. Carrying a book as big as the history of national independence, the man carried it as if it were as light as a pocket book.

Until finally he stopped in front of me, and then closed the book. "All right, miss. After your tragic death, allow me to welcome you to- !! " His words stopped as soon as he opened those ruby-blue eyes, then pointed his index finger at my face with a surprised expression, "w-who are you? !!"

What's with this guy, at before he said congratulations as if he knew me, and now he points at me and ask my name, is he stupid or what?

He immediately looked at his big book for the second time, "no, no, no, there must be something wrong here, where? Where? Where?! I must have missed something .. "he panicked as if he had just killed the wrong person.

After some time he read his book, his eyes widened in surprise, Then quickly he looked at me and his book back and forth. "You .." his eyes peeked through his book, "Aeleasha .. Iswara?" he said doubtfully

"Mhmm .." I said as I watched his face turn increasingly panicked, with cold sweat pouring down his temples.

"Aaahhhhh !!! Nooo!" It was his annoyance that made the whole place tremble, either because of the echo of his low, low voice or because this place was affected by the feelings of the man in front of me right now.

"you!!" he raises his head, and again points his index finger at me.

"How can people who are heartless and do not care about others like you be the chosen one ??? !!" He annoyed at me, why is he annoyed? I should be the one who felt disturbed by his rude and offensive words.

And then I straightened my body and glared at him who was taller than me, and clenched all my fists. "Listen, you are annoying and noisy man. I also don't know why I ended up in this place and met someone like you, so," then I poked his chest, and lowered my voice while holding back the anger inside, "don't insult me ​​as if you know me, you jerk."

"Tcih!" he brushed my hand quickly, and brought his angry face towards me. "Don't just because you were the chosen one, you act so arrogant, you woman." Because I didn't want to be outdone by him, I grabbed his collar and made this man who was much taller than me bend over my hand.

"I told you before, you deaf and angel or.. demon, whatever. I don't know anything, and you even blame me, do you want me to punch you, huh?" somehow my expression right now, I'm really pissed off.

Instead of being afraid, this man glared back at me with anger and hatred inside.

A few moments before I could punch his handsome and smooth face, someone stopped me. "Mr. Beryl ?!" he was shocked as soon as we turned our attention to the man who had also appeared from the midst of this argument.

"Geez, don't fight please .." he grinned, which then pointed his hand, then slowly separated us.

His impulses are quite slow and smooth, he even able to push me who is currently burning full of anger, how come?

his warm and friendly smile is much different from that insolent man before, "I apologize for my delay beforehand, Miss Lesa." Even he knows how to speak well.

"My name is Beryl, one of the five gods who guard this world, and this young man who greeted you before," greeted me? Are you kidding, "you can call him Jin." then He smile towards me.

I crossed my arms, "even without me telling you, you already know who I am, right?"

"This damn bastard is so insolent!" replied Jin with veins twitching above his brows. "Yes, you are absolutely right, Miss Lesa." Then Beryl restrained Jin from coming to me with his punch.

"Before you mentioned the word 'this world', where are you taking me for?"

"Ah, very responsive." He then looked at me with a worried face, "don't you want to ask why you are here? Or, are you dead or not? Hm .. most people will ask that after they sees me. "

"I know that I'm dead, so for what questioning pointless things. just answer my previous question, where are you taking me? And what is the reason? "

"right miss, there's no need to hurry." Again he smiled, "but before that, let's find a more comfortable place, shall we?" One flick of a finger, turning this dark, nightmare place into a garden full of blossoms, with butterflies of various shapes and colors.

"This way I hope you can be more comfortable, Lesa." He then sat in a chair right under the shade of a green tree in front of us, "come here." He said.

"I told right before? don't mince words and answer my question, Beryl." I said, for some reason his presence and smile made me feel uncomfortable.

"Haah .." he sighed heavily, "you're in such a hurry huh .."

"We gods call this world Carnelian, for its beautiful twilight are like jewels," he sipped his tea

"and the beautiful twilight has faded away since the appearance of the demon king, Arthan." His tone changed the moment he mentioned the demon king's name.

"During the years Arthan ruled that world, many sentient beings have suffered because of it.", He looked at me with his serious gaze, "therefore I, Beryl the god of life asked for you to—"

"I refuse." I answered briefly

He then looked at me with a thousand questions in his eyes, "Heh? I haven't even finished my words yet. "

"Well, whatever it is, I refuse." I insisted as I crossed my arms, "My previous life was already troublesome, and now you are asking me to live a second time, even being forced to carry some task just because you picked me up from that dark place? I refuse."

"But you will be a hero in that world, and I will promise you a better life than your previous life." Even though I flatly refused, he still insisted. Very stubborn, it turns out that the boss and his subordinates are the same.

I have to find a way out of this blinding place.

"I don't need your offer, what I need is that you listen to my answer carefully, and my answer is still no. Since you're a god, then let me remind you one more time, life sucks, you know. " I replied while looking right and left to find a way out.

"But, miss I—"Before I had time to hear the rest of his words, my foot accidentally stepped on the hole. Ah, no, this can't even be said to be just a hole. Why is this so deep?!!

"MISSSS??!!"

Shit. I fell again.