Chapter 5 - Lola

I was back to work and so happy the past few weeks were amazing and am happy that i can speak to Xander now without feeling weird. He has done so much for me and i don't even know him, the thought terrifies me and excites me at the same time because i've never had someone care for me or want me as much as Xander does. He was patient with me when i was scared of opening up to anyone until Maria came along then Tank, when i overreact he doesn't slap me or beat me, he expresses his opinion calmly and respects me at the same time. His father is amazing too even though he keeps his distance, he makes me feel comfortable in his home and he never questioned my curious whereabouts.

Am still debating on whether on not Xander is honest with me, i mean i trusted Charles with my life, look where that got me and now Xander. Am scared and confused. I was brought back to reality when my phone rang and it was an unknown number, i hesitated but picked up anyways. "Hey baby girl, how are you holding up?", his voice was just heaven on earth. "Am, am ok just happy to be back to work i guess", shit why cant i be myself with him, he makes me nervous even when he is not around and now am freaking out after hearing his voice! It's so embarrassing. "Good. So i was hopping to go to dinner with you after work if, if thats ok with you", he was nervous? Oh god. "Sure, i'd love that". There was a new project so we had back to back meetings the rest of the day making it hard for me to keep track of time. We were done with the last meeting and looking at my watch it was half past seven. I panicked and rushed to my cube to see if i missed Xander's call only to find him sitting on my chair, he looked uncomfortable because of the way i set my chair, i mean i was short so it was suppose to comfort me. "Am sorry i just lost track of time, we had these-", "i don't mind, Amanda told me before hand so i just got here". He looked amazing in his casual clothes, i have seen him a handful of times and i was star struck each time. I gathered my phone and handbag with him leading the way. When we entered the elevator the girls from accounts department entered as well i guess they were going two floors below because that is where their department was. They were eye fucking Xander whose eyes remained on me. It made me angry but i couldn't say anything because he wasn't mine either so i had no claim. I took a deep breath and looked away from his eyes. We entered the car and left.

The restaurant was amazing and i loved the decor and everything, it was just beautiful. We were seated at a secluded table where we saw the most amazing view of the lake, it was breath taking. "Mr. Tan, we didn't know you will be visiting today", "Do i need permission to eat at my restaurant?", his question made me blink like five times, when i was sure of what i heard i was able to understand why Amanda called him Mr. Hospitality.

"You like the food?","yes this is amazing", my answer made him smile. It was the first time we talked since his manager left us to enjoy our evening. "So as you might have guessed, this is the new restaurant i bought a few months ago, i fell in love with the food and the view", the way he said it made me worry, it was as if he was talking about something else, our eyes met and i swallowed hard. "Lola, do i scare you?", "Not at all why would you think that?", "Lola, i know that you are second guessing me and questioning why i'm doing this for you, i don't have answers to that, all i know is you just clicked to me. Am just trying to understand you, i mean you are the first woman that i want to be with but you always push me away". I couldn't find an answer so he continued. "Lola i wont deny it, i love you and as cliche as it sounds, i have known that you are mine since the day you walked into Amanda's office. I wont force you to love me, all i am requesting from you is a chance", he was begging me? It surprised me, even though i knew that Xander was a straight forward person i didn't expect him to open up to me this way, we have been sharing a room since i got to the Tan mansion but he has always slept on the coach. I watched his face turn into a worried one when i remained silent. The ultimatum, i didn't know how to overcome it.

I took a deep breath and formed fists under the table, deciding to take a leap of faith. "I-i want to try again, being in a relationship i mean, with you", i said keeping eye contact with him, his handsome face lit up making me smile. This man, he better not break my heart or i will make Hank break him in half. "That wont be necessary baby girl, i only want to please you and treat you like a queen that you are", he replied with a soft smile. Shock ran through me as i realised i just said that out loud, i threatened the man who not only provided sanctuary for me but he was also a foot and a half taller than me. I knew i was blushing furiously. He stood up and offered his hand which i took as we walked out of the restaurant, his hand made its way to my waist as he pulled me closer to him making me smile, people kept looking at us and some even took pictures.

"Why were they taking picture of us?", i asked as soon as we got to our room, he didn't reply so i turned only to find him right behind me wearing only boxers. "I don't know baby girl and i don't even care, i just want to devour you right now", he whispered as he reached for my clothes removing them with ease. His eyes scanned my body, he licked his lips and at that moment i knew this was going to be different not like the way Charles usually did it, it excites me and scares me at the same time. I swallowed hard and tried to cover my body. What? I am a plus sized black woman standing with only my bra and pants on infront of an Asian giant with eight packs, you have to agree the odds were not in my favour. He removed my hands and lifted my chin to connect our eyes. "Baby girl you are the most beautiful woman i have ever seen and am going to prove to you how magnificent you are", his words just knocked the air out of me.