Chapter One

Let's just say I am done being a bitch,shall we?!

You know, there are times when one decides to repent and be good but shits from their past return to haunt them.

I can tell you, I was a real bad person-not that now I am any better-but still...I am tryna make some change.But you know what?! Reality is such a bitch.

Bottom line: I HATE myself.Life is too good a gift for bitches like me to deserve. Frigging useless...Frigging irritating..Good for nothing..Basically I'm shit.

Wait what dafaq mahn...Am I fucking insane to sit and scribble crap that makes no sense?!Well..basically, yeah I am.

PROCRASTINATING - The main crap I do with my life everyday.

Never-mind..chuck...

Ohkay, back to matters at hand.

Today is my first day to the new school and it's the beginning of a new academic year. Oh well, a lot happened during these 2 months. I left my parents' home(they call themselves my parents..I don't do that)..moved towns..adopted new names for each occasion..changed my school..rent a small room with a bit of the money I earned from The Underground.

Yes, The Underground. That's how I had been living my life the past few weeks.

I never liked the fact that I was a girl. I never liked to accept myself as one. I always liked to consider myself as a tomboy..Football..Wrestling..Bikes ..everything as a guy liked...Well yeah, including that..I loved porn and I was into lesbians...I loved girls for their body mahn...And I wanted to change. No, not that I wanted to be a girl. I wanted to stop considering girls like this. I wanted to be like the other girls at least in this..I wanted to consider them as my friends,not as someone who I could look at and get turned on.The best part about leaving my old school is I didn't have to see my crush again because seeing her would only bring back all feelings and cravings back in full swing.

At least in this town I SHOULD NOT be a bitch. I SHOULD control myself. I SHOULD be a good friend. I SHOULD NOT fight with everyone for every shit of a reason.

Well anyway, first day at a new school. I didn't wanna be late. My new apartment was not big. Well to say it's not so easy for a 17 year old to get an apartment on her own. I had to be a girl for that..You know what I mean, yeah?!! Yeah, I wanted to leave my past and this is the first thing I do in the new town. How bitchy about me eh?!!

7.25...Shittttt!!!!!

LATE!!!!!!

I run about the room,collect my books, throw on a Juventus jersey, black capri and black hoodies and run down the stairs of the building.