Volume Ninety

I had to change the subject my Faith isn't the most important thing. " Marcus the reason why we are asking about your upbringing?!. Is cause maybe their is a chance we could find that place, isn't that what you want to do. Go back to see if the others our safe. Marcus I have a good feeling that those people are still alive, fighting back waiting for you to come back. All we want is for you to get better. Maybe even find peace for yourself!". He dropped the fork that he was using to eat with. " I didn't ask for you to care about me!. Why does everyone want the best for me huh?!, nobody cared back then. All they care is about the present Marcus, but when the kid version was dying. You know what he thought about the most. Seeing the sun, not just some imaginational one either. When I finally saw the sun for the first time it blinded me, I was happy that I saw it. It also hurt me knowing that the others had never seen that beautiful thing, that type of warmth I hadn't felt. That warmth was much better than the rats, two years ago. A girl asked me what would I do if I can go back to that place. I didn't know how to respond to her then and I still don't know how to, I would love to go back and save them. They wouldn't recognize me now though. That child they saw saving them, sadly he died once he was exposed to the sun. I no longer want to save them. Those are the same ones who caused me the most pain!. Hearing their cries and screams each time I sleep, my mind is causing me the most pain. I'm scared of that place, I'm scared that there he had died. It's pretty pathetic I know that I wish that I had died back then. In reality I died when I first experienced Freedom, being able to walk on my own. Being able to walk without being in pain, seeing people smile without being in pain. That world had nobody like me in it, I ruined that perfect world. Once they saw who I was they were freighted by me. My scars of my horrific upbringing horrified those innocent people. It's not like I wanted these scars they are something I had no choice of it. So what can I do about them then?!, so I decided to hid them. Even if I go back to that place if they are died then I would be happy for them. I would be extremely jealous of them though, they can finally rest. While I have to continue to suffer through this pain, do y'all think that I will ever be able to rest?!. Or will I be forever be in pain, I want to know an answer. So I can have some type of hope, cause after meeting up. With one of the others from my past, my hope was shattered. She had been their for several years, she had experienced a wish that she had always wanted. I saw her death, while she was leaving the world. I was adding fuel to the fire. Wondering why we can switch places?!, at the end of her death bed was her Life. My jealous was no longer there, cause her life was crying and mourning for her. I guess I can join y'all on the quest for my past. I do warn you I have no idea where that place is though, this world is very blurry to me.". I think we should wait until he gets some more rest until we head into Nord. Nord is still very far away, maybe month away from us. I walked out of the kitchen, trying to come up with the best idea for us. The prodigal followed me. " Well I'll be damned, I can't believe that you are heading to Nord. Last I heard of Nord was when Adamsin caused an magma to come from the ground. I'm pretty sure that Nord is a wasteland now seeing how that was so many years ago. Jim do you believe that Story of Marcus?!. I mean it does have a lot of holes in it doesn't, I understand that this quest can clear up the giant misunderstanding of Adamsin. What he had down is never going away, we can't change the fact that killed over Sixty percent of everything on this planet.". I snapped back at the prodigal. " First finally it's around Ninety percent, and I know what he had done. I'm full aware fo his actions, we couldn't save him then. This child Marcus has a very powerful and rare power, with his power it seems to me. That even Adamsin would look like a baby taking a bite out of an apple, so he is a major priority right now.". All three of us went outside to get some fresh air, " you think honestly that Marcus is faking his story. You saw what we saw, he isn't right in the head. His past is true though, me and Autumn saw it. ". Prodigal looked at both of us, then back into the deep woods. The woods was slight burnt, I don't know what happened here. "Jim!, I dont want to take Marcus on this journey anymore!. He isn't ready for his return to that home, he isn't ready to face his past yet.". I was shocked that Autumn had finally realized what I've told her before heading to Nord, it's too late now though. " Autumn we don't have any other options do we?!. We go back to Daragain they will find us,My family then kill both of us, I'm not letting that happen!". She nodded he head, her face tells a different story. Footsteps behind us, the creeping sound of Marcus. His voice was filled with energy, " let's head to Nord, Now!".