Finally

I opened my eyes.....again,These dreams keeps on coming back more and more every day,I used to feel afraid and like shit after waking out of them,But i guess i got used to it,now i just feel like shit.I got out of my bed and went to wash my face to start the day,Nothing new,looking at the person in the mirror there is one thing i can say

"who is this"

I couldn't recognise myself,Its like iam looking at someone else,Did i look at things like this before i looked exhausted not physically but mentally,I couldn't explain it.I guess thats what 2 years here does to you.Every day with the same routine,Wake up,Train,Train,Eat,Train,Eat and sleep.At first i thought my chance to escape would come at some point.

Oh,Boy how wrong i was,i didn't know that kind of thinking is what made me keep going and trying to get out of this place,But after some time questions i asked my self before came again.

'what am i doing this for?'

'what am i fighting this hard for?'

Some people keep on fighting not only for themselves but for the people they care about,When they are fighting on one side they are most of the time assured that someone is waiting for them on the other.I never thought relationships and these kind of things were that....important.

I guess since i knew i had people around me all the time in my own world,I took these things for granted,Now every thing seem more empty than before,with no on....no thats not right i do have someone,Sam.

Through all this time we kept getting closer even though i still "act" cold and uncaring around him,He always greets me with enthusiasm but around other people he looks nervous,I was sure at that point he was a spy.everytime he sees something that catch his attention he suddenly has to go and talk to someone.Iam genuinely confused how he didn't get caught til now.

Walking out the bathroom i started undressing to get ready for the day,I saw my body in the mirror even though i looked like a sculptured greek god at this point the scars on my body weren't so pretty,my body was filled with scars,slashes,stabs and anything that can leave a mark,I was told that my body should learn to heal on its own.

After i got dressed,i got out of my room to eat breakfast walking through the hallways,I felt like the place had less people than when i first came here.Just as i was about to enter the cafeteria i sensed something behind me,i ducked and rolled to the front i looked back and saw sam hugging the air.

"come on 01...its just a friendly hug it wont kill you would it?"

'I seriously doubt that'

seeing his annoying face everyday made him a little easier to stomach,but he still looks the same even after 2 years,he still got that hulking figure that would definitely crush me with a hug

"I told you I don't do hugs,why won't you get it?

He gave a soft sigh like I was the one being annoying, the audacity of this guy..!

"Cmon 01….hugs are really comfortable it will make you feel better,also you are still growing so you need love and affection,it's the secret for mentally healthy kids like you"

At these moments no matter how I tried I just couldn't keep up my cold and uncaring facade and I only had one thing to say

"Disgusting"

I think I saw a small arrow go right through his heart,he fell on the floor and started weeping comically while saying some weird shit like 'I can't believe 01 is actually disgusted by me' or 'god what have I done to deserve this' it was kinda hard to stop myself from smiling…

"What the hell is going on here?!"

Immediately I turned around to be met with docs annoyed face,if there is one thing i discovered about him(in person)is that he wasn't one for wasting time every hour,minute,second Is supposed to be used carefully and efficiently

Sam got off the floor and said while smiling nervously

"Nothing doctor,I was just greeting 01 before getting our breakfast"

I stayed silent,there was no reason for me to explain the situation at this point

"We'll get it done fast we have some visitors today,congratulations 01 you are gonna see the surface again"

"Understood sir"

On the outside I was like a talking statue but on the inside I felt like it finally came the thing I was waiting for

'My chance'

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Thx for reading its been a long time and I kinda forgot about writing it's just a chapter I wrote to ease my way back in I guess,do tell me what do u think about the chapter and the previous ones also criticism in all of its form is appreciated….