Chapter 16
Yue Li put her focus on the mind meditation art, brushing away the awkwardness between her and the dark arachne, yet a feeling that the result may not be human friendly still lingered.
Yue Li didn't truly care about the people, but the fact that she has a high status of elders, although honorary one, gives a lot more benefits to simply disregard it.
Her experience in the immortal world gives her enough insight to understand how worthless the attention and care could be.
If people wants to label you evil, then no matter how great of a feat you do, they will still label you as evil, even if you saved the world, you will become the mastermind behind its destruction.
Revenge, hatred, anger, rage... These emotions are always existent, yet they all translate to regrets, and regrets bring nothing good to the heart.
' The deed was done, the dead is death, those alive for revenge are just slaves of it, till fate toys with their destiny. I know that I have lost them forever, and I know that nothing can bring them back, so I will live however it will benefit me. Till no one can take a thing from me. As for the evil path, I'm only using the resources that I have to the best of my capabilities, after all, even if I don't drink this water, there will always be others to drink it. ' Yue Li mused to herself while giving them a slight glance before initiating a simulation.
* On the first day, you had an inclination to visualize the dark arachne in your mind as a first step. You had a little success. *
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* On the first week, you received communications from your dark arachne about a so-called buddhist practice called inner peace. You were puzzled since inner peace is simply acknowledging your negative emotions to connect to your positive emotions. Your dark arachne asked you to visualize that. *
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* On the first month, you became able to handle and manipulate your mental power, but you had a problem coming with a symbol to facilitate the visualization process. *
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* On the second month, you had the idea of using the experimentation material in order to find a common image of you in their minds. You found that answer was a spider cocoon, and you weren't surprised. But your dark arachne didn't like it so simple, so she asked you to make a cocoon that looks like a lotus for each one of them. *
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* On the third month, your dark arachne didn't like how negative emotions were displayed. She wanted to have twelve lotus cocoons for different negative emotions. *
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* On the first year, you used your long life experience to deduce twelve negative aspects incorporating all of human life, namely anger, hatred, despair, grief, fear, envy, jealousy, regrets, anxiety, shame, guilt and frustration. It didn't took you long to see through the darkness in your heart and materialize it, but your dark arachne had small request, it wanted you to find a way to absorb the negative emotions of the others and use them to temper your mind and strengthen your cocoon lotus. *
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* On the sixth year of research, you succeed at absorbing and refining negative emotions. But your dark arachne asked you to absorb and refine soul power that was contaminated with negative emotions, which is poisonous for the mind and can only be created under extreme conditions. *
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* On the nineth years, you succeed at integrating the method for negative soul power. You silently looked at your dark arachne, she told you that the envirment isn't truly compatible, she wanted you to add a small flakes of spirit bloodlust in the area, which easy because of how much you killed, and hard because of the possibility of killing madness. *
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* On the tenth year, you had an enlightenment and found how to deal with absorbed killing intent of Slaughter City. Perfecting your darkarachne meditation idea. *
* End of simulation. *
Yue Li didn't know what to say. She looked at her body and mind techniques and found that they are compatible even in resources needed for cultivation.
' At least I have free rein till I go out of Slaughter City, then I will face a bottleneck because of resources, so I will stay her till I reach the peak I can. But I look really more and more like a fallen cultivator. '
With everything planned out for now, the soul power, the body, and the mind. Yue Li focused on her cultivation, but soon, she found out that she lacked cultivation materials. So the number of the captives in the arena had gone from three or four to six and seven. Earnings her the nickname Black widow.