new school and dysphoria

I am Kai a 16 year old non-binary teen that is forced to move to a new schoo my dead gender is female and the school of Phoenix High had a uniform this means back in the closet and there is going to be a lot of dysphoria and I don't know if I can handle this at my old school I could wear what ever I wanted as long as it was appropriate for kids my age and all of my outfits are a baggy over sized hoodie a black hoodie to be exact and black jeans with chains on the pants I have been out of the closet for only 3 days everyone new that I was non-binary and they all accepted me but I was also the popular kid at a school in a small town in the country side and I thought that I was cool for the way I dressed and had my hair cut I had an under shave and my hair was short really short and fluffy in the front I looked masculine but not to masculine I had a feminine face and body shape so it was almost the perfect balance but I had to grow my hair out I have to wear a skirt and a shirt the brings all of my curves out this includes my chest I have a chest binder but I can't wear it at this school they have a strict dress code I hadnt even started school yet and I had cured my self to sleep more and I have just cured a lot something I haven't done in a long time since my mom....died... she never got to see me at my happiest or the real me she only got to see her angel her baby girl she...died in a car accident only about 7 days befor I started going as non-binary she has been gone for 10 days and I have to move to a new school start a new life without my mom my ginder and my happiness I wasn't happy a lot when o was younger but I would sing a lot and escape being sad with that I have the voice of an angel but I don't sing anymore because of my mom she loved to hear me sing and I can't sing without crying my eyes out its just so hard with out her. soon the day came my hair was still short but I looked like a girl and it killed me to see myself like this I walked downstairs in my uniform on the first day of school this was the first time I wore my uniform yay not really I was dieing but I couldn't let my dad know that so I got on the bus as the new kid sat in the back of the buss I was the second kid to be picked up on the bus so me and one other kid but this kid was odd I couldn't tell what it was about him but he was odd his presence felt odd I sat there in my seat and listened to my music trying to get my mind off of that odd kid but I couldn't I was in my own thoughts and didn't notice the bus stop and a nother kid get on he sat next to me and taped my shoulder and I looked up at his in shock I didn't know he was there he then said "hi I am Alec what's your name pretty lady" he called me a lady we had just met and this is what be calls me for the first time I didn't want to talk to him but I had to so I said " Hi Alec I'm Kia nice to meat you" I had half the mind to tell him I was non-binary but I didn't want that to be the first thing I told anyone at this school the odd kid looked at me for a second and I got an odd felling like someone was touching my leg the inside of my leg close to my yah you get the point when I looked down I saw Alec's hand there I didn't tell him to stop I thought I was in the wrong I didn't know if that was a greeting thing here so I didnt tell him i didn't like were his hand was it got closer but we got to school befor he ever actually touched me I walked off the bus hopeing that I just wouldn't see Alec the rest of the day.