Left Alone

Talia P.O.V

I can't believe that I just told Xavier that I do not want to have kids with him, I know he is so heartbroken and confused but I just couldn't get out the real reason as to why I feel this way. I just started crying because of the flashbacks that had begun to have due to talking about the subject of pups but it needed to be said before anything happens between us .

He walked away and I am just sitting here thinking about what I just told him trying to figure what now what is the next step, should I go to his room and tell him the real reason as to why I feel this way? my wolf replies yes girl because it isn't fair for you to give that broad reason that wasn't even that accurate and he is Alpha after all he did make some points and your reasoning was not strong enough for him to understand.

I just replied to my wolf alright, and I began to freshen up and look more presentable, seeing how I just had a breakdown.

10 minutes later

I was dressed in black pajamas shorts and a shirt with my curly hair in a high ponytail and black slides I looked at myself one more time making sure I looked okay and I brought some tissue in my hand because I know there is a chance that I will start crying my heart talking about what I've gone through so let's see where will this night take us.

I walk out of my room and walk down the hall, I stand in front of his door contemplating my decision to let him in so soon. I ask my wolf if he won't reject us right? I know we are a little damaged, what if he doesn't want us anymore that exact rejection that we were so afraid of from the beginning will come bubbling back Oh My God I am going to cry lol what the hell I say to myself I was never this emotional before this dude came into my life.

I guess Xavier felt my presence outside of his door he suddenly opened the door to his room and looked me up and down then licked his lips and said mmm everything okay? I looked him up and down and said umm I just wanted to talk to you.

He opens the door wider for me so that I can walk into his room and it was beautiful, different from mine that's for sure. His curtains were dark grey and black and he had a lot of space in his room, a black desk with his dark grey Mac sitting on it, and a black carpet on the floor next to his bed that was also dark grey, how ironic.

I go in and sit on his bed ad he gets in bed next to me and says what could be on your mind at this time of night or is it morning now. I look at him in the eyes and say I want to tell you about me so that you can understand me better I know that you don't understand why I am the way that I am and why I do not want to have children, he replies mmm okay.

When I was 11 years old I was kidnapped by a Witch by the name of Nath, I am sure you do not know much of this Witch or heard of him but I was taken because of my gift, He looks at me puzzled and shocked and ask what is my gift, I reply My blood can heal and I can speak every language known to man and creatures. The witch wanted me for an experiment he wanted to create an army of different creatures so that he can conquer different pack lands all around the world, he had almost been successful he took all of the processions that were needed to take me from my family for seven months he covered my scent so no one would find me, it was honestly the worst time of my life, I still remember everything that had happened, I choked out as my eyes began to water at the memory of him throwing me across the room trying to get me to cooperate.

He almost killed me, when my parents finally found me after seven months I did not come back the same child as I was before those seven months. I was beaten, bruised, and hurt mentally, and physically. It was just the worst time of my life, my father the alpha of the Tear moon pack killed the witch my brothers were so broken from what had happened that they blamed themselves for what happened to me.

I looked down the whole time while telling him what happened and when I was done, I looked up to him and said do you see how broken I am I cried You do not need someone who is still trying to figure out who she is raising your children who are supposed to lead your whole pack someday. I am so afraid how would they turn out? what if they have the same ability as me? they would be hunted all over the world because of something they did not ask for, I just don't know how can I do that to them.

Xavier looks at me and says Wow, You are so strong and so freaking brave for even standing up to that Witch my Strong ass mate he says to himself, he looks at me with so much pride and anger all at the same time. He says I am honored to have such an amazingly beautiful mate such as yourself I WOULD NEVER trade you for anyone else, Your story is proof of how strong you are and how much you are meant for me because baby girl you're not the only one with the gifts or the past because I got issues to I has a past but with our gifts, we can create magical babies I laugh so hard he laughs with me and says please just allow me to be your peace let us be each other peace you know we deserve it.

I look at him and ask what's your gift? he replies you see this mark on my arm I look and just now notice he has a symbol it looks like a birthmark and he says I was born with this mark I said OMG that is the KORU mark its meaning is Harmony new beginnings, growth, peace, harmony, He looks at me with amazement and says WOW that is truly amazing your gift, I have never met anyone besides elders that knew the meaning behind my marks, I have a few on my back as well.

He says my gift is that I can call on different spirit animals in time for battle or even just use different animal attributes, When I am in my wolf form I am stronger than the average wolf or even the average alpha but that is only if I call upon a wolf spirit while in wolf form.

I said wow that is very impressive I have to see that, he says yeah then we just stare at each other I look at him, his eyes are so beautiful then my eyes go down to his lips and he stares at mine then we lean in and his lips are suddenly on mines and were kissing.

We start making out barely able to breathe I pull apart and say I want you now, every part of my body is heated up because of the sexual tension and the mate bond wow it is so strong, he looks at me with hungry eyes and says I need you I giggle and say I am all of yours Alpha he lets out and growl/groan and says I am about to devour you.