14 Jung Hoon

I woke up hearing sounds from downstairs. Yesterday was a happy day. Remembering the moments we shared last night was more than amazing. His body rubbing against mine, my lips brushing against his, just the thought made me happy. I got up from the bed as I walked out the room hearing the calling bell..

"Who could it be so early in the morning?" I said to myself.

I walked past his room to the railings on the edge.

"Who is it?" I asked looking towards the front door.

As soon as I saw who it was I was in shock. I totally forgot about her these few days.

As soon as I asked that question i saw him looking upo to me from the side of the front door.

"Who.." she didn't let him complete asking as she strided inside calling me oppa.

At that very moment i had a expressionless face. Jung Hoon what have you done came my inner voice. 'How could you forget her?'.

she rushed over upstairs and pulled me into a hug. This whole time i was looking at Joshua. I desperately wanted to know what he was thinking. His expression tells me that he was confused as well as scared at the same time.

I pulled myself away from her as i led her back downstairs.

"Oppa who is he? Your housekeeper?" Min jae asked.

"No. He is my doctor" I answered.

"Doctor?" She looked at me confused.

"Oppa are you sick?" She added cupping my cheeks checking my temperature on my forehead.

"No" I replied.

"Anyway hi. I am Min jae, his girlfriend" she said handing out her hands for a handshake.

At that gesture I saw his expression go from confused to painful. I didn't know what to say to him right now. I wanted to explain but at the same it was happening so fast that bi didn't even realize that he rushed back to his room. I decided to go see and talk to him but Min Jae won't let me go. I could feel the pain he must be in right now. I cursed myself for being that stupid. How could i do this to him? I kept looking upstairs to see any sign of him but he never came down. I tried excusing myself from Min Jae but she won't let me. After an hour desperation and deliberation I finally was able to excuse myself. I showed her the guest room downstairs as I started to walk upstairs. As I was about climb up the stairs the door bell rang.

"Who is it now?" I sweared as I walked over to get the door.

"Hey" Milo greeted as soon as he saw me open the door.

"Hey" I responded.

"Josh called me. Is he here?" he said.

"He called you?" I asked him.

"Yes" he replied.

As I let him in I heard the door upstairs open. I saw him coming down his eyes down to the floor with his backpack and gown. He rushed over to where we were standing and pulled Milo by the hand and rushed out the door. He didn't even look at me as he was leaving. I called out for him but he didn't stop as he strided away towards the car and got into it. I saw him get into the car as they drove away.

I tried calling him on his hand phone but he won't answer it. It was killing me inside. I wanted to talk to him wanted to explain and clear everything. It was too much to handle for me. I broke down at that very instant. I even considered going to meet him at the hospital but then thought against it. As he already hate i didn't wanted to add another reason for him to hate me by creating a scene at his work place.

I locked myself in the room still trying to reach him and desperately waiting for him to return. I wanted to know what he was thinking right now. I desperately wanted to. Tears brewing in my eyes, I have never felt this helpless. What the hell was wrong with me. I don't know who i should be angry at right now me myself for being not paying attention or forgetting about Min Jae or at her for coming at the time when everything was going so well, when me and him was having a very special moment. I wanted to curse out loud at the situation but at the same time I knew it was all my fault.

It was around 11 in the morning I decided to try calling him again. It kept ringing but no response. Then I heard someone at the front door. It was manager hyung. He came up to my room asking me as why I was not ready yet. I almost forgot today I had to attend a press conference of my next drama series. I didn't feel like doing anything until and unless I talk with him sort things out. But i had to attend this press meet. I somehow managed to get myself composed as i walked up to the washroom and got a shower.  once i was done i wore the clothes my stylist has taken out for me.

Once downstairs i saw Min Jae chatting with manager hyung. When she saw me coming down she came over to me to have some breakfast before leaving. But I had lost the will to do anything even my appetite.

My next drama was a historical fantasy drama, shooting starts next week. I attended the press meet along with my co-stars, producers and director. After the press conference I drove myself to the hospital. I was conflicted once I reached at the whether to go in or not. I thought it would be best if I  talk to him at home. This may attract paparazzi, so I decided to head back home.

When I reached home Min Jae  was watching  television. I greeted him with a half meant smile. She came rushing to me to hug me. I stopped her.

"Oppa is something wrong? Why are you being so cold to me since I arrived. Did I do something wrong?" she said.

"Its not you. Its me" I replied as I walked back towards my room.

"Then what it is?" she yelled from where she stood.

"Why are you being so cold to me?" she added.

"Min Jae i am not in the mood" I said as started walking towards my nbroom.

" It is about him right?" she asked.Her this question send chills through me. I stood frozen at where I was. She walked over to me as she looked at me.

 "Tell me, he is the reason right?"

"What do you mean?" I asked her.

"I saw his expression when I told him that I was your girlfriend" she said.

"And how was that?" I asked turning around to see her.

"Remorse, sadness. He likes you or I would even say he loves you" she said.

"Bullshit" I said as I started walking again.

"Do you too like him?"  she asked. I was again taken aback at her question.

"You don't right?" she said in a sad tone. I didn't know what to say more. I just walked back to my room in silence as I closed the door behind me.

I dropped down on the floor. What is wrong with you Jung Hoon? My inner voice screamed out loud. As i and my gaze was fixated on the floor I heard someone come in through the door. I looked up to the wall clock it was almost nine in the evening. I knew it was him so I rushd down to see him. I saw him trying to revert his eyes from meeting. I rushed down towards him not caring about anything not even noticing that Min Jae was right there. I pulled him in to a hug. He pushed me away..

"Can we talk?" I said.

"Sorry. I am really tired. Lets talk tomorrow" He said without looking at me.

"Please Josh let me.." Min Jae cut me off. I was fuming in anger at the interruption.

"AH you're back. Come have dinner with us. Its almost done" she said.

":Sorry I already had dinner. Thanks anyway. You both enjoy your dinner. I am gonna go to my room" he said walking past me.

"Josh.." I called out but all in vain he rushed towards his room without looking back.

I didn't give up as I walked upstairs and knocked on his door.

"Josh please talk to me. You know, you're killing me by not talking to me. Yell at me, get angry at me but please talk to me" I almost begged outside his door. I could see his shadow attached to the door.

"Please Josh" I fell on my knees tears rolling down my cheeks. I sat there outside  the door fo sometime when i heard a click. I looked up to see him there standing. I got up and tried to hug him but he stopped me.

"You said you wanted to talk" he said.

"Thank you Josh" I replied. He went deeper into the room and sat on the edge of the bed. I closed the door behind me and walked over to where he was seated. I sat beside him but he scooted away from me.

"Josh" I said as looked him in the eyes. He immediately reverted his eyes away.

"Before you say anything I have top tell you something" he said.

"OK" I responded..

"As your wound is healed now, you don't need me here anymore. So I am moving back to my parent's tomorrow" he uttered those words which hit me like knife piercing through my heart.

"Oh" is all I could respond to his statement.