1 The beginning.
"Hey, hear this everyone! This girl said that she want to be an Idol when she grow up!"
They said it directly without care, even if the person they make fun of is crying in the back,
alone.
"That's so funny! How can you be an idol when don't have mom who come pick you up!"
They didn't care in the slightest. They just want some entertainment, and they pick her as their source material. She can get hurt by their words, hate herself, and in the worst scenario, she could kill herself if her sanity can't take it anymore. When it really happen, they just defend themselves by saying,
(It was just a joke.)
Unfortunately, their jokes which supposed to put everyone to laugh, leave one person crying and begging them to stop.
It was unbearable to watch. The sight in the front of the boy, who is watching everyone reaction all this time, is too pitiful for him. Especially when he caught the glimpse of the girl who keep saying sorry, even though it isn't her fault. She just want it all to stop, so she could retain her mind and didn't lose it in the process.
"Please, Tanaka! I'm begging you, please stop!" She cried out.
Tanaka Jun, who is the leader of this act, look at her. The boy saw his eyes shine a little. The boy can't point out what that shine mean, is he pitying the sight of the girl, is it because of the guilt, or something. The boy can't point it out. He just thinking of all this is nonsense, and unrelated to him. Then at the very next moment, the boy is shocked by Tanaka reply.
"If you want me to stop then strip off and let me grope your breast." Tanaka said, with lust filled all over his tone when he say this.
The boy is shocked by this action. Not feeling any guilt or pity, he actually want to take it further. After that, the boy realise something. He remember hearing some girls talk about how Tanaka have feelings for the girl, but didn't have courage to confess. Also, if his memory serves right, recently Tanaka and his group always hanging out in the toilet to watch some p*rn videos. They even once invite the boy to watch it together with them, but the boy refuse. Not only the videos only give a temporary sensation which will followed by the feelings of sorrow, regretful and misery of how those things that happen in the video didn't happen to them and they keep dreaming of it until their brains can't think of something else. That's why the boys always stay himself away from adult stuff.
Then it all comes together to the boy. Tanaka love for the girl, and his lust that he always kept, is mixing into one, and it all controlling him to resort to make this scene. But Tanaka is not that dumb either, he already plan everything from the beginning and make sure all of his classmate with not handing out their hands to the girl for help.
But Tanaka didn't tell the 2 person, the first one is the girl, because she is his goals from the beginning so he didn't tell her anything. As for the second person he didn't tell his plan or persuade to back him up, is...
The boy.
Tanaka didn't bother to get the boy to his side, because the boy never participate in anything related to the class, so Tanaka thinks the same will happen again. And Tanaka is right. The boy, didn't bother to stand up for the girls because of his sense of justice or something like that, because he didn't have any reason to do so. The boy just sigh and hope that time will pass faster so he can enjoy the quiet class again.
"N-No! I don't want to! W-Why i should take off my c-clothes!" The girl scream out loud. "Th-The teacher! Why he didn't come to the class even though class is about to begin!" The girl always hope that the teacher will come to the class and take care of the situation. But all her prayer has gone unnoticed by the Gods itself, as the teacher haven't come until now.
"You bitch!" Tanaka scream much louder than the girl before and grabbing her hair forcefully. "N-No! L-Let me, go!" The girls beg as she feel pain because her hair is being pulled by Tanaka. She don't want her father to see her all beaten up because she worry it will cause further problems to her father.
"Take off your clothes, or i will do it myself! C'mon!" Tanaka force her.
The girl take a look at her surronding, and realize there's no way out of this one. She either let the whole class see her bare body or make her father worry further. As she don't want the second option to happen, she is now forced to choose the first option.
"W-Why!? I-I never done anything to you, so why you doing this!?"
"Huh? Are you asking me that?" Tanaka answer.
"Yes, i am asking you!" The girl want to confirm what push Tanaka to do this to her, and if possible she want to make up for whatever reason Tanaka is having with her and let go of his demand to make her undress.
"Actually... There's ain't no reason." Tanaka said casually. The girl is shocked. How can she make up for it if there's ain't no reason behind Tanaka act? And without any reason, that only make her option more clearer. No, there's never been a option in the first place. Tanaka will see the girl naked, no matter what.
But they don't realize, that Tanaka is lying because he can't just say that he is lusting over his crush. It will embrass him, so he choose to humiliate the girl herself and having his reputation safe in the act. Of course, only the boy noticed this.
(Lying to get what you wanted... I guess it is normal for people.) The boy thinks to himself, not letting any of his thoughts heard by his classmate.
"N-No, please. I-I do everything you wanted, so please-" While begging, the girl felt a sudden pain in her right cheek. As if it was an answer to her beg, it was Tanaka left hand that slapped her. The mark of the slap didn't disappear instanly and the pain is too much for the girl to beg. But, she still can't afford to let a slight pain make her face a larger humiliation.
The boy just seen what Tanaka just did, and he felt anger on his entire brain. Not because he cares for the girl, but it was because he already seen an exact same scene as this before, and it's reminding him of those times.
"P-please Tanaka! L-Listen to me!" The girl ask as she cautiously watching Tanaka hands as she fear that he will slap her once again because she didn't listen.
Tanaka eyes grows widen, as he scan his surrounding slowly. After that, Tanaka said this without any emotion but seriously. "If you embrassed to do it yourself, then it's fine."
The whole class goes silent. They are shocked to see Tanaka sudden change of heart. But the girl, is glad that she can save herself from that humaliation. Now, all she have to do is finding a way to make him forgive her.
But, Tanaka haven't finished talking earlier.
"Every idol must be embrassed to do something suddenly, but it's okay. I help you get over your embrassment, so you can become an Idol." Tanaka said as she jump over to grab the girl clothes.
"N-No! Stop, stop! I-I'm begging you Tanaka! I will even lick the dirt you walk on, just, just not this!" The girl beg as her mind continuosly reject the idea of having to show her private body to her classmate. But Tanaka didn't stop. In fact, he only enjoying this more and more as she keep pushing him and rejecting him. It's no use to reason with him now, as his mind is already filled with lust which he already keep for these past week. He want to feel it, and it's doesn't matter to him if the other party didn't consent to it, as long as he get to feel it. He doesn't even think about the consequence, all he think about is how to make her enjoy this, even if she keeps crying by the time they doing it.
"You said you want to become Idol!? Then here let me show you, how an Idol can become popular even if they didn't have talent for it!" Tanaka said while laughing like maniac, which only make the others enjoy it more. They think Tanaka just want to take her clothes off and let the whole class to see it, but for Tanaka, he wants more than that.
Stop.
The thoughts didn't stop itself from screaming out it's own voice. It just like the thoughts want to stop all these madness that it's witnessing.
Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop,Stop!
After many attempts, finally, his thoughts finally leave his mind through his mouth.
"Stop." He said while standing up and turning his head toward the one who started this all.
"Huh? You... I thought you didn't want anything involve us, but now because this girl is crying, you want me to stop?" Tanaka said with mocking tone, because he can't believe that his first interaction with the boy would be about him trying to play hero. "Is this against one of your so called justice, Mr. Savior?" Tanaka said in the hope that the boy would back off. But no, the boy didn't even think about whatever is at his back. Be it others voice, air, or anything. He doesn't want to witness his trauma once more. So he want to stop it.
"Hey, back off!" Tanaka said angrily because the boy is getting to close to him. Tanaka couldn't understand the boy sudden action, and he is already itching for it already. He want to vent out his suppressed lust now, but now the boy is interupting him. "You, just say that you enjoy this too! Truth is you don't have any pity for this girl too right!?" Tanaka scream at the boy face in the hope that the boy will return to his seat and he could do it as soon as posibble.
The boy can only hear 1 sentence from Tanaka. "Just say you enjoy this too!" is all he could hear. After that, his hearing system is blocking every noise outside of his head. It's not because he don't want to hear that, but it's because he keep processing the means of that one sentence.
You enjoy this too right!?
Don't! Not infront of our son-
R-Run! Save yourself!
Comeback here! You are nothing without me!
!Save yourself/Kill Yourself!
His thought stopped.
He couldn't take it anymore. He doesn't want to remember anything from that day. So why, why...
Did this boy forced him to remember it?
Althrough this is not the case, the boy mind keep trying to make him believe that in order to make a sense out of the situation.
Tanaka who is confused at the boy sudden silence, decided that he can't stand it any longer and is getting closer to check on the boy.
But suddenly, a hand reach out for Tanaka neck, and Tanaka realize that he can't breath at the moment and he only realized later that the boy hand already wrapped itself around his neck. "H-Hey crazy bastard! S-stop this! If you kill me, then you going to jail!" Tanaka trying to reasoning all the excuse he could think of in order to save himself. "Look at how many the witness are in this class! I-if you do it, then there's no hope for you in-" Tanaka suddenly fell silent as he realizes the eyes the boy is making as it watching him.
"Don't you dare try to harm her again, i will kill you." the boy said with increase in his grip of Tanaka neck. The boy said this as his mind is playing the exact scene in his past where he also choke him like this. His mind is treating Tanaka the same as him, and thus make the boy want to kill Tanaka as soon as he could so he could put a stop to his nightmare.
The boy eyes make Tanaka realize, that no matter how many literature source you brought, how detailed your argument are, there is no way that your reasoning could be heard by a beast. Yes, a beast who act purely based on instinct and wild sense. The boy not trying to stop Tanaka, but he's actually trying to kill him. Because Tanaka couldn't stop talking, the boy is afraid that Tanaka will keep reminding him about that. So the boy think. If he can't shut him up, then why not kill him? That way, he will not be able to utter single word to remind the boy about that.
Tanaka, realizing that he doesn't have chance to survive this one, keep kicking at the boy and scratching the boy arms with his nail. But all his action were useless, as the boy can't feel anything in the moment, not even pain. All the boy feel is his desire to end the life of someone he hate so much.
This is it. I'm going to die. Tanaka think so. He only want to unleash his lust on the girl, but how did he manage to invoke the wrath of the boy to the point of the boy wanting to kill him?
Tanaka could only wet himself, because he is too scared. He's not scared if anything bad happen to other because it didn't affect him, but this is the first time that a bad thing- No, a live or die situation happen to him in his life until now. He realized that's the boy eyes is the eyes of someone who seriously trying to kill him, even though he never seen one in his entire life, he knew it was that kind of an eyes. As he kept remembering all the things he do in the past, his breath almost run out because of how tight the boy hand grip is to Tanaka neck.
A moment before Tanaka really run out of breath, a sudden voice can be heard in the classroom which surprise everyone who can't utter a single word to how shocking the situation turned to be which far beyond just an entertainment for them. In the moment where things would take a different, they finallly show up after someone reporting the situation to the staff room.
"Hey, what are you two doing!" The teacher scream as they secure both Tanaka and the boy to their safety.
*The girl POV*
I am a lucky girl that have two loving parents by my side. My father is always fullfilling my needs and whatever i want, meanwhile my mom always look out for me and keep teaching me about what i should and shouldn't do as a human and also a girl. But i can't understand why my mother keep teaching and telling me about an emotion called love, and why does it important? Then my mom tell me that because both of my parents love me, that my life is so colorful. Hearing that, i understand what my mom is trying to say. Without love, there will be no color in someone life.
Having a beautiful brown eyes and red hair that i inherited from my mother, people keep telling us about how me and my mother are so beautiful they end up calling us "The most beautiful mother and daughter pair in the city". I don't hate it, but instead i like it. Because it makes me happy that i look alike like my mother which i admire so much.
Everyday is so happy for her, as she can always felt her parents love for her. But, every good things doesn't last forever.
When she was 6, her mother die because some thug that followed her have their way with her mother and end up stabbing her because they don't want to risk getting caught. When her mother is discovered, she couldn't hold her disgust and at the same time feeling so much sorrow and despair. Someone who always look so beautiful and almost comparable to a goddess for her, now is just a corpse that's being defiled by disgusting creature in her last moments. She spend the next 1 month locked herself in her own room and cry in every single night at the thoughts of her mother is gone and no one is there to teach her about anything that she need to know again. Until one day she realized that her mother must be sad to see her condition right now and decided to move on. She began to go outside her room and interact with her father again, which make her father so happy. But, her father is very busy and have to do his work almost everyday which make her always alone in her house. She sometimes think about what's good a big house is if there's no one there to make enliven the house. But she can't complain, because she afraid that her father might worrying too much and screw up his job. So she always remain a good girl in order to not cause trouble to her only parents which is her father. After spending so much time alone, her world begin to turn into black and white just like an old TV. She lost all her emotion of love, and that makes there's no color in her life as she keep doing everything mechanically, even though she a human being too.
One day, while turning the tv to accompany her to eat her dinner, she saw an idol group in the TV channel she accidentaly pick because she doesn't know what to watch. When seeing the idol dancing and singing their heart out, she can't believe her own eyes and ears. Thousand of people are there cheering up their Idols to keep performancing, which the Idols group return with their best performance. She think it is amazing, how a group of people can encourage thousand of people like that.
When she go to school, when she eat, when she sleeps, she always kept thinking about the idol performance she watched at that time. She also wanted to encourage people who going through the same for her to keep on going. At that time, she decided that she will become an idol too and make everyone day better with her voice. But unfortunately, her classmate know it and make fun of her. How stupid of her to leave her drawing of her becoming an idol and dancing on the stage while everyone is chanting for her name. But worst of all, Tanaka forced her to strip off in front of her class, and she noticed that Tanaka actually want to do something indecent to her even while everyone watching.
She resist it with her utmost at first, but then Tanaka tell her that is one of the things she have to face if she want to become an Idol. Then her mind slowly but surely, stop resisting because she tried everything, including reasoning with Tanaka, and none of it is working. Nobody is there to help her, not even her father. They just standing there, enjoying it as she about to defiled by the boy she doesn't interested or even know that much. When her minds want to accept whatever Tanaka saying as the reality of the Idol as an excuse for her mind well being, the boy suddenly standing up for her. She is both surprised and confused, why did the boy help her? No, why only now?
Even though it looks like the boy want to help her, she is angry at the boy. Why not helping since the beginning? Why only now? Why you didn't help me earlier? Are you trying to become hero just like Tanaka said? Or you want to be the one who do it to me?
An endless question keep popping inside the girls head just like a train. Then suddenly the boy said that sentence which brings back all the color of the world into the girls life. Yes, not like the idols group that she like, the boy actually repaint her whole world over with his own color, which gives her a new life. She remember her mom teaching about emotion, and she know that this love, is the greatest love that she ever feel in her life, more than her parents love. And that sentence is (Don't you dare try to harm her again, i will kill you). The boy is willing to kill someone just to protect her life, throws everything and probably his own life if it means saving her. Yes, this is the (Love) that her mother keeps telling her everyday in the past. And now that she found him, she wouldn't let go of him. Even though he's late, he still saving me in the end. If he willing do everything for the girl sake, then she will do the same to him. Yes, she will give her everything to the boy who repaint her life with his own color.
