magic does drain

With the end of that headache of those dumb bastards, I stood outside the room to compose myself. "Has your anger subdued hero?" "no, not at all it's just that they don't shut the fuck up! They open their mouths, more so when they all sound so annoying!" they sound like squeaky toys scratching a chalkboard, like what the fuck?!

"By the way king, what did they mean by rules?" wasn't this a meeting to discuss what country is on my side? "It's an old tradition, which the kings of several nations partake in when deciding someone's fate or the fate of another nation. I suppose they couldn't huddle the 'truth'" he gave a small smile even when he tried to stop himself but even then I now know who I can trust thanks to that shitty meeting. 

"We've arrived, hero. I'll be seeing you off tomorrow." "tomorrow?" "yes, you'll leave tomorrow to gain a head start." "What about comrades?" "don't worry I'll have everything set up for tomorrow." "alright, thank you." as I entered the training ground I noticed that they had already started without me. They were all sparring with each other with swords and magic, I could hear chanting. I could see them gathering the very elements around them using the very elements as weapons and shields, reshaping it with every chance they had into weapons I could only imagine. "Your late, Jade come over here and help Shiroi" "yes" at first sight I could automatically know he's royal, he just had that typical western appearance with with his clothing as he came closer I could see more of his details such as his brown hair, pail white skin and his grass green eyes. "It's nice to meet you Shiroi, I'm Jade, Chrisopher I'm the fifth son to count Citrine." as he bowed I couldn't help notice how pretty he was, not cute, not handsome just pretty, similar to those European boys or an American boy. "Yea and I'm Shiroi, someone who was summoned by the king to vanquish evil." I didn't understand why, but I guess it was due to watching that musical movie about pretty white boys enduring school life. So I feel like he's really annoying "summoned by the king to vanquish evil' you say, isn't that the hero's job?" "Yeah, that's why I'm in training." "Well you don't seem like the hero, more so when you're a woman." why have I been getting so much smack from these guys for being a woman, like what the fuck? "Yea, I hear that. Alot." "oh, oh well come with me Shiroi we shall spare with one another." I guess he doesn't believe me. Jade led me towards the middle of the stadium "now Shiroi start our little bout." "Wait hold it, I don't know any magic." "not knowing magic, how is that possible if you're in a prestige class within the castle." "yea I kno-" "if what you said was true then you must be the heroes companion." or the hero herself. ugh whatever I'm not going to explain it to him or he'll just ramble on and on about something else! "That's it, that's 100% it." "Then we shall start; Shiroi lifts the pebbles and shoot them at me." And how the hell do I even do that? "Come on, shoot the pebbles, it's not that difficult." you say that but I really have no clue. "Could it be that you have no idea how to manifest magic?" he finally gets it. "That's basically it." "That's really bad, I mean really bad." yep, I'm a hero that doesn't know magic from a world that doesn't have magic. "Fine, Shiroi Imagine picking the pebbles and shooting them." Now that's easier said than done but fine, let's try it out. I first tried to visualize myself picking these rocks up as if I had telepathy but the rocks didn't move not one inch. I tried to close my eyes and envision the rocks moving but when I opened them nothing yet again I wasn't able to move any of them. well it wasn't a surprise, since it was poorly explained "let's see, try to inversion yourself picking up these rocks and throwing them simultaneously." I doubt this'll work but I still tried it, unlike the other times this one was somehow hard. It felt as if I was picking up a builder, instinctively starting to raise my hands as if I was lifting up an actual builder. I could feel my heart pumping faster and faster, I begin to feel my sweat dripping down my face making me feel as if I was melting. I felt as if my very stamina, my energy was being drained from my body "SHIROI STOP, STOP YOUR DRAINING YOUR ENERGY TOO QUICKLY!" I felt my body trembling trying to keep going. I could see the rocks start lifting higher and higher, "SHIROI, I SAID STOP!" with Jade abstracting my view I couldn't see how high the rocks were. I suddenly felt my hand being pulled violently up when I turned around to see who the hell disturbed me. "SHIROI, COULDN'T YOU HEAR!" it was the teacher who got in the way "SHIROI DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND YOU COULD'VE DIED?" "I would?" "GOD damn it just go and rest, you probably gotten too excited so don't worry it happens." "I'm sorry" "no need to apologize just go rest." 

I really fucked, huh. I gathered clothes and walked toward the showers. I'll continue to train while showering, I can't waste any time. As I whipped my body down I tried several ideas to control the water such as grabbing it, manifesting a weapon, being a part of the water, even using 'magical' chants but all of them either drained my stamina or didn't work but I did find one that didn't drain me. 

As I finished my shower I knew I was ready to bathe myself, I could now leave the showering area. As soon as I opened the sliding doors I left the darkened shower with its dark wooden walls and the black spotted marble floor and I was greeted to a pure white and gold bath house, it was as big as a soccer stadium and as white, as powdered snow. But the water, the water felt so similar to a hot spring, no better than a hot spring. Yet every time I can't forget the feeling of my stress washing away when I dip my feet in, every time I sink my legs in I feel my anxiety dissipate, and every time I sink most of my body I feel my worries drift away within this hot water. With my mind cleared and my body at ease I could think much more clearly on how to control the elements.

So I tried to combine two methods. I envision my energy the same way characters from anime do, flowing energy from me to the water and then shaping the water instead of forcing the shape with the flowing energy. I'll use that energy to maintain its state. now shape the water, shape it as if I'm molding clay. Don't force the shape just stay calm and trust yourself, remember that your hands must be steady when modeling clay so if I'm doing this within my mind then imagine my hands not my whole being shaping the image I'm aiming for steadily.

I- "I DID IT, I FUCKING DID IT." with my own eyes I could see my successful creation with magic, a sword even if it wasn't perfect even if it looked janked I was able to create it. oh, shit. I shouldn't have stood up. I managed to stop myself before I fell onto my head. Damn, I really am too tired