CHAPTER 46: ETHAN'S POV

I've been trying to clean up Stacy's mess-- All of her issues. She was trying to stay on the low profile list but it seems that media has their own sources. But I don't care how they were able to pull up some big headlines, as for me, I am going to protect my wife just as I promised. I have to clean her name as well as our name.

However, One day, she came to my office and told me that she wanted to divorce me. I was shocked at first but I tried to calm my nerves. Why? Why did she suddenly want a divorce? I tried to ask her but she didn't give me a concrete reason. I got mad. She also started to talk back. She insisted on filing a divorce but I didn't agree. I am not ready yet to let her go. I really love her! Or did I just love the young girl back then at the orphanage? Was I too consumed by my hope? So much to think that she would go back to the old Erika that I know before? The Erika that I once loved?

Call me foolish but I didn't know the answer myself. I didn't know why I chose to stay with her; to give her lot of chances. I didn't know. My head is about to explode! I can just give her what she wanted. But we have a family!

Stacy banged the door of my office before she left. I could see how upset she was. She really wanted to divorce me. But she didn't tell me why. I hoped she would explain it to me further that I might understand. If I had shortcomings then I would have been more than willing to fill in the gap. I wished she told me the truth.

My head was aching that day. I really didn't know what to do. A part of me wanted to let her go but the other part of me didn't want to. Aaahhhhh!!!! 'God please help me!' It was my only word that day.

I visited my favorite resto-bar. I really wanted to drain all the aches inside. I knew consuming alcohol wouldn't solve my problems, but at least it could help me forget the pain temporarily. Oopps … 'I think I drunk a lot. I am a little tipsy now but I want more!' I drunk and drunk and drunk until I was not able to control myself anymore. My mind and I guessed that my hurt was so tired? Maybe? … Haha, was that even possible? Anyways, I was feeling dizzy. I fell asleep. The last thing I remembered was a girl tried to approach me but I was so sleepy to even care.

Damn! It was already morning! I could feel the bright light coming in from the window. I tried to open up my eyes. I thought I was still asleep cause the room seemed unfamiliar to me. This wasn't my room. Oh no! Where was I!? I suddenly woke up. I saw myself naked? I knew I sleep half naked but not totally naked. Then I saw someone moved--- beside me? How was that possible?!

The woman beside me was also naked. What? Did I do her? I couldn't remember a thing about last night! The last thing I remembered was I fell asleep then there was this woman who sat beside me!

The woman woke up. Damn! This woman again?! I raised a brow. Why did I have to be stuck with this woman every time I got drunk? The hell with her?

I didn't know but I must go home.

When I got home, I didn't find Stacy inside. Well maybe she was still mad at me. Maybe she slept in our hotel. I tried to call the receptionist, but she told me that my wife didn't check in at all.

I tried calling her but to no avail. Then one day, a media party released news that they saw Stacy in the airport with another guy. Was this true? Did she just runaway with her unknown man?

I was so aggravated that time. I declared an overnight search for her. I knew I might be crazy but I didn't care. I also spoke to his foster father. Robert claimed that he didn't have any idea where she was. I threatened him. I knew he knew something.

I didn't know what happened to me either cause every day, my heart seemed to hate her. I was so mad at her. I finally realized how stupid I was. Why did I have to keep such an ungrateful and unfaithful woman? I didn't care anymore. I just wanted to find her and let her experience the other side of me. I wanted to make pay her for all the things that she did to me. Also, the marriage contract was valid for 5 years. I didn't know I would be able to use that to punish her.

I just simply hated her!