Chapter 39: How humble and arrogant
The matter is very simple, this simple to, only need Jane child continue to be weak, no dignity to agree to Qin Mu Mu any unreasonable and even insulting requirements.
She, however, in the deepest part of her heart, the deepest place, up greed - she wanted that long-lost "be respected", do not have to be like the old days, just need to be like the most ordinary people, to get her should get belong to the "human" respect. "She wanted to be respected, not like she used to be, but just like the most ordinary person, to be respected as a human being.
But obviously, it was not what she had hoped for.
Since then, Jane child to the heart of a thousand holes, hidden deeper, the heart of the longing for something, but also hidden to the depths of the soul, who also, can not touch the depths, where, dark and cold, and as the deep sea is the most silent time of loneliness and loneliness.
Qin Mu Mu left and came, came and left, every time is the meal time to come, send the meal on the go.
"I want to be discharged from the hospital." On the fourth night of the incident, Qin Mu Mu, as usual, expressionless, rested a takeaway box on Jane Tong's hospital bed bed cabinet, turned around and was ready to leave, and behind her, the woman who had been silent on the hospital bed, slowly said.
This rough and slow voice, but caused four days of indifference to the Qin Mu Mu, stopped in his tracks, slightly fierce head twist, do not think to veto: "No, you are not well."
This is concern? Jian Tong looked at Qin Mu Mu fixedly, "I'm fine, my fever is gone. I want to work."
"You're doing this on purpose, aren't you? You want everyone to see the gauze on your forehead?" Qin Mu Mu was exasperated, "Jane Tong, you really aren't simple. Knowing people's faces and not knowing their hearts, this saying, it's really not false, seeing that you're honest, it turns out that you're also so scheming."
Jane Tong lowered her eyelashes, covering the loss ... under her eyes was really she overthinking, caring?
When she looked at Qin Mu Mu again, Jian Tong's eyes, became somewhat numb: "I'm going to work. Discharge procedures, you do it."
As she said that, she lifted the covers and slowly got out of bed, changing into the clothes she came in.
Qin Mu Mu's eyes widened in shock ... Jane Tong was just ordering herself?
She?
Jane Child?
Ordering herself?
A sense of humiliation arose!
Looking at the woman who came down from the hospital bed, limping slowly toward the door, even if it is slow, that limp is really ready to leave the room, that is to say ... Jane child she really said that it was never a joke!
She really ready to leave the hospital!
How does this work!
Qin Mu Mu's line of sight, "whoosh" a moment, fell on Jane child's forehead, eyes instant panic, she is still afraid, this gauze is not removed before, how can this cripple go back to the East Emperor?
She didn't even think about it, her footsteps moved, blocking in front of Jane Tong: "Jane Tong, how can you be so cheap! Work work work work? Speaking nicely, those who don't know, think how much you love labor, how much you love your work.
Your work? Isn't your job to please men? You're in such a hurry to please men when you're not well? Are you so eager to go and be your bitch?
Or are you actually enjoying the process? Otherwise, why would you be in such a hurry to go to the Eastern Emperor despite your sick body?"
Qin Mu Mu only thought of not letting Jane Tong go to the Eastern Emperor now, also did not think of the hurtfulness in her words, said to Jane Tong, Jane Tong became more and more silent, just hung her head and looked at her toes, her palms, which were behind her back, pinched into fists trembled, she wanted to retort very much, wanted to go and explain very much.
Deeply know, rebuttal useful?
Indeed, she was on her knees for money.
Indeed ah, she is for more money, down to learn the dog wagging his tail.
It's true that people don't talk nonsense, they say the truth in front of her face.
That's what she did!
What can she refute?
Can she explain clearly?
"Everyone, has faith, or a person, or a belief," rough rasping voice, suppressing the sourness, Jane child as calmly as possible slowly said, "and for this faith, for this person, for so a belief, to try to realize try to strive hard to get those people who try to get it. At least shouldn't be ridiculed."
Qin Mu Mu was dumbfounded, looked up and down at the Jane child in front of her ... How could such words be said by an ignorant and lowly woman who hadn't even graduated from high school. Also do not know, this cripple is where to see.
In the bottom of his heart, he thought so, and looked at the gaze of Jane Tong, and then he became even more contemptuous.
After Jane Tong finished, she slowly lifted her foot, bypassed Qin Mumu, one hand quickly grabbed her arm: "No go, you must recuperate here, until the wound on your forehead is healed!"
Jian Tong slowly raised her head, looked into Qin Mu Mu's face, and said clearly word for word: "I'm going to work, this has nothing to do with you."
She looked sheepish, but she broke Qin Mu Mu's palm that was gripping her arm, raw, and without another glance at the shocked Qin Mu Mu, she lifted her foot and walked out.
Behind her, Qin Mu Mu reacted, raised her feet and chased after her, Jane Tong's feet are inconvenient, walking slowly, easily can be caught up by Qin Mu Mu, Jane Tong did not turn around, just heard the footsteps behind her chasing, while using her somewhat limp legs to move forward to continue to walk, while using her voice, which was smoked by the fire, slowly but firmly said:
"If you dare to come and stop me again, I'll call Sister Dream."
Compared to A Deer, who used her own life to save herself in that dark and sunless prison, what about a Qin Mu Mu?
Qin Mu Mu or, anyone or ... even, that man or, Jane child can't think, what else is more important than A deer.
Let behind her, that can only viciously glare at her line of sight, fell on their own bodies, let Qin Mu Mu angry, but did not dare to really come up to stop themselves, Jane child step by step, out of the hospital.
Qin Mu Mu did not find, her eyes humble lowly incompetent, no education illiterate, her eyes nothing Jane child, compared to her this S University honors students, walk more calmly, more proud.
Qin Mu Mu of course did not find, just in the next ward of Jane Tong's ward, the doorway of a man holding his chest, lazily leaning against the door frame, the man took a last look at the elevator entrance where Jane Tong disappeared, stood up straight, lifted his long slender thighs, crossed over Qin Mu Mu, and walked towards the elevator where Jane Tong descended the stairs.
Jian Tong took the elevator to go downstairs, her legs and feet are not easy, walking is even slower, not to mention, although the fever is gone, her body is even more weak, she slowly went out of the hospital's main door, stood at the intersection, and reached out to stop a cab.
"Master, I want to go to Donghuang, no meter, is it okay to be cheaper?"
The driver master stretched his head, "Business is hard these days, this is a cab, not a black car, sit or not? Do you want to sit? If you don't sit, I'll drive away."
Obviously, not willing to give in, helpless, Jane child touched his jacket pocket that he wore to the hospital, looked up, "Master, I have twenty dollars on me."
"Enough. Get in the car."
If she could, she was reluctant to take a cab, it was too expensive. Just today, she thought, maybe she could forget about her dilemma, maybe she could have the luxury of taking a cab.
It was like taking a taxi, as if really she had the dignity of a normal person like many, many normal people on this street.
Jane child she, in trying to make herself look, like a person, an ordinary person, she longed for is, ordinary people, can get the dignity.
Yes, she still longs for it, but she will never ask others to give it to her.
What others are not willing to give, and then beg, can not be asked.
So, she did her best to make herself look like a "human being".