PART:1 I've always known.

from a age I knew I was different from my siblings not just in the learning department but also the love department. my older brother Paul has always liked girls since he was a baby, manman said that he use to be looking at girls butts when they were walking pass him. and my older sister Marry well she's always been a little... boy crazy since she was five but while my brother was gawking at girls butts I was in my sisters room agreeing to boys being cute. my parents thought nothing of it since I was very young but the thing is I was pretty smart for my age I was only four years old and was already ready to go to second grade I was apparently a genius, you may say I think differently while we would be in nap time I would be thinking about how the world works. honestly my teacher were mega worried about me. but the thing I thought of most was joey he was a first grader a really god looking one. not gonna lie I thought I was sick with some sort if disease but then I googled it yes I knew how to use google at four I said I was different, what I found out was that its something called lgbtq I went and asked my parents for more advice about it like 2 years after I found out because who would want their four year old to be asking that right but turns out they didn't want their seven year old asking either. since my parents were both born and a raised in Haiti its different from here in the US they see being gay as a sin but my sister is a huge BL fan so she was the first one I told when I was 10. my brother is a whole other story I also came out to him when I was 10 at same time as sister he said although he doesn't support those things he would die for me and he supported me cause I was his little brother my sister was so happy she wanted to turn me into her personal gay doll brother I know weird. so I haven't come out to my parents but other people when they find out they always ask one question "when did you know" and I always answer "the same way you found out you were straight its not a choice its just something that happens." anyways so I'm fifteen now and I wanted to tell my parents when I was 10 but both my siblings said no because my parents would have sent me to Haiti to get "cured" they both pretend like they are Christians when they are always talking about their Lwa ( Haitian spirit that protect) I don't mind the Lwa in our family cause its spiritual and its in our history. anyway so my name is caleb and this is a story about a gay Haitian boy.