41 I've been falling and only realized it now

"Teach me."

There was a long and tensed silence between us. Sam didn't speak a word, neither did I.

I'm absolute if I could be a help to him, I would willingly learn how. If that need was something I could fulfill, I would do it.

Why was he so reluctant? Should I ask Fabian to teach me how to look at him with lust? I wonder if Fabian would help me with something so complicated.

"Goodness…" Samael muttered along his breath.

Suddenly, Samael held the reins and whipped it along with his hand. As a result, the horse broke into a furious gallop.

I shrieked at the sudden tremor, holding on to his chest, eyes closed, squeezing myself to him. I could feel the harsh wind brush past us, tightening my grip on to him.

At the back of my head, I would fall over if I didn't hold tightly. Hence, I held onto him as if I was holding on to dear life.

It was frightening.