Edgy

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After my confrontation with Aizawa she seemed to get back together with her ex. 'Good for her.' And while I did get some unwanted attention for a little bit it seems like Ashida cleared up the rumours for me. 'How nice of her.'

"Aye Wataru! Why you lookin so glum these days man? Oh~ could it be having your heart broken twice so soon has finally gotten to ya?"

Yamazaki seems to take joy in annoying me.

"Nah, you know I'm not the type to be popular anyways."

"Sure as hell! I'd be surprised if you ever manage to make a girl fall for you."

"Now that's just insulting man."

"Ha! Truth hurts man~." 

"True."

"Hey hey, are we talking about how unpopular Sajou-chi is~?"

"Not you too Ashida.." Is this how conversations with friends feels? It doesn't feel… unbearable.

"HUH.. Sajou-chi this is the first time I've seen you smile in two weeks! I mean it's barely perceptible but still it's there!!!"

"Okay first of all Ashida, breathe… Second of all I'm not a robot y'know?"

"Damn near!" 

'How rude… not that I can complain.'

"..."

"By the way~ How does it feel having your seat moved away from Ai-chi?"

Yesterday we had a seating change. I've been moved to the first seat at the very front of the class, to the left near the entrance.

"Hmm, it's not bad. I already told you I've moved on from Natsukawa."

"LIKE HELL I'D BELIEVE THAT!"

"Ashida… volume."

"Oh shit sorry Sajou-chi."

"It's okay, I just don't want too much attention. Anyways class is about to start soon."

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Hiratsuka Shizuka-sensei, A beautiful woman who appears to be in her early 20s. Long fluffy black hair that touches her shins with strands falling unto her shoulder as well, Gradient purple eyes and wears a lab coat for whatever reason. 'Strange, considering she's a career counsellor.'

She seems to genuinely enjoy teaching and cares about her students. Though, her pungent tobacco scent is somewhat distracting. 

"Finished admiring me Wataru Sajou?"

The class bursts out in laughter at this. I choose not to respond as I believe she was asking rhetorically. Still, why do I feel like she may become troublesome in the future?

[author: Is he an epser!! 😅]

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Recently, 'That guy''s (Wataru) behaviour has been strange.

He used to follow me at all times, uttering words that set my teeth on edge. One day, such annoyance toned down. No, it disappeared completely. Still, at first, I was wondering if he was just trying another tactic to curry my attention. But, he seems to have no interest in me at all!

Maybe "that day" was the trigger. From that day on, his behaviour was obviously strange.

I remember uttering cold words to him.

Because I didn't like the strange and mysterious gloomy feeling that I felt, I accidentally rushed to his house. And when I thought I could talk it outside, I never thought I would be taken inside his home.

『"No I did not, this is my classmate Natsukawa Aika… and she was just leaving. Right?"』

Those words keep repeating in my head, and for some reason… A disgusting taste builds up in my mouth and I feel a pit in my stomach. 'Who the hell does that guy think he is talking to me like that!' 

I thought I would be happy that he finally stopped annoying me, but for some reason I feel anything but that. If anything I feel more uneasy. When I saw him talking to Aizawa-san I couldn't help but feel bitter, Kei-chan told me she was using him and for some reason I felt.. relieved… after that. 'Is something wrong with me? ughh It's all that guy's fault!'

"Hey Aizawa-san can we come over today?"

"Yeah Yeah we wanna see your little sister!"

Ever since that guy started distancing himself from me, my classmates finally started talking to me more. I should feel happy about this yet for some reason it feels like something is missing..

"A-ah sure, you're all welcome!"

"Hey hey Ai-chi, are you inviting Sajou-chi as well?" Kei whispered to me. 

"Sh-should I invite him over?"

"Why ask me, shouldn't you know~?"

"Ahh w-whatever… fine."

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"Hey Sajou-kun, are you also coming over to my place later?"

"Hmm.. are you sure you'd even want me over?" 

'Ughh this guy!'

"Wh-who said I did! I don't care if you do or not!"

'No No NO! Why did I say that?'

"Well then you have your answer right? I'm busy anyway so I wont be coming over."

As he said that he grabbed his bag and started to leave. Why do I feel hurt by this? And where does he even go during lunch anyway.

"W-wait" I whisper, but he was already too far to hear me.

"Jeez what's his problem?" I hear Kei talking to me.

"I… I don't know."

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I have no idea why Natsukawa approached me to invite me over, shouldn't she despise me? However, I'm not particularly interested in finding out. While walking without fully paying attention I crashed into someone..

~Brash~

I caught the papers before they could fall, however the person holding them still fell.

"Are you okay? I apologise for bumping into you."

Without saying anything the person ran away… 'What am I meant to do with these papers now?' 

~sigh~

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This morning I can't help but feel extremely tired. I doubled my workout last night because I had finally built up more endurance. Walking downstairs I can see my sister Kaede sprawled out on the couch eating a bowl of cereal with unkempt hair.

"Kaede, you do know there's a dining table right?"

"Huh? I'm to tired for that." She said waving me off

"By the way, if you're going to the shower… wait. I wanna take a bath before you."

"Why should I? You're eating right now." 

'Are women always this illogical?' 

"Just listen to your older sister dipshit!"

"Whatever you say.." 

I'll just make breakfast instead then. I've asked my mother to let me prepare my own meals from now on because I want to add more protein into my diet and I also have to watch my macros due to my calorie deficit. Thanks to my diligence this body has made decent progress in the past two weeks, while it may not be noticeable on the outside… my strength and muscle density has increased by a fair amount.

"By the way, why have you been actin all edgy and shit recently? Got your heart broke or something?"

'~sigh~ Can I not even monologue anymore..''

"... Something like that I guess."

"Heh~ I knew it! Well this big sister is here for you if you need it."

"Can I take that as a confession? Sorry I'm not interested in incest. Also, you being nice is very strange."

"SHUT UPPP!" 

'Thanks to those memories my quips have gotten better, could it be I've gained sarcasm?' 

"There you go, smile more.. It's weird seein you with a pokerface all the time y'know"

"Aye aye captain." I salute her.

"~sigh~ I swear you've become more cheeky as of recent."

"Who knows."

'Why do I feel like this may become my catchphrase….'

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Author note: Mainly interaction focused chapter, and also some foreshadowing for what's to come. Thank y'all for the support.. And due to request I've added oregairu to the world. If y'all have anymore suggestions just lmk, also please help me fix any errors if there are any.

Love y'all

pce out.