Chapter 112: Two Lonely Broken People

"There you are." Jeffrey said when he got inside the unit where Adrian is living. The whole unit is dark, messy and ricks of alcohol. In the dark he can still easily see Adrian, his eyes are trained in the dark so it was just an easy job for him. He didn't heard a response from the man he has been looking for days. The only thing he heard is his loud grunt and clinging of the bottles and empty cans laying all over the floor. Jeffrey seated beside Adrian and leaned his back to the side of Adrian's bed. He watched just how Adrian gulped down a bottle of beer and said nothing. His beard has grown and it's obvious that the man haven't taken a shower yet.

"I heard you withdrawn from the wedding." Jeffrey started the conversation over the fact of the news that reached him. Victor was livid when he was informed that Adrian is withdrawing from the marriage. With all the issues tying to his family's company and all investors pulling out and selling their shares if the wedding got cancelled off it will be hard for them to bounce back so the Witchburn are desperate to have that wedding. "Your family will disowned you and you will not going to get anything." Jeffrey said again.

"I agreed to the marriage because they are threatening Nash but now that even them can't find him-I don't see any purpose on this anymore." Adrian opened another bottle. "Even though he's pregnant and married with that man I decided that just seeing him even from afar will be enough for me. Not seeing even a single trace of him is driving me crazy hahahah." Adrian laugh and laugh till he start crying. "I often teased my friends for being such a cry babies over their wives and lovers and yet here I am crying over Nash. I never thought it could be this painful. It hurts here." Adrian point his heart. "It feels as if I'm just living and breathing outside but I'm already dead inside. I wake up each fucking morning to feel the pain, to let our memories play on repeat inside my mind only to feel a lump of regret. Regret over the fact that I hurt him and that I lost him to someone who can give him the things I can't. It's like its pulling me to all different directions until I'm completely torn apart. As days goes by I start to realize that by seeing him will be enough. Just to see him smile will be enough. I won't show up to him I just want to love him from afar. I deserve to feel that pain of regret over and over again because that kind of pain I can still handle." Adrian looked at Jeffrey in the midst of darkness. "What I can't handle is not seeing him anymore." He looked away and grab the bottle to drink, the golden liquid of the alcohol trailed down from his chin down to his body then he scream as he throw the bottle to the corner of his room. The loud shattering of glass can loudly be heard the moment the fragile glass hit the hard wall and along the breaking of the glass is the breaking of the man sitting beside Jeffrey.

Jeffrey doesn't really give any attention much more any of his care for anything in this world except for Victor, but seeing how broken Adrian is it reminded him of himself. People might think he's ok because he is strong and that he's trained to handle his emotion well but deep inside he's broken beyond repair. Broken by the people who made him a killing machine, broken by all men who used his body to the point he got addicted to sex, broken by the only man he ever love and yet couldn't return his love. Jeffrey is many things and yet he's like a broken doll that people keeps on playing without love. Maybe that's the reason why he got so obsessed, obsessed with Victor he put his faith that the man can fix him but instead of fixing the man keeps on breaking him and yet despite that he keeps on blindly following him.

"You know what I think we are both the same, begging for love and yet cannot be loved by the people who we cared for." Jeffrey opened a bottle of alcohol and drink straight from the bottle.

"Maybe but I'm the idiot here, Nash loves me first even though I kept on pushing him away and then he got tired of me that's why he can no longer give me that love." Adrian said as he laugh to himself faintly.

"Then that makes you a little luckier than me, because I was never loved not even by the kids whom I grew up with. They all think I'm a rival because I'm good with what I do." Jeffrey took the cigarette box from his back pocket and light a stick, he blew the smoke in the dark room. "Want one?" Jeffrey asked.

"Nope my babe doesn't really like the smell of smoke." Adrian said.

"Too bad he's someone else's babe now." Jeffrey said.

"What do you do for them to hate you? What is it that you are good at?" Adrian asked.

"Everything, even with sex. Want to try me?" Jeffrey asked.

"Nah I'll pass. You save yourself for the right man."

"Isn't it too late to be saying that to me?" Jeffrey laugh. "Many men already used my body I couldn't even count them. If there's really a man out there who is right for me I'm pretty sure he's an asshole who will do me dirty probably will invite his friends to have an orgy party." Jeffrey laugh.

"Nope, I'm sure once he finds you he wouldn't want to share what's his." Jeffrey stopped laughing.

"Don't say something that will make me dream only to wake up one day and find out it will never going to come true. I have been there and look at me. I became a sex addict hooking up with anyone just so I can feel wanted even for just a split seconds….."

"Let me tell you something, when you are with the right person sex won't be just sex it will be making love and it's amazing. It become something else. I'm hoping for you to experience it one day."

"How I wish, I mean I have been chasing the man that I love so if that thing you say comes true I wish he's the kind of man who will chase me down to the end of the world. Who wouldn't let go of my hands. Who's overly jealous…"

"Hey overly jealous is not healthy." Adrian said laughing.

"Hey no one was ever jealous to me before so I think if that man exist then I want him to be the possessive and obsessive kind. I was deprived of affection that my heart is in drought for too long. I want an overflowing affection. I might get angry at the long run but I will still find it reassuring that he loves me deeply, but such man doesn't exist so don't worry."

"He's existing, believe me. All my fucking friends are all assholes before they met their wives and ironically they are all married to omegas well except for my two friends. The reason why I said that an alpha in love doesn't share because those fuckers are very territorial."

"Your friends? You mean those handsome men? Ow yeah right I remember you told me those guys aren't available and even one of them is with his pregnant wife the other one was about to go to his wife."

"They are all marked by my alpha friends."

"How lucky, but not all omegas are lucky to end up being loved. Hey want to know a secret why I think that getting a happy ever after kind of love story is impossible for me?"

"Why?" Adrian asked full of curiosity.

"I can't get pregnant. My sex organ is like of a child, it stopped developing. The man whom I said I'm in love with is my brother….."

"What?!"

"He's not my real brother, I was adopted by Don Vladimir. Before I was his son's brother I was Victor's mistress and even up to this day I'm still am." Jeffrey said, he drink from the bottle and he almost finished half of it. "I don't know why I'm even telling you this. It's our family's secret a fucking dirty secret."

"This marriage you are doing this for him?" Adrian asked.

"If this will make him happy I'm willing to sacrifice my happiness." Jeffrey said. "So please don't cancel the wedding."

"I can't, I decided to marry you because of….."

"What if I tell you that I can find Nash." Jeffrey interrupted Adrian.

"Find Nash first and I'll think about the wedding." Adrian said.

"Fair point, I guess I need to go then." Jeffrey said.

"Stay, having a friend won't hurt." Jeffrey smiled and sit back to where he was sitting earlier. That night the two became friends. They never thought that they will be able to find a friend at each others company.

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"Time's up, I got to go." Axel got up. It's his session with the therapist.

"You're not opening up. This won't do if you are not telling the truth." Dr. Choi straight forwardly said.

"I don't trust you." Axel answered.

"Your husband will be very much disappointed if he learns that you are not taking this seriously." Axel pulled the man to his collar.

"Don't bring up my husband to this. I would probably take this seriously if only you are not seducing me!" Axel shouted.

"Yeah obviously that doesn't work on you so I decided to stop and take your case seriously. That husband of yours always comes with you, didn't you know whenever we are talking inside my office here in my house your husband immediately doses off. He's obviously very tired and yet he's always with you. I'm an alpha male and I'm it's obvious that he's territorial and yet he's letting me consult you. Don't you want to help you self Axel?"

Axel sat down. "If you promise to stop seducing me then I can spare you another hour to see if this talk is worth it." Axel said.

"Axel tell me something about yourself."

Dr. Choi keeps on looking and looking at his notes. He knows when a person is masking the truth or not but with Axel he can't tell when he's masking the truth but he can tell when he lies. "He's not telling his real fear." Dr. Choi muttered.

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Axel dropped his body on their bed, he missed his husband. He wanted to open up but opening up to other people is hard even with Jules Axel still finds it hard. He caress his tummy and start thinking on when was the last time he had his heat a smile appeared on his lips he knows that it's impossible but he still hopes that there can be miracle. He immediately got up and took his own jacket. He went to the nearest pharmacy and both a pregnancy kit. He almost run coming inside the house. He took it out of the box and read the instructions carefully then do the procedure. He waited until a red line starts appearing but his smile vanished when it was just one line that formed. "Yeah what do you expect?"

Axel lied back to their bed and he didn't notice that he already fell asleep until the dreams woke him up again filled soaking in his own sweat. He immediately dialed Jules number but it was Clarence who answered.

"Jules where is he?" Axel asked.

"Here waisted."

"What?! Why?" Axel asked.

"He's worrying about you too much." Both of them stayed silent after Clarence uttered those words. "I know I'm not in the position to say this but Jules thinks you're not trusting him fully and that worries him. He's afraid that time will come and you will charge at the enemies on your own without telling him only to end up getting hurt. I can somehow understand where his anxiety is coming from because Rion is already charging at the enemy and I can no longer do anything about it because I was still not in the picture when he did that decision."

"I know..... Clarence please do me a favor. Don't ever leave my husband. No matter what happens please stay by his side."

"What are you saying of course I won't leave him and I'll stay with him. This fucker is dead drunk!" Axel just laugh at his husband's friend but unknown to Clarence those words have deeper meaning only for him to find out what those words mean a little too late.

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Several days passed by and it's time again for Axel's session, Dr. Choice was looking forward to it. He wanted to know more about him. What causes him his trauma when clearly a strong Omega like him is unlikely to be in the situation that keeps his dreams haunted.

"Come in" Dr. Choice said when he opened the door to his house which he also use as his office too.

Half an hour pass and it's the same old tale, Dr. Choice couldn't seem to get pass Axel's barrier.

"Mrs. Parker." Axel flinched when he called him with the use of his husband's surname. "I don't want to do this but I think I need to tell your husband to look for another Doctor who can you consult with. This just got us going around in circles." Dr.Choi said. "I know he will be sad about this because as I can see he is very much willing to help his wife but if your don't help yourself then there's nothing really I can do." Dr. Choi knows that he shouldn't be talking that way to his clients, he shouldn't be provoking them but a reverse psychology is what he thinks will get Axel's attention. He's a special person after all. He's the kind that when being pursued runs but when you stopped that's when he stops running to turn around and see the shadow that's chasing him. It was a gamble really but right now Dr. Choice is solely relying to his guts.

"Doctors won't leak patients information right?" Axel whispered.

"Yes you are right. Without the patient's consent what we will talk about inside these four walls will stay here." Dr. Choi said. "But that's when you decided to say anything."

"Are you familiar with the case happened two decades ago?" Axel begin.

"Two decades?" Dr. Choi asked.

"They probably covered it up but kids were abducted and those kids were trained and groomed to be a perfect Omega assassins." Dr. Choi felt his body run cold. He's smart not to know where his next revelation can lead to.

"Yes what you are thinking is right I'm an assassin. In that camp we were all trained but in the end we have to kill each other that's when my first nightmare visited me. All kids pass the trial were released but before that they took our innocence not to mention at an early age they stopped our reproductive organs from growing and maturing which to avoid unwanted pregnancy since we also have to use our body in the job if we have to. To make sure unwanted pregnancy will not happen they severe the tubes connecting to our uterus and ovary."

"You said there were others so were are they?" Dr. Choi asked.

"There used to be three of us but now there are only just two of us. The first one died, we learned that since the project which is us was a great success they trained kids who will replace use when we grow old. Nelson couldn't accept another Omegas to experience our nightmare so he took it down on his own to save the kids but even the kids died. I manage to save some but that made me the target. That's my second nightmare and my third nightmare is losing Jules." Axel said, seated properly and looked straight to the Doctor's eyes. "Doctor do you know why I hated you?" Doctor Choi didn't say anything. "Because you are judging my love towards my husband. You are testing my marriage by seducing me your patient. I never asked for Jules to happen and yet I met him. I already accepted my faith you see. I already accepted the fact that I won't be able to experience to be loved by someone. To be respected and to be taken care off. I never I was so ready to live my life together with the kids I rescued and yet he came and gave me all that. You see he didn't even slept with me when I'm literally throwing myself to him. He said he doesn't want me for my body. He said he will marry me first, give me the proper respect I deserve. Doctor tell me what kind of respect an assassin whore should have? It was shitty right? But he gave me the kind of respect someone who's clean should have. I can't even give him a child, just one I'm not asking for a lot of kids even just one will be enough. My fear roots to different places and I can't even no longer point where to start." Axel didn't know he will burst that way probably he took the news that he's not pregnant not well.

"Why do you think that you don't deserve him? If you will ask me I think you do deserve all his love. I think you are a good man Axel you weren't just given a better situation and Jules can see that. You see when you are clouded with all the bad things you did you sometimes can't see the goodness within you but Jules can see it. I'm sorry if I ever judge the love between you two. I'm often surrounded by people who hated each other to the point they are so eager to break their marriage. It somehow convinced me that there's no such thing as real love but you two are different and I'm very sorry. How about we start over again?" Axel remained silent.

"Hi I'm Doctor Henry Choi, I'm a Psychiatrist and I'm also a licensed Neurosurgeon. I'll be your Doctor." Doctor Choi said with a smile

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"Are you sure this is the right place?" Adrian asked. Jeffrey didn't answer him but instead he worked hard building a telescope and once it's done he gesture at Adrian to come.

Adrian walked towards Jeffrey and Jeffrey pulled him to sit on the chair. "Look using the scope." Adrian followed Jeffrey's instructions. He flied hours just to be in that place but all those tiredness was rewarded when he saw Nash. Without hesitation Adrian bought the house where they built the set up.

"How did you find them?" Adrian asked his eyes are still watching Nash.

Jeffrey think hard on how he was able to barely find Nash. Whoever took and hide Nash's where about is a monster those are the only thing that came up to his mind when Adrian asked him.

"I hacked into the system but it seems someone hide all his information even changing his name and the husband's name." Jeffrey said but he noticed that Adrian's face went sour upon hearing the word husband.

"That should had been me." He said.

"You won't be his husband even if he didn't end up with that man. Remember you planned in making him your mistress?"

Adrian went silent. "If you will be given a second chance will you still choose me?" Jeffrey asked.

Adrian shake his head no. "I'm sorry Jeff, but if I will be given a second chance I will make sure that I will be his husband."

"It's ok, I already used to with people not choosing me." Jeffrey said with a hint of sadness.

"But I will still choose you as a friend." Adrian's words put a big smile on Jeffrey's face "In time you will be able to find that person who is designed to be with you."

"You are probably the first friend that I ever had, friends." Both of them stayed in that rented house just across to Nash's home. Adrian just seated there watching the man of his life smiling to another man that is not him.

"Does it not break your heart seeing him that way to another man." Jeffrey broke the silent and asked the question formed in his head as time goes by that he watched Adrian not flinched in front of the telescope looking for any chance he can see Nash again.

"It has been like a month and yet he's already showing. Do you have his Doctor's number?" Instead of answering Adrian change the topic and focus more on Nash's pregnancy.

"Finding his Doctor is just a piece of cake to me but what are you planning to do with that information?" Jeffrey asked.

"I want to know the baby's condition, I want to know if the baby is healthy, maybe the gender too when it's time to know and if I'm lucky I want to see the baby when its born. Even for just a little I also want to be part of Nash's family even from afar." Adrian said all those in a very low sad voice.

"That's torture, are you a masochist?" Jeffrey said mocking Adrian but who is he even to complain when he too stayed by Victor's side even though the man got married and just used him to pleasure himself.

"He's my happiness so even just for a little it's enough to make me so happy."

"We can't stay here for too long, this is another country and they will start looking for us anytime soon." Jeffrey can feel Adrian's deep sadness after he said those words.

"Ok, ok fine! Here I will install cameras in all corners of their house except for their bedrooms and shower rooms. I don't want you witnessing those two making love - believe me that is like a suicide. Will that be enough?" Adrian smiled at Jeffrey.

"Thank you Jeff." Adrian said.

"I understand that's why I know how you feel but you have to stop. Don't be like me, it's too late for me. I'm beyond redeeming and repair. We can still do the marriage thing but you also need to move on from him and go find another person. I won't get in the way I promise."

"Hey don't be like that someone will eventually fall to your charm. This is just between you and me but I thought you were an ass but it turns out you have some soft spots too."

"I'm not really soft, maybe because we have the same circumstances that's why I can understand. What if you and me we make this work?" Jeffrey asked.

Adrian shake his head no. "Two broken people can't end up together. We won't be able to fix anything if both of us are too broken in the long run we will only end up breaking each other even more. What we both need is someone who is not broken. Someone who has a clear rationale mind who can see pass the clouded and shattered mindset that we have. Besides we both know we don't see each other that way."

"You're right, I can't see anyone other than Victor."

"Man who doesn't even love you and just takes you for granted."

"Yeah, hey you keep on saying that someone out there is meant for me right? If he really exist I hope that he can find me soon. I'm too tired of everything. I'm too tired having sex with different people but couldn't stop because I couldn't control myself."

"Hey have you ever consulted that to professionals?" Adrian asked.

"Nope, what's the point I'm already like this and I enjoyed it. It keeps my mind elsewhere."

"It's not healthy. I think you need help" Adrian said.