S1E9: The War is Begin (Part 5)

I'm looking at her as she read my medical record. "What's bother you, today?" A smile draws on her face. "You should be grateful! Your health is getting better now!" Yeah, whatever. "I wonder how she made you do it?" She closed her map and looked at me.

I raised my eyebrow. "Come on, Lobak! Tell me. How she done that?" She keeps staring at me withe her smile wider on her face. I want to punched her face.

I took a deep breath and sighed. "You can lie to me, but you can't lie to yourself. She caught me.

"Is that obvious?" I walked to the door, followed by her. She replied with a nod on her head. I'm walking down the hallway with Sarah at my side. We keep walking, until Kenzie stopped us.

She cleared her throat and bowed her head. "Lobak, Doc." Yeah, complete form. Sarah, Kenzie, and me. Three of us arrived at the hospital's cafeteria. We choose to sit at the corner nearby the wide window on the corner.

"My treat, lads." Sarah said as she stood up.

"Make it the same for both of us. She's on diet, right?" I rolled my eyes. Sarah slapped my shoulder, then leave. What's wrong with both of them today?! I guess... they ran out of 'drugs.'

"Hey, hey... what's wrong with my sad lesbian friend. Today... she seems 'glowing' than before..." she rubbed her chin. Oh come on, Kenz. I need a break.

I met her when we're in the recovery house. I have... gambling problem, and she has anger issue. About my gambling problem, it's tempting to make a high bet and you could lose all your money in second.

The thrill sensation when you make a bet if feel deeper through my veins. Blood flows rapidly, your heartbeats jumps, and the atmosphere inside the casino that made you wanted to spend more time there. I felt that way when I placed a bet.

I occasionally betting on Blackjack 21 and Russian Roulette. If you asked does gambling is good or bad? I don't know, you decide. Sometimes the host did some fair play and some of them cheated. Some of country legalize gambling, but in my country it's illegal. Everything was easy these days because we connect to the internet and my age is legal for doing whatever I want.

You don't have to go to Macau, Hong Kong, Los Angele, or other country to place your bet. Just visit Google and make sure you're also connected to VPN, you're already able to play. Tons of websites will appear and most of them have varied with big jackpot pool prize, which is making you tempted to try.

It does make you get rich quick? No. It will make you even more broke, than ever. Sarah approached us at our table and place a tray. "No caffeine for you and oil for today," she said as she put my drink and food in front of me.

I opened the lid, then sighed. "Tell us about... a woman, who made you fell that hard." Kenzie widened her eyes, looked at Sarah as she raised her eyebrow.

"W-wait..." she gasped for air. "Our little child here fall in love?" Sarah chuckles and nod her head. I'm eating my salad as they got distracted from the first topic they want to discuss.

They ending up chat about their couple. I forgot to asked her about her marriage situation. I picked my phone and sends her a message.

"Ahem." I looked at Kenzie and Sarah. They creepy smiles make me want to toss this salad into their face. "Sarah," she's hummed. "Do you have... any topics related to our daughter here, my dear? You said she's fall in love, right?"

Kenzie's fake British accent make me wants to shoved this fork inside her throat. Sarah laugh and replied the same as her. "Oh... my sweetheart. Our daughter now already grows up, doesn't she? She's an adult now..." They laughed.

"Alright, alright... you guys caught me." There's impossible to hide the fact that I already fall in love with her. Both of them stopped to laugh and sighed. "I'm not ready to fall with her because... the guilt inside me."

"Guilt? It's not your fault, Lobak. How many times Sarah and I..."

"It-it's not the point, Kenz. I swear it's not the point." I'm scratching my hair. "I don't know... why she left me. What the exact reason what she wants from me."

I took a deep breath and leaned on the chair. "I can't find closure if she keeps... hiding from me. Just tell me the reason why she left... it's that wrong!? She just... dumped me. It's just not fair..."

Sarah shifted her chair close to me and stroked my hair. "It's okay. You doing great by talked your feeling to us." Kenzie nodded.

"Closure it's important. I agree with you." She sighed. I know they wouldn't do anything stupid against my will.

"You shouldn't thank to us right now, Lobak. We want the best for you, also..."

"We proud of you." I furrowed my brow. "What you achieved until today, you're not shed a single tear in front of the public. Instead... we honored to become your friend."

She said as squeezed my shoulder. "I don't want to lose my twin, either." I'm chuckling as I wiped my tears.

"If I was a lesbian, I would rather choose you than Kenzie." We laughed. I don't know what kind of situation we encountered today. We continuing our earlier topic, while we're enjoying our lunch together.

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I played some tune that plays in my head right now.

We wrote, and we wrote

'Till there were no more words

We laughed, and we cried

Until we saw our worst

Is it wrong that I still wonder where you are?

Is it wrong that I still don't know my heart?

Are you all dressed up but with nowhere to go?

Are you tears falling down when the lights are low?

Another Friday night, tryna put on a show

Do you hate the weekend 'cause nobody's calling?

I've still got so much love hidden beneath this skin

Will someone

Put a little love on me, yeah

Put a little love on me

When the lights come up and there's no shadow dancing,

I look around as my heart is collapsing

'Cause you're the only one I need

To put a little love on me.

You're the only one I need... (Put A Little Love On Me - Niall Horan)

"To put your love on me." I stopped my play and looked behind me. At the doorway, Rose stand while she's smiling at me. She approached me and sit next to me.

This feeling again.... my heart racing fast whenever she's around me. "Am I... disturbing your sleep?" I asked, without looking at her. Oh, God! Why she should awake at this hour?! Damn it!

"No," she replied. I'm nodding my head and keep playing a random song.

City of stars

Are you shining just for me?

City of stars... (City of Stars (OST. La La Land) - Ryan Gosling)

Shit! Why I played that song?! I heard she's laugh, as she slapped my arm.

"I don't know that you like Broadway. Hahaha..." Fuck. She's got me. I stood up and grabbed her hand.

"I want to show you something." I said without looking at my back.