1 outside world is cruel!!!!

Let me introduce myself. I am Kyle and i am 20 years old kid who is about to start his journey for the college life. I am doing majors in history but that doesn't make me a nerd. I am out to everyone but my dad wasn't that happy.

Things were pretty awkward between me and dad since my mom left him. He never blamed me but i blamed him for that. We pretended to not know each other but we still did care for each other which just made our complex relation more complex. My step mom, Caroline, 10 years older than me which was quite disturbing for me to see my dad (who was actually 15 years older than her) kiss her during breakfast, while leaving the house, when he arrives at night and before going to sleep. Fortunately, my mom gave birth to a girl before me who was now married. She was 25 and i was just 20. During high school, i felt like living among strangers and only my sister, Claire, was the one person close to me but it's been a year and half she got married and i'm again alone.

I really didn't care much about outer world unless Matt was there. He was way much concerned about everything going on in world and he was the one i came out first to (one more reason why my dad avoids me usually). I didn't have many friends but everyone knew me for my historical knowledge about things and still not being a nerd. I didn't have much fun in high school which is weird but tomorrow i was stepping out of my room to the outer world. The thought of living in a dorm without Matt and instead with some stranger is horrifying but there won't be anyone sharing room with me. You ask why? Well i chose a dorm which is haunted?  Fables tell that a guy committed suicide by swallowing pills, which seemed totally fake to me.

Matt was like a caretaker or like a babysitter? Caroline had her faith in him and she used to treat him like her own son. The day of college, i was ready to go. My trolley was ready, i had a turquoise coloured trolley which was puffed up because of the faux fur coats i took. I also had a Gym bag filled with my accessories, just basic gay stuff. Matt was honking outside my house for a while.

Caroline comes in and asks "honey, do you need something else?" and gives a pleasant smile. She sensed my fear of staying away from home and Matt. She slowly walked into the room to hug me. No matter how much i tried to hate her for marrying my dad, i couldn't push her away because she made me feel like that i still have someone who can take care of me. Her hug made me feel warm and her positive aura gave me the confidence. I rushed down and one of the servants took my trolley and was trying to catch up with me. I was feeling happy and i jumped into the car. The servant brought down and put the trolley beside my seat. I wanted to sit beside Matt because i had no idea when we could meet next, but a part of me was more excited about college. Matt was expressionless. He started driving the car away and i saw Caroline waving. I waved back and we went away for the new chapter of my life.

It was a long journey and Matt didn't even utter a  word. After an hour i gave up and yelled "what is this silent treatment about?" and there was an awkward silence and finally his lips parted and he said "as you are going away, it's better that we detach each other emotionally and move on".

His smooth and husky voiced words felt like a thunderclap. "But why? me going away doesn'tchange anything!" I almost yelled at him. He parked his car and unlocked all the doors. He turned around and said "here's your dorm, pretty amazing!" he took a pause and blinked slowly as if he was also giving me strength to survive through this. "Have fun with your new friends and sure we will contact each other but life isn't High School!" It was strange hearing something meaningful from his mouth but he was the first boy to hurt me with his words. My rage took over my mind and i stomped away from his car. I didn't turn around to see him wearing a t-shirt saying "all the best".

Me wearing high boots was a sign of upcoming disaster. I woke up feeling like a mess so i just wore an ariana merch sweatshirt, track pants and a cap. Walking with a trolley and a Gymn bag while wearing high boots and not getting any help, it was tough. There were many guys who were mocking but many people were staring at my boots. I felt wierdly proud and happy. As i entered into the building, i saw how huge and vast it was. It was a nation in itself. I dumped my stuff on the floor near the reception counter and asked her about my room keys. The receptionist was really sweet but she was staring at me like i was some creature from area 51!!! As i was waiting for the sloth to do her work, i looked out and it was situated near a crossing and it was filled with many stores. It was little odd because the place was unusually quiet.

The receptionist gave me keys and i again took my stuff and i had to go to the second floor. Surprisingly, there was no elevator and noone to help me. I climbed the stairs as if i've never been fed properly. I finally reached the second floor and i was too busy keeping my stuff together. Suddenly, a tall orange haired guy pushes me. It was the last moment of my life. I thought i'd die but guess what? The bully caught me but let my baggage fall down the stairs. It wasn't much fun taking all of them up again. I was soaked in my own sweat.

As i entered my room, i saw people becoming a statue to just see whether i die or a force of energy pushes me against the wall and then i die. Unfortunately, neither happened. there was a smell of dampness and it didn't bother me much. I dumped my bag and trolley in the corner and crashed on the bed. It was soft. I turned my head around and saw everyone peeking inside the room. I jumped out of the bed, slammed the door on their faces and heaved a sigh!