Let me be yours……

Regan went to his study leaving Anna alone. As soon as he entered the room, he smashed the table lamp placed on his desk breaking it into several pieces. His face was contorted with rage and fury. Venom spewed from his lips as he cursed belligerently. He felt to tear and break apart everything but somehow controlled himself and sat on the couch that was placed at the corner of the room. The muscles through his T-shirt tensed as his chest expanded in an uneven cadence. He rested his head in his hands.

Throughout the time when Anna shared her past, his face was red with suppressed rage. The weight of her words affected him more than he thought. It was more than anything he had ever experienced, let alone to think that she suffered through all of it for so many years and was still suffering. Her every word left an intense, indescribable feeling in him. He was boiling in rage. He lost the count of ache that erupted in his heart every time whenever her voice cracked. She didn't stop for once venting everything from her heart stabbing his own with immeasurable agony. He wanted to tell her to stop but couldn't bring himself to do so. He struggled to hold himself back with his jaw clenched. His body had shuddered numerous times trying to regain his control over his fury on the person who made her suffer through hell. He wanted to kill him with his own bare hands.

He went through emotions that he never experienced before. He had felt the a trace of happiness when she talked about Ashton, he had felt her helplessness and vulnerability when that beast laid his dirty hands on her, he had felt her pain when she described Ashton's death in front of her eyes and he also felt the dearth and emptiness afterwards. He had known her for almost three months now. He always found her eyes empty but not in his single dream, he had thought of her going through so much. Although she was fragile and innocent, he had seen her to be the strongest woman who was determined, perseverant and conscientious. She had captured his heart like no other could since the day he laid his eyes on her the very first time. He had always admired her for her strong will and strength but he hated it today. He hated how she kept herself strong and upheld during all this time and he was oblivious about it. He hated her façade because he wanted her to break her walls and shields and say that it was okay to be fragile, it was okay to cry and show her weakness, her broken self to him because she was no more alone. He was there for her. Always and Forever.

Rage consumed his body by the time she ended and he couldn't bring himself to stand there for a second more as he didn't want her to see the beast that was roaring inside him to leash out. Although he left the room, her words were still ringing in his head. Time and again, he remembered everything making him to clutch his head between his hands even more if it was possible. He abruptly stood on his feet, when her last words hit him like a brick. He thought silently for a while and realized how the rush of fury clouded his mind and he left her alone when she needed him the most. He left her waiting to hold her hand making her feel rejected and...…. He didn't want to think about the things his action would have implied on her. He finally came to his senses and realized his actions. The very next moment, he found himself moving to the same room where he left her. His heart dropped on seeing the vacant room. He quickly rushed to check every corner of the house to find her but she was nowhere. A haze of fear surrounded him on thinking about the worst.

'Has she left?' He stood motionless with horror on the mere thought of her leaving him.

The next second, he dashed to the only place that was still unchecked. It was their room. He frantically moved in its direction. He was almost panting when he reached there to see her by the window side still looking blankly at the cloudy night sky. He finally took a deep breath of relief and the next moment, he sprinted towards her, twirled her by her waist and gathered her in his arms burying his head in the crook of her neck to inhale her scent that instantly pacified his palpitating heart that was filled with anxiety. The guilt of leaving her was eating him inside out. He shut his eyes and inhaled deeply fighting with himself from remembering her sufferings. Wetness formed behind his closed eyes.

Anna was shocked with his action and abrupt presence as she didn't think he would return to her, that too in such a way. The warmth of his body instantly warmed her heart and she realized how much she craved for his loving embrace. She closed her eyes too which brimmed with tears. In that moment, she didn't need any words to understand his emotions. She could feel him, his heart and its thumping that was meant for her. She couldn't help but whispered his name still not believing that he came back when she was least expecting it.

"Regan."

"I am sorry heart. I am sorry for leaving you. For leaving you alone when you needed me the most. For not holding you when you wanted me to."

She pulled away from him and looked into his eyes. She was bemused to see his moist eyes that were speaking on his behalf, still apologizing, remorsed and fearful. She pressed her palm to his cheek in assurance and he closed his eyes.

"I failed you back there. I am….."

Before he could apologize again, she placed her hand over his mouth to stop him.

"You didn't." She whispered.

He didn't know what to do with her. She was so fragile, so delicate, so pure and so precious to him. She was his life, his soul, his heart.

"Anastasia." He breathed. "My heart."

Saying it, he held her again against his body. Her arms were wrapped around him. Her head was laid on his chest, her soft breath warming it, while his warm breath caressed her forehead. They didn't know but for both of them, that was their home, in each other embrace, no matter where they were.

They didn't realize for how long they stood like that until Anna pulled herself back and lowered her lashes not able to meet his eyes that were gazing her with adoration and love.

"I am sorry. I know I shouldn't have kept you unaware about my past."

Regan's brows creased in weariness with the things she was speaking.

"After what happened with me, I….feel so dirty and unworthy of you. I am too impure, not worthy of your lo….." She whispered as her voice cracked.

He didn't let her complete the rubbish she was speaking as he captured her mouth sealing her lips with his warm ones. He kissed her tenderly. He kissed her to show what she meant for him. She was his everything. He kissed her to make her realize that she was the woman with whom he wanted to spend his entire life. It wasn't just a kiss. It was what he desperately needed after going through the turmoil of disappointing her, losing her. It was the moment that he wanted, needed and yearned for to touch her soul and forge an everlasting connection with it.

Anna's hand involuntarily moved around his neck as he kissed her pouring all his emotions in that moment. For the first time, she yielded to him as he parted her lips and plunged into her mouth. She didn't realize when she started responding him taking him by surprise, filling his heart with ecstasy. He pulled away to make sure that he wasn't dreaming. He breathed her name again and deepened the kiss, full of feelings, not intending to stop, this time with more need, passion and hunger that had piled up in him since long.

She wasn't sure how long they were into the moment, how long they kissed, but by the time he released her, her head was spinning. It was pure, full of his love. It was emotional that fulfilled her heart's deepest longing...a longing to be loved and cherished. She was yet to realize that she responded to him and again muttered his name, still in a daze, filling his heart with more love for her, if it was even possible.

He closed his eyes and touched her forehead with his before speaking.

"Dare you say a word against yourself and I will shut you in the same way again."

He didn't want to, but departed himself from her to look into her ocean blue orbs.

"I love you Anna. I love you with more than you will ever know existed inside me. You are the purest and the most innocent soul that I have ever met. I am sorry for making you feel rejected but I would spend my entire life to show you that I worship the ground you walk on and cherish you as my dear life. I would be the happiest man alive if you would ever be able to reciprocate my love, but I don't care if you won't. Because I am sure, my love will be enough for both of us to survive this lifetime together. You said that you could be of no one else, you could give nothing to anyone, you can't be anything for anyone. Then don't, but let me be yours, let me give you my everything. You don't have any idea what you mean to me heart. You are my everything and you are worth it. I promise to keep you safe and loved forever."

She stood there motionless, staring into his grey orbs not knowing how to respond his love that surprised her every time. Every day, every minute, every second, he was tugging her heart to reach her soul and she stood there helpless as she didn't know how to stop him. Unlike other times, she felt something shift inside her as she didn't want to stop him. The new realization was too overwhelming for her. She was exhausted beyond words. Physically and emotionally. In that moment, she wanted to lay in peace to forget everything she went through and she did that as without uttering a single word, she placed her head on his chest and closed her eyes. He didn't disappoint her and gathered her in his arms once again, savouring the moment.