1 Prologue
It was a cold night walking into the bar I sat for a few minutes, probably the first time I was out in a long time. Having one kid takes a toll on you and sometimes you just need to unwind. I let drinks flow trying to put on my best smile thinking of the guy that had just broken my heart, yet another dead-end relationship after giving him a child and taking his last name for the past four years. I didn't even plan on meeting anyone just wanted to forget him and all the shit I went through thinking I loved him. Feeling someone touch my cheek I flinch and looked into these beautiful green eyes.
"Why are you crying?" He asked as I wiped away the tears that were threatening to leave.
"Oh, it's nothing," I said trying to get rid of him, but he took it upon himself to sit in the seat next to me, his hand landed on my thigh and I knew exactly what that meant, and I didn't want that. No, I'm never having sex again.
"Sweetie, why are you here?" he said when I brushed his hand from my leg.
"Just to get some alone time," I said more aggravated hoping he would just leave me alone. I knew how these types of night's end and it wasn't going to be me.
"Sorry to disturb you," he said in a sensitive tone then left, I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding.
Another hour had passed, and I didn't feel any different, so I decided it was time to go head in face reality. Bills, work, kids, and cleaning. my life now as a single mother.
I stood up only to fall back into the chair, damn everything was spinning I didn't drink that much, I just happen to be a very lightweight drinker.
"You okay," the guy from earlier said, his eyes were pulling me in
"Fuck this!" I snapped as I threw myself into his arms locking lips. I will say the liquor made me forget everything, I even forgot why I was at this place. I've never been to a bar before, my sister begged me to go out and have fun.
"My hotel room or your place?" He questioned I didn't even think I just pushed him towards the door.
"Not my place," I said in between kissing him, I never felt so alive knowing I was in control it felt weird that he let me have my way with him, normally men are dominant.
"What's your name?" I said as he opened his car door
"You can call me Bean," he said I snickered what kind of name was that
"And you?" He said as we stopped at a red light, I was becoming clear-headed and nervous I'd never had a one-night stand and I just gave him the impression that is what we are doing. I sucked in a breath and said
"Lisa" He laughed a bit at my childish name
"This is my room, I'm here for three more weeks Are you sure you want to do this? It's not too late to turn back." He said it seemed like he was trying to convince me to leave.
"I want to but don't at the same time," I said thinking maybe he would just take me back to the bar,
"Well you can sleep in the bed, I'll take the couch. I'll drop you back at your car in the morning OK," He said pulling his shirt off, I bit my lip looking then gawking at the body on him. I picked my mouth up and said
"I don't have a car at the bar, but thanks for the liftback," I turned to find the bathroom feeling his arm wrap around my neck loosely
"Why don't you have a car?"
"I don't have a license either, I never bothered to get them because my ex took us everywhere," I said to answer his unasked questions
"Us?"
I lowered my head trying not to cry, "I signed my divorce papers this morning, I'm now a single mother and I was at the bar to ease my mind of all the shit he put me through. I know this is not what you planned and I'm sorry for giving you that impression, I'm weak and you probably don't really care about my business or life." I ramble as he just stared at me like he was trying to figure me out.
"Lisa, it's OK I'm not judging you and your right I did plan on fucking your brains out, but you seemed to have a lot more on your shoulders then just need a drink. So how about we talk" he spoke, as we sat on the couch. I was a bit confused at first, but that was what he wants from tonight was just to talk, by the end of the conversation I felt weirdly better like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I noticed that he didn't say one thing he just sat and listened. He hugged me with his warm inviting arms wrapped around me like a blanket I wanted so bad to have this every day for the rest of my life.
"Life is messy!" he whispered
"Yes, it is," I said feeling my eyes get heavy wanting for all of this to end, He cupped my face gently and sweetly kissing my lips, he picked me up and carried me to the bed still kissing I could feel my core heat up, I needed this I didn't even know why.
"Do I need condoms?" He whispered kissing down my neck, I nod telling him yes.
I was screaming his name all night or morning, he did things to my body I've never even heard off, touching places and kissing areas untouched by another, my ex-husband had never given the type of pleasure he did. Steam from our clashing orgasms while in the shower or how he held me tight as I rode him slow and steady just enough to have every inch of him touching my soul. Moans, groans and bite marks filled the air finishing off with the hint of sunrise, laying on top of him as our arms wrapped around each other for comfort.
Groaning not wanting to wake up to the annoying phone ringing,
"Hello," I said to whoever had disturbed my great night sleep,
"Girl, where are you it 10 am?" shooting from my comfortable spot getting a shooting pain through my lower body, nearly forgetting last night, my eyes widen as I turned to find HIM laying there with the most satisfied smile.
"Shit I'm coming," I said trying to find my clothes with my eyes,
"I know, the wet spot is still here," Bean said loud enough I heard my sister gasp on the other line
"Oh my God Lisa" she screamed I hung up the phone throwing it in my bag, Beans had that oddly satisfying smile on his face again, like he won the lottery or something.
"What too soon?" He said hunching his shoulders
"Yes, please can you take me home, buses will make me late for appointments" I snapped
"Sure." he raised an eyebrow, I didn't want to be mean, but I already knew I would never see him again and that was fine, a ping of hurt lodged deep into my heart.
"Look I'm sorry I snapped, I just can't miss this appointment," I said as we got into the car
"It's good, I'm actually late for work also so no worries" He smiled, wait he was already late for work, throwing my face into my hands, why did I think drinking on a workday would be a good idea, stupid, stupid.
"So you already planned to miss work today, naughty naughty," I laughed watching as the road changed from city to country feel.
"Nope, I called my boss and said I needed a sick day," He said nonchalantly
Reaching my house, I see my sister sitting on the porch looking like she had seen a ghost but then I realized it was his car, he kissed me on the forehead walking me to the porch.
"Home safe my dear," he whispered then winked at my sister then left. Sure as hell got an ear full from that, she didn't let up about it for a good three days after and then, of course, he disappeared from my life altogether. I didn't mope around about my life went on like any other day, weeks later I was rushed to the hospital I had fallen and broke my arm. Sitting in the office after my arm was wrapped the doctor told me to come here and have an ultrasound down, beyond me why I need that it was until the nurse came into the room with a giant smile, I know that type of smile.
"Well, Miss. Pott your arm is wrapped pretty good, but you're also about thirteen weeks pregnant." The doctor said, my mouth had fallen to the ground, WHAT?
"How? I have the IUD" shout and nervous, how was this possible? When did I... cut off by the memory of that night I forced myself to forget for the sank of my sanity.
"We are planning on doing an ultrasound," she is saying as they bring in the machine.
Ten minutes later, I walked out of the building with tears in my eyes looking at the picture of my one-night stand creation
Months had passed, I continued my life as if nothing happened. People asked questions about who the father is, I would answer I used a sperm donor, After I gave birth to my son, I named him Ryder Lyric Pott.
