*33* The Beginning Again

I try to rub the centre of my ribcage, this pain is simply unbearable. Leaving Benedict behind alone is the toughest thing I have ever done. But I had to.

Benedict's PTSD is turning into a complex one and to stop that he is opting for Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. In simple words, he told me CBT focuses on the relationship among thoughts, feelings, and behaviours; targets current problems and symptoms; and focuses on changing patterns of behaviours, thoughts and feelings that lead to difficulties in functioning.

He can't really make Ben forget about what his parents did to him, but he is trying to change his perspective. So here he needs to be more strict.

For me, Ben is not a mere case, but my lifeline. Now that I am standing at the closed door of his apartment, I could tell, I always loved him, true, but now I am in love with him. And that feeling is nowhere near the feeling when I fell for him.