Starting to Desire

Davino's order made Sesil's heart beat fast. He couldn't control the breath that flowed from his mouth.

"What should I do now?" she muttered, in his heart. "I swear, I'm not ready. I don't want to get pregnant. I still want to enjoy my youth, but…"

"What's the matter?" Davino asked interrupting Sesil's thoughts.

Suddenly Sesil was stunned and immediately looked at Davino seriously. sHe felt so nervous. It was the first time in her life that she shared a room with a man.

"I... I'm fine," Sesil reasoned.

"You're nervous, aren't you?" Davino guessed. His smile was mocking. "You're scared," he teased.

"Not really," said Cecil. "Anyone nervous, it's normal," she said.

"You admit it. Your face can't lie. You're nervous because it's the first night, huh," Davino teased again.

"No."

Sesil was a little annoyed that Davino had mocked her earlier. Meanwhile, Davino looked closely at the woman who had the status of a wife.

Sesil lowered her head when Davino looked at her in that way. She couldn't look her husband in the eye.

"You are my wife now, and it is LEGAL!" Davino said.

"Then? What if I'm your wife?"

"Do your duty as a wife. That's all."

"You mean?"

"For children," Davino answered quickly.

Sesil immediately swallowed her saliva hearing Davino's statement like that. sHe couldn't imagine what was going on tonight.

"Am I pretending to have a stomach ache, okay?" she mumbled. Suddenly the idea popped out of his mind. For a moment he thought, whether to carry out the idea or not.

Meanwhile, Davino was still looking at him seriously, making Sesil unable to lift his face.

"Did I renounce my chastity tonight?" he mumbled, doubtful.

Her mind was constantly haunted by fear, she didn't know what to say to Davino.

"Wait a minute, I'm just being an excuse. He definitely won't touch me. But how long. After all, we will do that in the end. If not, how can I get pregnant," she mumbled again.

sHe is increasingly worried about his decision. sHe felt that all the excuses she would give to Davino would only be in vain.

"Hey, what are you doing? Why are you dumbfounded? You're annoying, aren't you," Davino was annoyed.

"I was thinking something."

"What? Tell me, what do you think?"

"The first night, are you going to do it tonight?" asked Sesil innocently.

Instead of answering, Davino laughed at his wife's silly question. This made Sesil annoyed and embarrassed.

"Sesil, Cecil. You're so innocent. Why do you ask such a thing? It's clear, tonight I will make you a real wife, "said Davino.

"What do you mean?"

"Yeah, we did that. Do as newlyweds do. You think I'll just pass it up?"

"But, I didn't…"

"You refuse?" Davino asked. "It's up to you, but how long are you going to refuse it. My parents will always ask about your pregnancy, don't you think about that?" Davino asked.

He also did not want to have a husband-wife relationship without love. But he had no choice because he knew their purpose in marriage was to have children. So, like it or not they had to do it tonight.

"You'd better think again, my parents will wait for the results of our actions," said Davino.

Hearing this, Sesil couldn't move. She felt her husband's opinion was right. They couldn't reason with Demian or Feli.

For a moment both Sesil and Davino were silent. Davino can't believe he will take the chastity of a woman tonight. Even though he had to, he had to keep doing it for the sake of getting his offspring.

"Have you decided?" Davino asked.

Cecil let out a heavy breath. She looked worried and scared. Now and then he looked at Davino, the man in front of him hoping that she would answer the question her just heard.

"I still doubt, I'm afraid," said Sesil.

Davino smiled faintly, mocking his wife in his heart.

"What is there to be afraid of, try it, just open it, and enjoy. Was it difficult?" Davino muttered, in his heart as he looked at Sesil.

He looked at Sesil again. Nor could he force his wife to do that.

"I'm not going to force you, okay?" Davino gave a choice. "If you're ready, say you're ready. If not, then say no."

Again, Sesil let out a heavy breath. She was aware of her status as a wife, but she still didn't want to do it tonight.

"Can I have a few hours please?" asked Cecil.

"For?"

"Think about it."

"Good grief. It's up to you," Davino said annoyed.

Davino then came out of his room and sat down on the sofa disappointed. But he also didn't want to force Sesil to do it without any will.

"Should I force her, after all, she's my wife. So it's only natural that I ask that. He has to serve me," he muttered.

Meanwhile, in the room. Sesil is getting worried. sHe felt it was too soon. But her thought again, lost in his bed for a moment.

"How does it feel, will I be in pain later? But this is my duty. I have to fulfill it. Even though I was forced to marry Davino. But my status is his wife, and it's legal. I have to serve him," she muttered.

Feelings and logic seem to struggle. sHe was still confused about what to decide now. An hour passed, Davino entered his room.

"You look nervous," Davino guessed.

"Yeah, a little. I'm just not used to it."

Davino laughed crisply at the reason Sesil gave. Even so, he still awaits Sesil's decision.

"Just relax. If it doesn't work tonight, we can do it the next night. Just so you know, I also don't agree with this matchmaking. Honestly, I don't love you, and I'm sure you don't love me either, do you?"

Sesil immediately turned to Davino seriously. sHe didn't know what to say now. sHe was confused and stared blankly.

"I'm sorry," she regretted.

Davino just put on a straight face.

"Relax, after all, we are doing this because of my parents' request. So you don't need to be nervous. It all depends on you, just enjoy the process," said Davino.

"Do you want to do it tonight?"

"Are you ready?"

"Should I answer it? After all, whatever my answer won't change the situation. We'll still do that, won't we?" said Sesil resignedly.

"Alright then, I'll start. So be prepared," Davino pleaded.

"Ready? Like how? What should I do? How can I understand if I don't teach it," said Sesil innocently?

Davino laughed in his heart. He had never thought of meeting a woman as innocent as Sesil.

"You need me to teach you?"

"According to you? Do you think I'm experienced? I'm still high, time."

"Yes already. Now you take off your clothes, "said Davino.

Instantly Davino's heart was beating fast. He didn't understand why he could feel that way when Sesil started to unzip her dress.

"What is wrong with me. Why do I feel nervous," he mumbled.

His breath became more uncontrollable when he saw the sesame dress had slipped from his body. Only the red underwear was left on that beautiful body.

"I'm ready," Sesil said and got into the blanket. She looked seriously at Davino, who was still standing in front of him, then slipped into his blanket.

Both are still awkward. Davino was confused about where to start.

"I'm starting now," said Davino.

"Yes," replied Cecil nervously.

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