1 Chapter 1 - No more hell

Where am I?

Where am I going?

I saw myself walking all alone in the dark, but where on earth am I going and why? I asked myself

A dark road

A dark place

Out of nowhere I feel pain Ahhhhhh I yell,

I yell because I don't even know why and what caused this freaken pain, I yelled for help but no one came for my aid

than the pain got worse OK now I'm yelling, why am I painin- ahhhhhhhh i couldn't finish my sentence because of the pain

it's really really getting worse ,my entire body is in agony but no one is hearing me ,

is anyone even here I thought to myself

Out of nowhere I couldn't move I couldn't move I couldn't move I couldn't freaking move i cry repeating the words in my head,

why couldn't I move? I asked myself s*** I cursed under my breath

I'm definitely scared now and I never get scared,not anymore ,

But my vision slowly became blurry

wait no no no

am I going blind

but when I felt something warm running down my cheek I curse again

Just great

I realised I'm not going blind but im actually crying,

I try to stop crying but I couldn't,

I-i just couldn't

I sobned even more knowing that I'm showing the very same signs I hated ,

signs of being weak which was tears , fear stupid emotions i curse,

why am I weak

Why am i this weak I ask myself

Suddenly I wake up still with this freaking tears running down my cheeks, i than quickly wipe this stupid tear away while sad laughing

here am I crying, screaming in my freaken dream asking for help i know i was loud enough I think yet my lovely family is sound asleep note the sarcasm

I sigh they never cared for me they never will .

Checking my phone to know what time it is i smile knowing I have exactly three hours left to be out of this hell i call home

I stood up so I bath well shower to be precise , I love showers who ever invented showers my imaginary hat off to you my brother or sister or both you know what never mind but thank you, I'll have to Google later who invented showers because I'm that weird, I laugh abit jeez my mind noho

After finishing with my lovely shower time I got dressed ,

yep instead of my sweatpants and baggy t-shirt I wore a fitted ripped Jean and a simple t-shirt with black and white strips

Yes that's right

Your girl has changed

LOL look at me changing and all, I swear this was not me years ago, before I would never and I mean NEVER care about my appearance but since I'm going abroad to a totally different place where no one knows me,I could at least try and look ok. Haha I know ripped jeans are not a way to start but hey I never said amma dress like a perfect girl

OK I'm done

Shower check

Clothes packed check

Ticket check

Phone and earphones check

Laptop check

Chargers check

Camera check

Now I'll have to go down stairs to make breakfast for myself and my lovely family, there goes a laugh, yeah right lovely and them good one storměigh good one

After finishing making breakfast my mom ,dad , half brother, uncle, aunt , their two girls that sleeps around yet my uncle and aunt hates me? Me for being responsible and studying hard to make myself useful like really now, eitherways they came to the kitchen with their look at her stares that I'm used to by now , taking plates out for them to show respect and putting on my best fake smile on wondering why I should respect

Ah ah ah noo

I quickly zoned out of my thoughts when I heard that sound

well that right there my good people is��my lovely mom ,I ask her what was wrong because i was genuinely concerned but by the look she gave me I knew it,she looked at me with disgust and said don't touch the food you might contaminat the food i sigh but smiled and said sorry I won't touch it mama I told her which is weird since I cooked it ahh lol wait wait,wait a minute when did she even add contaminat in her vocabulary ahh mom I smile abit she is something really..

After I finished eating and washing dishes i told them I'm off to college now and they smiled at me lovingly which caught me off guard but I smiled back which later on faded because of what came out of their mouth and i quote

"if you don't die in the airplane than that will be a shame"

ahh I sigh with a smile lovely family of mine heh?

Note the sarcasm

With that I left

Airport time I said with a smile but frowned than I cursed I'm scared of heights well this will be great

yep another sarcasm there from your one and only, me

I closed my eyes shut afraid for my life when I was on board but opened when we where up in the air above the clouds didn't know that's even possible ,that only happens in movies right right?wait it's my first flight shut up storměigh I told myself than decided to take out my camera and took a picture lord I love the view ,beautiful

And took another in the night

Than closed my eyes listening to my favourite song slow up by jacob banks

What I've learnt from the ocean

Hard to dance and rejoice in the motion

Let the sun have its moment

The moon will come

What I've learnt from a soldier

Every man is a son to a daughter

And we only remember

When we see the blood

Don't grow up on me

Keep that backstroke in your Afro

Don't you grow up on me

Slow up homie

Don't you grow up on me

Keep it OG sipping slowly

Don't you grow up on me

Slow up homie

Don't you show off on me

Don't you grow up on me

Show off on me

What I've learnt from a traveler

There's no road that can lead to nirvana

There's a world to discover

But home is love

Mhm

What I've learnt from a mirror

Look too hard and you'll find you a stranger

Love is just a decision

The choice is yours

Don't grow up on me

Keep that backstroke in your Afro

Don't you grow up on me

Slow up homie

Don't you grow up on me

Keep it OG sipping slowly

Don't you grow up on me

Slow up homie

Don't you show off on me

Don't you grow up on me

Slow up homie

Don't you grow up on me

Don't grow up on me

Wear your Afro like your backbone

Don't you grow up on me

Slow up homie

Don't you grow up on me

Keep it OG sipping slowly

Don't you grow up on me

Slow up homie

Don't you grow up on me

Wear that Afro like your backbone

Don't you grow up on me

Slow up homie

Don't you grow up on me

Keep it OG sipping slowly

Don't you grow up on me

Slow up homie

Don't you show off on me

Don't you grow up on me

Don't you grow up on me

Slow up homie

I listen to the slow soothing words booming in my ears awaiting for my Destiny

Australia here i come

with that i fell asleep with a smile on me knowing I'm far away from hell...

Africa to Australia i chunt over and over I couldn't believe it,I smile again

GREAT

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