DIANDRA WAS HEARTBROKEN

Carrying all his belonging sh dump out of her room into his room Alex drop everything on the bed, slumping down alongside it.

Closing his eyes trying to think rational as he console his heart, 'She will calm down in a little while, she is not that vicious, but I can't imagine what has come over her to behave in that manner?

She sound as though she had bundled up everything within, and just explore just as a volcano erupted.

Of all times, why did this had to happen now? We was so comfortable enjoying each other company.

Oh Lord, it is just a few more days we are together, and I wanted us to part in friendly terms, so we could spend time on the weekends.'

Whispering a prayer knowing now that is the only thing that could pacify her heart. "Oh Lord, I never expected this chaos could occurred. I wanted an idea to convince her to stay but if she leave the way she is angry now, we will never be reunited."

Feeling the hot tears flowing, "I love her so much, so how am I going to live without her, if she leaves this time with this misunderstanding, Oh Father please don't let that happen."

Sprinting of the bed going to the room knocking softly, hoping she will open, so we could clear up the misunderstanding, but she never opened the door.

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Diandra waited patiently as soon as the front door close Tuesday morning, then walks into his room. Shifting the curtain aside to get a glimpse of him before leaving for work.

Wiping the tears away for the pain of her lost, watching the van leave knowing that he have forgotten today is Tuesday, and she won't see him again.

Whispering, "I am very sorry for locking the door on you, but it was the only way I could have executed the separation between us."

Hurrying Diandra shower and change, then finish her packing. Hanging up the gowns he bought for her and all the accessories he bought to go with it.

Not wanting to see them as a reminder every moment because of her love, but she know the sacrifice she had to make.

Diandra took her belonging she came with, having no choice knowing she brought this upon herself, and no one was to be blamed except herself because of her foolishness.

In the three years we live under the same roof, she had love him, but these two weeks together, everything has change. Now my stupidity have ruin my peace of mind, and messed up everything.'

Calling a taxi then took her bag next to the gate, slowly looking around, Diandra, knew her memories will definitely be different from when she left the last time.

She was hurt and angry when she promised never to return, Diandra, knew she love this house but it never bothered her, but this time her heart is remaining behind.

Hearing the taxi, Diandra press the gate alarm then hold her bag and step out. Sitting in the taxi Diandra waited until the gate was close before she asked the driver to take her to the train station.

At the train station Diandra bought her ticket then waited patiently for the train to arrive for Longfield.

Sitting by the window so no one will see her as the flow of tears came that she has been stifling since she left his home.

As the train leaves Diandra bid Brixton good bye, knowing she won't have any reason for returning in a long while.

Diandra silently wipe the tears feeling incomplete and lost, with her eyes closed Diandra recalls how he keep knocking at the door begging her to open.

'She knows that she will not see him anymore, neither feel his touch. She will never see his smile again.' Feeling the tears flow more heavily.

When the elderly gentleman touches her hand, "Are you going to be all right child?" Looking at him he was in a milk white suit, he had long white beards and his voice sound so caring and full of concern.

Unable to say a word she just nod her head, taking some deep breath trying desperately to control her emotions.

Hearing his gentle voice saying, "There is nothing to worry about child, I can see God working out the problem even now as we speak."

Nodding once more hearing the comforting words. But what was shocking was when he said, "Child, God understands the heart, He know whatever you are going through,

He collect your tears and gathered it in jars, don't worry because He always ministers when there is a problem.

Try and understand He allows things to follow our path and uses those situations to guide us to a place of betterment and happiness."

Diandra thought, 'How on earth that's going to happen when I already misses his smile and touch.'

Wiping her face but the flow didn't stop, just thinking, 'When I won't be able to hear when he calls me honey or sweetheart.

Or when he takes me in his arms making me feel safe. How could this be betterment when I am heartbroken and we are going to be so far apart.

I have conceal so many things from those that love me, how am I going to explain those things now for them to understand. They will become angry with me, I know that?

But then this is not His fault, I had complicated thing by shattering his feelings to pieces. When I first came to Longfield, I was so broken and You send Sam and Maria to help me.

Now it is only You who can help me put the pieces back together. I cannot hurt them neither let them know what had transpired.

I will need Your strength and courage to face each day, I cannot lose Champ and Alex must never know how much I love him.

Please Lord when his head is cleared up and he realized that I have left, please give him the strength and courage to accept my decision.

Lord I never meant to hurt him, neither locked the door on him but I could not tell him about Champ, and I seized that opportunity to resolve that situation.'