Shame
*Pluto's P.O.V*
Where is my mate? Is he mad at me? Or even...scared?
"Alpha Pluto, the food is getting cold. Are you sure you don't want me to go find him?" My attention snaps to Noni, my adoptive grandmother.
"Noni... It's okay. I will go find him." I stand up and direct my attention to my pack. "I apologize to keep you waiting, unfortunately Alpha Hades has not made his way down to our family dinner tonight. Please, eat and talk as if this were any other night. Beta, please ensure border patrol gets their dinner and apologize on my behalf." And with a nod, I walk out of the dining room and begin the search for my mate.
*Daemyn's P.O.V*
My stomach rumbles for the fiftieth time in the last half hour. I have scoured the entire second floor looking for some stairs to lead me to the delicious smell below, however I have not succeeded. What did I do to this house in my past life for it to do this to me?
With a sigh I slump against one of the hallway walls next to the bedroom. Yep. I walked around the entire second floor (that I know of, cause, ya know there could be a secret passageway or something) and ended up right where I had started.
An amazing smell once again floods my nostrils as I take in a deep breath. However, this time it was different; it made me feel like I was free, like I was powerful, almost as if I could do anything. Almost.
"Mate? Is that you?" Her voice sounded...almost vulnerable? But why?
"Y-yes Alp- Pluto."
*Pluto's P.O.V*
The tremble in his voice...it sounds familiar, too familiar. The slight wince when he was about to call me Alpha, the hesitation when he called me Pluto? It's obvious. My mate is...scared of me.
'Noni?' By now tears were building up, I think my Noni heard it too.
'Honey? What's wrong? Do you need anything?'
'Could you...could you please get my mate some food and make sure he's comfortable? I'm going for a run Noni'
I turn away from my mate before he see's my tears fall, "Noni's going to bring you some food and make sure you're comfortable. If you need anything just ask her." A tear falls and splatters onto the floorboards and I can tell from the now quiet house that everyone felt it, my heart just broke.
I wasn't surprised when he just stood in his position, unanswering. What would you do if the thing you feared most was crying? If the thing you feared most was something you were supposed to love unconditionally?
The pain in my heart spread throughout my entire chest, making it almost unbearable to breathe. It was time for my run.
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I look at my reflection using the crystal clear water from the pool below the sanctuary's waterfall. I feel numb. My tears had dried out some time ago. I could feel the pack's sadness radiate through my soul, making me shudder and my head pound. Though, the head pound isn't entirely at the fault of the depressing moods. They were trying to get in my mind, trying to get me to come home, to find out if I was alright. I couldn't return in my state. Just staring down into the water has me wincing at my reflection. I had dirt smudge across my face , twigs in my hair and a small cut that runs across my left cheekbone.
With a deep breath I make my decision. It was time to be the Alpha I need to be for my pack, yes finding out my mate was scared of me hurt, it hurt like hell but that doesn't mean I should ditch my responsibilities and lay all of my unwanted emotion all over the place, letting my pack soak it all up. It was time to own up to it. My mate is scared of me, but my pack needs me.
Shrugging out of my clothes, I dive into the cold water and wash out the mud and twigs from my face and hair. There isn't much I can do about the cut, but that should heal on its own within the hour.
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I slowly walk into the pack house, still in wolf form. My pack members around me are quiet, slowly they lower themselves, showing me their respect, showing me their allegiance- their loyalty. I look around at them and silently break down. My legs start shaking, making them untrustworthy, so I lower myself to the floor and rest my head on my front paws in shame. What kind of Alpha can't walk in a room filled with her pack members showing respect?
I've failed you daddy, i'm sorry.
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