1 The Art Of Anxiety

Yeah, it sucks, doesn't it? That bubbly feeling inside your stomach and nervous system. The feeling that it is the end of the world, and you don't want to exist anymore? Yeah, I've had that way too many times.

Hello, my name is Jason, and I'm a freshman. I have anxiety hence the title. The number of times I have not wanted to talk to someone is enormous.

On the First day of school, I was scared to even step foot on the campus of my high school. Its huge and the memories of getting lost my past schools started to flood in, but i luckily made it to my first period class.

It was math, which is what I was good at.

The table I was seated at was with two girls. One of them was blonde and wearing a pink shirt and jeans, The other was a brunette and wore a white jacket with sweatpants. This didn't bother me because they were surprisingly shy as well.

The rest of the day was just the same thing over and over again.

"Alright class lets review the class" type shit.

Today, I did not have to talk to anybody other than the teachers, but the next day was horrifying.

In my fifth period writing class, I had to talk about myself

"Alright, Jason it's your turn" the teacher said

I was left in shock.

Why would she call on me out of all people! My heart was racing like at the speed of a internet connection.

Words couldn't express how surprised and Fearful of this situation.

I didn't know what to say.

Will they judge me? Will they hurt me? Will they blatantly embarrass me?!